Chapter 4

An unexpected event...

Then,there was that day which was not different than the others. I had woken up and got downstairs to the kitchen room-my eyes fell to a newspaper that Charlie had left on the wooden table. Fortunately,he had already departed for his work so we,the three of us had the house free of his presence...

-Can't you just say "Good morning" anymore? asked my mother,whose presence I had forgotten because my eyes were staring to the news I was reading:

"Mother killed her children. Sent away to Psychological Clinic..."

-For god's sake! I said loudly full of disgust for learning that terrible event.

-Charlie read it all...you'd better avoid reading such news unless you have a very thick stomach. replied my mum who was not missing a single chance to remind me how important Charlie was for her. I had got pretty embarassed and preferred not to discuss the Charlie theme so early in the morning-I really did not want any more fights-but at least I owed some vital words to my mother.

-Good morning mum... Sorry,I was absorbed. She smiled,making me understand there was no reason to apologise,for she was full of tenderness. Even in our worst fights she never stopped radiating love and warmth for me,the same she did for my brother,too. When we,the two siblings were fighting she was always trying to explain us that we had no reason to do so,because everything within this house was shared.

-Sit down,honey,breakfast's ready. By the way,can you call your brother to join us?

-Let him sleep some more,mum...

-It's not good for him to be outside so late in the night,Leah. I worry about him,wondering where he goes and what he does all this time.

Well now what do you think my answer would be? Should I tell her that he's transforming into a giant wolf to cross the dark woods safely and then visit the ones he calls his friends- who were nothing more than simple vegetarian vampires??!!

-He 's grown and knows how to protect himself now. I replied and tried to be as calm as I could,although she was not the only one who had the right to worry about Seth. Nevertheless,I knew that my words would trigger a much more difficult topic to discuss than that of Seth. She would sigh how quickly time goes by,and that would be the tip of the iceberg. It was just that this time I was feeling something less predictable would happen.

-Oh my...how you've grown...! there she went my mother!

-Natural flow of time. I answered with a cold voice in hope that she would accept it and say nothing more. Time waits for no one,so they say it goes on forever,that is the most undoubted truth that has ever existed since the beginning of creation. I wanted to make her understand that this topic was over. But I wasn't able to,and here she came again to ignite the bomb...

-My sweet Leah,since time flows quickly why don't you decide what to study and where?

-Because I'm not interested in anything. I replied while I was eating my cereals- not cheerfully at all.

-My little bird,I know how much you have suffered but this is not the end! Have you ever thought how good it would be for you to choose a subject,meet someone-maybe from your class-and when everything's well to get married to him? Forget Sam and...

-Stop it! I screamed at her before she could finish her sentence. She didn't realise how painful it was for me to listen to their names- even though they had never abandoned my mind. But these words spoken straight from my own mother's mouth was unbearable. Actually,she believed that if she showed me how things really were,I would realise them and find my old good self-the Leah who had not met Sam yet. So,since my mum run out of ideas she made an attempt to mention a different example and the bomb who was ready to explode was the last thing I could ever expect...

-Leah,look at me. You don't have any idea how much pain I felt when I lost your father and how important he was for me. But I am still a young woman,I am alive,I breathe,I laugh,I cry,I exist whereas he doesn't! And his last wish for me was never to give up,ever!I had to go on with my life,marry a good man who's fullfilling the needs of my soul and built a new family...

I got so angry when she mentioned my father that no god or demon would be able to hold my wrath. How did she dare bringing him into her lips? My dad died in this world but he lives in another one,less hostile and vain,where he expects us all to join him one day... What was she trying to say by the words "new family"??

-What are you talking mum? I asked her with hostility,waiting to get an answer to confirm what was spoken from her mouth the minutes earlier since a very strange thought occured to me for less than a second... Her silence made this suspicious thought of mine grow bigger and last for longer than some seconds since she did not know how to cope with the incident that gave her so much happiness but she was afraid to express it openly because of me...

-I haven't told Charlie yet,I want to make him a suprise. Please,don't tell anyone. Not even your brother.

My face got pretty calm and I promised her to keep my word.

I have to admit-deep inside I was happy by the thought of a new sibling coming although I preferred not to show her so openly. What did it matter if the child belonged to Charlie? It was my mother's,too! Nevertheless,that little demon hiding within every complicated human mind could not leave me in peace. What if Charlie's genes won over and the child ended up being a weird freak like Bella,so anticipating and anti-social? But the good angel within my mind was trying to calm me down. That child was an innocent existence who would built up it's own personality- we the Clearwaters would give a hand to it...