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Then: "They have a twenty-four to forty-eight hour watch on him but after that they will try to get him moved down here." Caleb spoke up as he sat in a chair by the bed. "What do we do until then?" Dean asked wanting to go check on Sammy. He decided against making a run for it as he eyed the restraints. John sighed sadly and took a sip of coffee. "We wait."
Now: Two days had passed since the wreck and Dean was finally on his way to see his brother. He had a bandage across his head, but other than that he was doing better. He passed a room and heard crying. His heart clenched and he prayed Sam was okay. Dean had checked out of the hospital a day after he had been admitted and the doctors had told him he couldn't go into the ICU until now. The risk of pneumonia had greatly decreased so they were allowing one visitor at a time. A doctor stood just outside the ICU door and instructed Dean to be as gentle as he could with his brother.
"Just talk to him about everyday things and guide him in the right direction since his memory might be unclear." The doctor said as he walked Dean into the room. "Try to ignore the wires, just standard procedure."
Dean's eyes widened as he saw his brother, seemingly lifeless on the hospital bed. He was covered in medical equipment, but thankfully he was breathing on his own. He followed the wire that lead to the heart monitor and it looked like Sam's heartbeat was steady. The hospital gown Sam was in was a light blue and his sheets were an off white. Dean sat in the chair next to him and laid his hand softly on Sam's.
"D'n?" Sam asked, waking up. Dean noticed Sam looked tired but didn't seem like he was in pain.
"Hey Sammy. How you feeling?" Dean asked.
"Been better." Sam laughed softly as he peered around the room in a daze.
"Anything hurt?"
"Not right now. Are you okay?" Sam asked looking up at Dean's bandage on his head. Dean smiled at him reassuringly. Of course Sam was worried about him.
"Yeah, just four stiches and I was sent packing." Dean said. Sam smiled and tried blinking away the tears that were forming. "Hey, what's wrong?"
"I-I'm sorry." Sam said choking up. He looked away from Dean shamefully.
"What are you sorry about?"
"I gave up." Sam whispered. Dean reached over and rubbed Sam's shoulder.
"No you didn't Sam. You're here. We're both okay. Dad, Bobby and Caleb got us out."
"I thought I was going to die Dean. And I was okay with it." Sam tried to explain. Dean fell silent as he realized what his brother meant.
"Sam look at me." Dean said in a hardened tone. Sam slowly looked up at him, his puppy dog eyes misty from tears. "What happened then doesn't matter. The point is that we are okay. That you are okay." Sam nodded and leaned his head back on his pillow. "Get some sleep and I'll send dad in later. I think Bobby said Dad and Caleb are at the hotel down the street."
"Okay." Sam said and was asleep instantly. Dean blinked back tears. His brother had apologized for the wreck when it was his fault. It was just like Sammy to try and take the blame. Dean shoved back his chair as he got up and walked out of the room. The doctor waited on the other side of the door and nodded to him as he left. Bobby stood up from the ground as Dean walked past him.
"Dean?" Bobby called after him. Dean didn't turn around as he made his way out of the hospital. He needed to get away. He wanted to break something, or hurt somebody. No. He wanted to take Sam's place on that bed. He wanted to be the one dying. It was his fault that Sam was there in the first place. If he had just been paying attention, none of this would have happened. Why didn't Sam blame him? Sam was in the hospital because of him. He had almost died! A hand grabbed him roughly from behind and Dean turned around swinging. Bobby blocked the punch and grabbed ahold of Dean's shoulders.
"What in the hell is wrong with you boy?!" Bobby yelled at him. He barely noticed the odd stares of people walking down the busy street.
"It's my fault Bobby. Sam is in there because of me!" Dean yelled.
"Boy, you listen to me. It wasn't your fault. Sam's okay and pretty soon he's going to be asking for you."
"I ran off the road." Dean said miserably. "I got distracted and ran into the tree. Sam didn't have his seatbelt on." Bobby paused and pulled the young man into a hug.
"We all make mistakes Dean. Sam forgives you, I forgive you. Even though this whole thing is giving me a heart attack." Bobby said. "I don't care what happened. You are still apart of this family and I ain't letting you run off on your family."
"He wanted to die." Dean said so softly Bobby almost didn't hear him.
"What do you mean?"
"You didn't hear what he said to me. I woke up and saw Sam through the windshield. His head was on the hood of the impala and I thought he was dead." Dean said. Bobby stayed quiet and let him continue. "He woke up and pushed himself back into the car, he could hardly move. Blood started coming out of his mouth and I thought he was going to die. Right there in front of me and there was nothing I could do. Sam, he tried to tell me it was okay." Dean shook his head. Bobby's heart broke for him, but he knew Dean had to get passed what had happened.
"Dean, you've got to let this guilt go. It's going to eat you alive."
"Then let it." Dean said looking up at Bobby. Before he knew what he was doing, Bobby slapped Dean across the face. He grabbed Dean by the shirt and forced him to look him in the eye.
"Listen you idjit. You ain't falling off the deep end. You hear me?" Bobby said. "You stop having this pity party and be there for your brother. What's done is done and he needs you." Dean nodded and Bobby let go of his shirt. Dean still felt guilty but he realized the old hunter was right. It had been a mistake and walking out on his brother now wouldn't solve anything. Together they made their way back to the ICU and waited for Sam to wake up. Dean swore to himself that he would never let his brother down again. He would always be there for him and he'd make it his job to set things right.
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