Opening Note:

No trigger warnings for this chapter

Reflections on the Sex Apocalypse

"Hilda…Hilda, wake up."

My eyes flickered open to find Bianca looming over me and nudging me awake. It was still night and Lilith's sleeping body remained snuggled against my side. The sight of our naked bodies intimately linked spelled the obvious, but I probably should have been more embarrassed than I was. The fatigue from the emotional day and the sex Lilith and I had made it difficult to feel too concerned under the scrutiny of my friend.

"Sorry, we're a pretty poor lookout team, huh? Good thing you were awake." A yawn slipped from my lips as I gently removed Lilith's arm from off me and staggered to my feet.

"Whatever. Could you put some clothes on now?" The chilled tone of Bianca's voice reminded me of the cold that had seeped into my bones during my slumber.

"Right. Just give me a second." Shivers started to plague my body as I slinked around in search of my clothes. Lilith's fluids had long solidified and stuck to my skin, and the realization that I was creeping around naked before my best friend while caked in saliva, sweat, and cum finally made my cheeks blush with a more appropriate shade of embarrassment. My attire scaled closer to skimpy than substantial, but when I finally redressed myself I breathed a sigh of relief. I was a little warmer and at least I was decent again.

"There. Sorry you had to see that." I paused and gently kicked the grass under my feet. "So I guess you know what happened."

"I was outside the whole time. I could have watched if I wasn't busy shielding my eyes."

"You were? Well, that's not totally embarrassing or anything. You should have said something."

"I didn't want to interrupt."

An awkward silence crept between us as my eyes shifted underneath her icy stare.

"Are you mad? Do you want to talk about something?"

"I'm fine. Go take your snivy and go back to sleep in the cave. It's two o'clock – my turn to keep watch."

"Wait, what were you doing outside? And where's Callu? Is she sleeping?"

Bianca closed her eyes and took a deep breath before speaking again. "Callu is inside her pokeball. I couldn't sleep, so I went outside to spend some time with you. Then I saw what you and your pokemon were doing."

"Ah…." Another bout of silence roused between us. "You're mad at me for doing that, aren't you? Don't lie. I know when you're mad; we've known each other since we were little. You might be more subtle about it than I am, but it's still obvious to me."

"Don't worry about it. Just go back to sleep."

"Bianca, just say what's bothering you. I'm not going to drop this until you do."

"Fine. You want me to be honest? I think it's really messed up that you had sex with your pokemon. I don't care if they look like us, I don't care if they can all talk now or whatever, it's just wrong. Especially after what happened back at Nuvema, I can't believe you did those things with one of them."

"I mean…" I stalled from the contempt searing from Bianca's eyes. "I don't blame you for feeling that way – I can't really believe I did that after everything we saw in Nuvema, either. They're doing something to us though – playing with our biology, I think. Despite all the horrible things that happened, I felt so turned on all day. When Lilith came onto me I tried to resist, at first, but I was only kidding myself. I wanted it just as bad as she did."

I waited for a response but earned none. The contempt in her eyes had been replaced with a distant look and she turned her head away from my direction, tilting her chin up to search at the stars.

"You feel it too, don't you?" I asked.

Bianca didn't initially reply, but eventually her head nodded slightly, although her eyes still veered away from mine.

"Then you understand why I did it. And look, I know they've changed but I don't really think they're all that much different than you might think. Yeah, they've physically transformed and there's the whole talking thing, but their personalities are still the same: they're just sex crazed now, and that's not their fault. When I was talking to Lilith, she had the same personality she did when she was a pokemon. She was arrogant with a false sense of superiority, but underneath all that she was really endearing and sweet. It matched up with my perception of her from before, when she was just a regular snivy."

"So?" said Bianca.

"So, what I'm saying is that they're not evil or twisted. I don't know why the wild ones seem more aggressive, maybe they're just feeling the effects of whatever happened more intensely, but I think that they're still the same pokemon from before. Yeah, they're really attractive now and they're probably doing something to us to make us lust after them so hard, but I don't think they're doing it consciously. Besides...connecting with Lilith that way was really nice. I actually enjoyed it and I think we wouldn't have gotten so close if all this didn't happen."

"So what?" snapped Bianca, anger refilling her eyes as she glared at me again. "Are you saying that this is a good thing? That things are better now that our town is overrun with perverted monsters? That you actually like having sex with your freaking pokemon?!"

"Settle down! What if the wild ones hear us?"

Bianca huffed and crossed her arms, but when she spoke again, she did so in a sharp whisper. "Who cares? Sooner or later it's going to happen to us too, if not from them then from our own pokemon. You saw what was happening to all those people back at Nuvema. They were enjoying all that sick stuff that was being done to them. They're brainwashing us into sex slaves; the only difference between our pokemon and the wild ones are that they're not pinning us down and doing it by force."

