Okay so this is also in Eli's point of view. I really hope you guys like it! :) The next one is in Clare's point of view. Enjoy!
"How long have you been sitting there for?" I ask her as I attempt to sit up but the cast on my leg prevents me from moving very far, so I end up in a very awkward half sitting half lying position.
"Umm, maybe twenty minutes? How are you doing?" She looks down at the ground the back up with me. I can tell she uncomfortable and I don't blame her. This room is very creepy.
"I'll be fine; the doctors said I can leave as soon as I feel up to it, so maybe today."
"That's really good Eli, I'm glad you're feeling better"
"Clare, why did you really come here?" She looks down again at her hands, which are gripping each other so tightly that her knuckles are white. She looks back up at me to see that I am looking at her hands too. She quickly drops them and says, "To see how you've been doing."
"Ohh so you still care about me" I say as I look past her, my face is full of hurt and I can tell that she notices by the way she is looking at me. Why do people feel the need to show me sympathy? I'm perfectly fine. "Why did you really come Clare?"
"I just told you, to see if you're alright and I guess you are so I'll go now." She starts to walk away and I can see that I hurt her with my last few comments so I grab her wrist to stop her and she looks back at me. The déjà vu, from when Clare left me last time in the hospital room, is overwhelming so I drop her wrist.
"Clare, please. I'm sorry for the way I acted. I was wrong and stupid and you deserve way better than me. I get that now. But please forgive me. That's all I want."
She turns around and looks me in the eyes as she says, "I forgive you" She pauses at the door and turns around to ask. "Do you forgive me Eli?"
"What do you mean?" I ask confused about her question. She walks back over to my bed (if you could even call it a bed) and says, "For not going with you to Bloomington, for ditching you and going the dance and for walking out of here the other day." Her voice gets quieter as she finishes explaining. I can see the hurt in her eyes, the way she blames herself for what happened. I've always been able to read Clare like an open book, I think it's one thing that attracted me to her.
"Of course" I say.
She half smiles and then says, "Well I guess I should let you get some rest. Goodbye Eli" she starts to walk out of the room but I stop her.
"Clare, wait!" She turns to look and me and waits for me to continue. "Can you stay, please? I just feel like I need you here with me. If you need to go I understand but I would really like it if you would stay." The words come out of my mouth in a jumbled mess, unlike I attended, because the tears start coming down. I do my best to stop them but, no matter how hard I try to stop them, they just keep coming. It must be the stupid medication they have put me on.
Clare rushes to my side and holds me as I cry. I never thought that I would ever get to wrap my arms around her again, but as I do I realize how much I missed it. About 20 minutes go by before she lets go of me. She stays seated on my bed but her eyes are off in the distance. I can that she is in deep thought and not knowing what is going through her mind and is killing me. I want to help but I don't want to cross any boundaries. Getting that embrace from her will last me for the day. But I still have to find a way to get back together with her, without sounding needy, pushy or desperate. I don't think she realizes how much I love her, but if I'm to get her back all I have to do its prove it to her that I'm still madly in love with her and that we have to be together. But if I only knew what she was thinking about right now.
Let me know what you think! I'll let you guys in on a secret... the next one is really juicy! :) Maybe i'll wait for someone to comment about my story before i post the next chapter? haha have a great day everyone!
KillMeSoftlyWithWords xoxo
