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hear is part three of play my music. oh and please review it helps a lot to get me into the story.-nasi.
Chapter 3: she tried to kill herself again??
I made my way to the Sleep Over Jam. Mitchi and Shane we're on the stage singing 'This is me' I smiled at him he was happy and I can tell. Nate and Caitlyn also did an awesome job when Shane came up to me "so are you going to only watch"
"I plan on only singing one song" I said smiling evilly at him
"Can I sing with you?"
"Drop dead you had your moment of fame"
"Aww poor Shane" said Mitchi rubbing his back as he pretended to cry. I laughed as did Mitchi.
"Okay anyone want to sing now" said DeeDee
"I'll go" I said. Began to sing Pieces from Sum 41
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
On my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
I heard claps and some gasp from my performance not that I care I needed to get out of hear and more with out Shane looking at me. My past was starting to get to me. A lie that I had lived, a secret that not even Shane knew about me. When he was to busy trying to get to the microphone to sing again I took my chance it was time to give it all my life. I went to lake and threw my self in trying to drown when it all happen again.
My dad had come home drunk that night, he and my mom had there bad days like every parent except theirs were daily fighting a few slaps and punches and at times when he couldn't get to my mom he would hit me.
"Daddy" I said in sleepy voice I was only eight when it first happen.
"May, daddy loves you and he's going to show you how much he does"
"Daddy what are you doing" he began to rape me at first I didn't know what had happen but when I was ten I found out that my father had raped me but if I said something he would hurt my mother and that was not an option. I began to slack off at school so when he was angry he wouldn't hit my mom. So after a year of slacking off he got so angry he began to abuse of me and hit me harder and rape me even more.
"Father stop" I was on the ground of the basement and bruises all over my body cuts from the belt a black eye on my right eye and a busted lip
"why don't you listen to your mother she is very upset" he said sending the belt against me I went to the corner with my back to him with my knees to my chest trying to become as small as possible when he got my by my long hair
"You will pay you brat" he said he then threw me to room and locked it from outside. A week later was when it all happen. I heard my mom yelling
"Tim stop" she yelled
"Come on baby lets have sex" I heard my father say that I knew my mother was I danger. I began to try to get out of my room. When I did my mom was on the bed crying while my dad drank his beer.
"Mother are you okay, don't worry I'll help you" I was going to get pain killers because she had headache she told me. When I turned I saw my father with a gun.
"Don't move or I'll shoot" he said pointing it to me
"Tim don't take this out on May" she said
See the truth after some time know my family was having economical problems and my dad was on drugs 24/7 the minute I turned eight. They were going to get a divorce but he didn't want to. That's why he and mom fought almost everything.
"Oh, Mary, don't try to save her we should have given her up a long time ago don't you think" he said shooting. It hit me in my left arm right above the elbow. I screamed and made a dash for the door in the kitchen I heard more gun shoots so I got a knife and went back.
"This time I won't miss" he said pointing at me. My mother lay dead in her bed as I stabbed my father in the side over and over again until he was dead. Blood cover my check and the police had broken into the house and looked at the two dead bodies and half dead daughter.
"She's lost a lot of blood we need to get her into surgery" said the emergency doctor.
After that I stayed in the hospital for good two months before I had to go to court and explain what had happen at the house. "My mother killed my father when he tried to kill me and he killed her after she stabbed him"
"You shall go with your aunt on your mother's side" said the judge
"She passed last year" I said with a straight face.
"Then do you know of other members of your family"
"There are some on my father side but since I was eight I haven't seen them and they never approved of me and my mother so I will not go to my fathers side of the family I will go with my grandmother on my mother's side" I said looking down ashamed that I killed my own father.
"May what's wrong"
"I killed my father with the knife" I said looking at my hands "I'm a murder"
"May it was under self-defense we saw it with the camera and understand that, you wouldn't want to see your father side of the family after that"
"So I will go to my grandmother's right"
"Yes, and if you don't pick up the grades I will have to resend you here May"
"Thank you I'll be leavening now" I sounded more like an adult rather than the eleven year old I was. The year I spent with my grandmother was when I shut down that part of me. I tried to act like the child I was and make her proud but since she was told that I killed my father it was hard to do. The whole town where I lived knew that I was a killer and that my act was terrible. My childhood was a waste of time.
I could see the light above the water. I was the child of a killer and had killed the killer and my-self had followed in those foot steps. All that my friends knew is that my parents died when I was young they didn't know that it was crime done by their own daughter. I smiled was he happy was this what he wanted for me to take my own life to try to die. Suddenly I began to lose feeling of my body and my eyes began to when the chocker that my friends had given me fell off and floated. That's all they needed my chocker the last piece that reminded me why I tried to forget that I murder people, that I was a mistake, that all hope was lost again because I only hurt those I love.