"Bianca," I murmured. "What's gotten into you? I know things are really scary right now, but I've never seen you act this way before. How can you even say that I like this? I wish it never happened. This was supposed to be the beginning of our great adventure. I've been dreaming about this day since I knew what a pokemon trainer was and now it's turned into a living nightmare. I don't have a hometown anymore and I might not ever see my mom again…maybe things will go back to normal someday, but who knows what the fuck is happening? I hate this just like you do but all I was trying to say was that something good came out of it. That's all."

"Well I think what she did to you wasn't good at all. You would have never acted this way before – you were even more nervous about your first time with someone than I was. If they're really playing with our biology than how can you trust them? They kept us safe through the forest, sure, but all they really care about now is having sex with us. Lilith corrupted you."

"She did not!" The boom from my voice made Bianca flinch. The outburst even took me by surprise and I forced myself to reign in my creeping anger before allowing myself to speak again. "Look, my emotions are a little all over the place. I didn't mean to yell. But you're wrong – Lilith isn't corrupting me like you think she is. She would never hurt me or do anything bad to me. I think she really cares about me, and so do all our pokemon. Look how they've been protecting us. If they really wanted to, they could have forced us to do whatever they wanted, but they haven't. If anything, they're our greatest hope in all this insanity."

Bianca shook her head, but she no longer regarded me with scorn. "Cheren and the professor were doing the same things that you were."

"What? You mean…?"

"Yes. That's the real reason I came out here. I heard them making weird sounds in the dark. At first I wasn't sure what was happening, the noises were brief and kind of hushed, but then Callu…." Bianca shuddered. "Callu started touching me too. I put two and two together and realized the same thing was probably happening to Cheren and the professor – only I didn't give in. It was harder than I'd like to admit but all I kept thinking about was Nuvema, about mom and dad…. I wouldn't let myself be twisted like all those people. So I forced Callu back in her pokeball and stormed outside – that's when I saw you...and her."

It was hypocritical, but the thought of Cheren and the professor having sex with their pokemon unsettled me. To me, Cheren was the epitome of calm, cool, and collected, and the professor had been my biggest role model and secret crush since I was a little girl. To imagine them giving into their baser needs tainted my perceptions of them, even though I had just done the same thing.

"I guess I kind of understand where you're coming from, now," I said, scrunching my lips and drifting my eyes to the ground. "Trying to picture Cheren and the professor doing something like that…even though the same thing happened to me, it's still hard to believe. It just seems so out of character."

"Yeah," said Bianca. "It's like everyone around me is becoming a different person. I didn't know that I could feel more alone after today, but when I heard what Cheren and the professor were doing…and when I saw you…."

"You must feel like you're the only one trying to hold on to the way things were before."

"Something like that."

I could barely feel the cold now and as Bianca and I stood before each other, I turned to run my eyes over the flowers surrounding us. It was eerie the way they glowed like ghosts under the pale light of the moon – totally different than how warm and inviting they looked while bathing in the sunlight. They were blanketed in a shade of mystery now and their sweet aroma was sharpened by the cold. The fact that they appeared even more beautiful than they did in the daylight only added to the strange sensation they instilled. How something could seem so familiar yet so incomprehensible, alluring yet unnerving.

"I guess it's not so different, though."

"What?" questioned Bianca.

"I don't know. Even though things seem like they're spinning out of control, I don't really feel like I've become a different person. Some things have become more intense, like my desire, but I'm still Hilda. I think Lilith is still Lilith. I'm sure Cheren and the professor are still the same people too. We've just been thrown into a scenario we've never imagined we'd be in before – cast under a strange light. Things have changed, but I don't think you have to worry about us losing ourselves."

"Maybe you're right…but it's kind of hard to believe you, right now. Those people back in Nuvema sure didn't seem like they were the same anymore. I would never make the noises they made, not while being violated among all those carcasses."

"Yeah…" I kind of hated Bianca for bringing me back to that moment, but I did my best to shake the image out of my head. "But let's not even think about that anymore. The point is that our pokemon haven't done anything to harm us, so far, and I don't think they ever will. It might seem weird to say, but I enjoyed making love with Lilith. That doesn't mean you have to like what I did, but I hope you can at least respect my decision. One thing I promise you is that I won't change too much: we'll always be best friends, Bianca, no matter what."

"I'm not sure how much of a decision it was, the way they seem to be manipulating our attraction." Bianca smiled weakly. "But I'll try. Believe it or not, I feel a little better. I think it's just good to know that someone else can see where I'm coming from. I'm sorry if I seemed like I was angry at you. It's not really you it's just…everything."

"I totally get it. Now come here." I drew Bianca in and wrapped her in my arms. "I know things are tough, but we'll get through this. Just remember, we're all on your team."

"Thanks, Hilda. If I had to stick it out through a pokemon sex apocalypse with anyone, there's no one I'd rather want by my side."

"Hah. I'm not sure how I should feel about that...but thanks."

"Aww, how sweet," cooed Lilith.

