Matt, Junior and I continued to look for the horses, but we had no luck. It was quickly going from day to evening. "We should probably head back, its getting late," Matt said stating the obvious. It was kind of hard for me to talk to them today. I'd been gone in Europe for a short while, how could I feel so, I don't know what the word I'm looking for is, I guess strained will do. I feel like I can't keep a steady conversation, half of the reason being Junior. The whole time I had to keep telling my self, "You will talk to him tonight. This shouldn't be so hard," and well, I mean it shouldn't. It's just Junior. I've dated him before; why is this so different. Before I knew it we were back at Raintree. I took Wildfire to the stables, took off his saddle and halter and lead him to his stall. I sat in there for a little while before Matt called me into the house.
"You must be hungry." He told me, I hadn't eaten all day. I wasn't actually hungry at all. I just took a few chips to munch on and a glass of water. Junior and Matt went into the living room and waited for anyone else to show up. Todd came running downstairs from his room and turned on the tv to play video games. "Matt, grab the other controller. This game is no fun unless someone else is playing too," I heard Todd's echo from the living room. He grabbed it of course. He loved spending time with Todd, even though sometimes he didn't want to admit it. Shortly after I heard gun shots, lasers, and pretty much anything else coming from the tv.
I walked back outside to my trailer to shower and change clothes. I'd been out in the heat all day. A cold shower was just the perfect medicine right now. I was so exhausted, after my shower I plopped right down on my bed. It must have been a heat stroke or something. I felt like I was handicap. I wasn't able to move one inch of my body, until I heard a knock on my door. Not even caring who it was I told them to come in.
I heard a faint, "hey," as he walked in. My eyes shot open. I slowly leaned up in my bed, "hey yourself." I said quietly back to the man who stood in front of me. He headed towards my bed and sat down by where the footboard would be. He leaned his back against my closest that was right in front of the bed. "You okay? You were really quiet today." I nodded yes, "the heat must have gotten to me." I said as I reached for a bottle of water that was sitting down beside my bead. I felt so dehydrated. That swig of water tasted so good. "Yeah, it was pretty hot out today," he paused, "you seemed like something was wrong." He also added. I sat in silence for a minute thinking to myself, "If I keep waiting for the opportune moment, no better time than now will come." I took in a deep breath and slowly let it out. "There has been something that I've been thinking about quite a few times today." I began to tell Junior. He sat there, waiting for me to continue. "I just, I don't know how to even explain it." I stopped again. In my mind I was mad; I was mad at how easy he made it look, mad that he made me feel that way, mad that I couldn't even put out into words what I wanted to say. I was hoping he already knew what I was feeling. He used to always know, before I even did. "I really missed you guys. I mean, you, Pablo, the Ritters, Wildfire and of course baby Wildfire." This is going to take a while. He started to talk, "We all missed you too." I shook my head, "That's not exactly how I mean it. Being away from you guys just killed me." Here it goes, "especially from you." I finally managed to say. He tried to hide that smile on his face "yeah?" He responded. I nodded my head yes. I figured the rest shouldn't be too bad. "Ever since you told me how you felt the night of the Breeders—" I was interrupted by another knock on the door.
Jean walked in, "Oh hey Junior, Kris can you go out tomorrow also? We only found two of our horses grazing in the meadow by the highway." I shook my head yes, "I'll be there." She smiled as a thank you, "you might want to hit the hay soon, we will be leaving early to get more time to search." I looked to Junior, then back at Jean, "will do." She left and shut the screen door behind her. "She's right; I should let you get some sleep. You look tired." He got up off the bed, I called back to him, "wait, Junior." He 'shushed' me, "We can talk tomorrow. G'night Kris." He walked back over to me, bent down and kissed me on the cheek, and then he did exactly as I saw Jean do less than a minute ago. He left and shut the screen door behind him. I got up and shut the main door to my trailer and turned out the lights, "so much for promising my self tonight." I said to myself, fully aware no one else would hear.
For what felt like 30 minutes of sleep, ended up being 9 hours. My alarm roughly woke me up. I went into the bathroom and splashed water on my face to somewhat wake me up. I changed into a pair of jeans and a blue tank and pulled my hair into a pony tail. It seemed even hotter today. I filled up my water bottle, grabbed an apple, and headed to the Ritter's house. I let myself in and found everyone eating breakfast before heading out today. "Feel free to eat whatever you like." Jean said as she handed Pablo a plate of food. I looked down at my hand, "Thanks, but I'm good." I said as I held up my apple for them to see, but I did go to the fridge to get a bottle of water. I turned my attention to Pablo, "do you want me to go get Wildfire ready?" He put his fork down, "Yeah, that'd be a good idea. We will want to be leaving soon." With that, I headed out the door.
It took less than 30 seconds for the heat to overcome my body. I held the cold water bottle up to my forehead to try and cool me down a little. Once I reached the shade of the stables, it got a little better. "I don't see how you do it Wildfire. It's a scorcher out here." I walked over to the fridge in the stables, opened the freezer and got a few ice cubes to put on Wildfire's back. "I'm sure having a saddle on your back won't help either." I walked back to the fridge, and got another water bottle. I thought I could use the water in this one to Wildfire down occasionally.
By the time Pablo came walking out I had the saddle in my hands. He walked over and took it out of my arms and placed it on Wildfire. "You okay?" I guess he thought something was wrong with me. "No, why?" Maybe he knew something I didn't.
I'M SOOOO SO SORRRY! It took forever to post a new chapter. I just got the suddden urge to write something. So here it is! Please review. I'd love to know what you guys think. I love feedback! :]