Shane's Pov.
"May" I began to look for her when I noticed she wasn't at the Sleep Over Jam. Though I wasn't having much luck that was until I saw her choker. "You wouldn't dare I" I said as I jumped into the lake and began to look for the green eyed girl. There she was her eyes closed but the thing that scared was that there was a true smile on her face. I grabbed her hand and began to take her to shore that's when I remembered I couldn't do CPR. "BROWN" I yelled.
"Shane it's the middle of the night- OH MY GOODNESS" he said and began to give May CPR the whole time I was holding her hand when suddenly she coughed water and fainted. "Shane we have to take her to the hospital" he said picking her up bridal style when I got her
"Go get the keys to the car I'll take her there" I began to take her to the car and Brown and a very sleepy Nate came with him the whole drive there I noticed that her breathing was irregular and very pitchy. When we got there the doctors took her to surgery.
"Yes, um Mr. Grey are you aware of Miss. Light medical records"
"No I never knew that she was ill" my uncle said standing up
"It appears that this is not the first time that the girl has come here due to the fact of suicide attempt and has had three surgeries hear"
"Wait this was a suicide attempt"
"Yes last year she came hear for the same reason and when she was eleven she came due to gun bullet in her left arm"
"I run the camp she's in but her family never told me she was shoot"
"Wait, what, her grandmother and parents have passed she lives with the foster parents that where killed just yesterday"
"So the girl has no family that truly knows what has happen"
"All that we know is that she killed her father and her grandmother killed her-self when she found out that she killed her son-in-law" my eyes as well as Nate's shoot open when we heard the doctor say that she had killed her own father. I don't know why but my hold on the chocker went tighter that was in my hands.
"So she has no family" he said looking sad for May
"yes and her father's family wont take her back so she cant leave until the social services come and take her before taking her out and throwing her in the streets since she can work already" I could see my uncles eyes turning small with sudden news of Mays Family record.
"We can't let the Social services do that" said Nate
"We have no choice she doesn't have family and she's over age" I said sad thinking of my friend past. "It make sense this is why she wouldn't talk about her parents she killed them"
"It must be hard knowing that you did that"
"Maybe that's why she cares deeply about Jason because he made her feel like she was something other than the killer like all her family thinks"
"It also makes sense why she wouldn't smile and every time someone would complain of their parents she would just walk away"
"I always thought that people that killed was because they were sick and tired of their lives but now I think its that it's the opposite they want to take care of others but it destroys their minds" he said looking up "and sadly she wont be allowed to go back with us to her true home". I looked at him his words were true and from his heart Nate was too much of a loving person to be hurt like that.
"Maybe we can take care of her and she can go to therapy"
"Shane, I'm afraid that the doctor said that it was too late and May has fallen into a coma". Both of us looked at Brown I could tell that Nate had tears.
"No it's not true she wouldn't go into a coma" he yelled crying
"Nate you need to calm down" I said hugging him trying to comfort him.
"I'm sorry boys but its true and we have to get back it five in the morning you don't have to teach class okay you need rest and on the weekends ill bring you to visit, Doc. Says that talking might help her wake up". He said as we went to the car and drove to camp I went straight to bed and passed out right away dreaming a dreamless sleep.
Nate's Pov.
I woke up at twelve hoping that May being in the hospital was but a dream. I got out and went to the bathroom and began to get ready. When I saw Caitlyn and she looked sadly at me I knew it was real.
"Nate I'm very sorry" she said
"I'm sorry Caitlyn I need some time to myself" I said heading to the favorite place to think of hers the forest. "You eyes were this color" I said holding a leaf. I went over to her favorite tree and say under it remembering all that we had been threw.
"Nate, do you love someone" she said sitting down under that special tree
"um, no not that I think I love someone" I said sitting next to her
"why is it that when I'm with you guys I feel like if I belong in this world why am I able to love and think of a reason for my-self to live" she said looking down
" Maybe it cause deep down inside you truly want to be able to see the world and all those that can love you and you can love, to see how it is easy once you know what to do with it cause we only get one time to do it all. And I will hate to see you try to give that up May" I said smiling at her she looked at me shocked
"Come on you got to start living it at a time why not start now" I said as we ran into the lake. I knew that she didn't completely tell me about herself but when time came she would she was a hurt soul and was going to be fixed.
THE END OF CHAPTER
sorry it took long-nashelly