Bianca and I jumped in our embrace, heads twisting around to face the voice's host.

"Lilith!" I hissed. "Damn it, you scared the crap out of me. How long have you been awake?"

Lazily, Lilith removed herself from off the grass and stretched her arms up towards the stars, standing upright as she did so. "Awhile: long enough to hear your friend's concerns about me. She's right, you know. I am going to corrupt you." Lilith smirked as her eyes wandered up and down Bianca's body. "Maybe I'll corrupt her too. Callu couldn't do it but I bet I could."

I punched Lilith in the shoulder. "Knock it off. I know you're only joking but you're really not helping, right now."

"Joking?" repeated Lilith, enduring the punch without so much as a flinch. "Who's joking? The big, bad, naughty pokemon really is going to turn you both into her mindless sex slaves, what with her intrusive vines, magic pheromones, and wicked desire."

Bianca and I returned Lilith's jests with a pair of cold, unamused stares, which only succeeded in deepening her smirk.

"Fine, I'll stop. I just think it's funny this one is so scared of me."

"I have a name," said Bianca. "Now just leave me alone. I was starting to feel better before it woke up."

"It, hm? If evil, lecherous monsters like me actually had souls, you would have hurt my poor feelings. Now I definitely have my sights set on you."

Before things could escalate, I yanked Lilith by the wrist and pulled her a few steps away from where Bianca stood. "I apologize on behalf of my jerk pokemon. I promise she doesn't mean anything by it. I was going to offer to stay up with you, but I doubt you're in the mood anymore."

"I'm really not," replied Bianca.

"Yeah...I understand." I looked at the pout on Bianca's lips and felt my own lips form into a frown. "Sorry that happened. I'll see you in the morning, I guess? Just promise me you'll be safe out here. Shout if anything happens, even if it's just a bad feeling."

"Sure," said Bianca, turning away from me and crossing her arms.

After a few seconds ticked by, I averted my eyes from Bianca and headed towards the cave, withdrawing my hand from Lilth's as we approached it.

"You really were being a jerk."

"I was joking. Your friend was the one who took things so seriously. She needs to get over herself."

"Well, if you were listening to us like you said you were, you would have known why she felt the way she did. She didn't have the greatest opinion of you and the other pokemon, and that was before you had to open up your stupid mouth and make it worse."

Lilith stopped before the entrance of the cave. "You're mad too?"

"That wasn't obvious?" I asked, turning to face her. "You pissed off my friend for no good reason. Of course I'm mad at you."

"But I wasn't being serious. You know that."

"Is that supposed to make it any better? You still upset her."

"Well she needs to get over herself. It's not easy for us either – we never had to deal with these urges before. We just had sex and I already want to do it again. Imagine how Callu feels, shut up in one of those stupid balls and punished for acting on desires she can't control."

"I understand, but still…." Like they had minds of their own, my eyes started to wander over the contours of Lilith's naked figure. "So, you want to do it again?"

Lilith smiled. "You do too? I thought you were mad at me."

"I was – I still am, a little. But…" The heat in my body started to rise, thawing the frost from my bones and coaxing me to take a step closer to Lilith. "Fuck, I'm a horrible person for wanting to do this after everything how angry you made her. I don't want to do it in the cave though, in case the others are sleeping…or awake, for that matter."

"We can try and be quiet." Lilith bridged the gap between our bodies, moving her hands to the sides of my waist. "That might be fun."

I bit my bottom lip. "Tempting, but no. Is Bianca looking over at us? Let's sneak somewhere else."

"Who cares if she is?" Taking me by the hand, Lilith lead me away from the cave and towards a nearby growth of sunflowers, their petals wilted slightly and sleeping under the darkness. "Behind the flowers. Follow me, my little slave."

"Shut up. You're terrible."

"You're being just as bad."

She wasn't wrong, so I kept my mouth shut as Lilith whisked me away behind the sleeping patch of sunflowers, where she began to undress me once again.

End Note:

This chapter just kind of popped out of my desire to give Bianca some more screen time and to see what would happen once Hilda had a chance to reflect on all the happenings of the past day. It's not really sexy - there's not any action or smut- but I really enjoyed writing it.

Plus I totally want to write some Hilda and Bianca smut, eventually. Whether that will actually happen remains to be seen, the story is sort of taking on a life of its own as events unfold.

Thanks to everyone who's given me kudos and bookmarked me, so far (even you two sneaky, hidden bookmark people - don't think I don't see you snooping around over there!). Comments are really, really great too, but I'm just happy some people are actually enjoying this weird futanari, apoclyptic, smutty, pokemon adventure drama.

As always, any feedback you wish to give will be treasured, and feel free to shoot me any suggestions or any pairings you'd like to explore!

P.S The next chapter will introduce our first character from another fandom! Yay! Free cookies to anyone who successfully guesses who she is before chapter 6 (no peeking at my tumblr page, either!).