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He was alone for two days after Raven left. Cyborg silently brought him food and changed the IVs once, but other than that, he just stared blankly at the ceiling. That is, until Robin showed up. He slowly slid into the room, and so quietly that BeastBoy barely heard him. He slipped lightly into a chair and waited. BeastBoy rolled his head to the side, still resting it on his pillow, and looked directly into his eyes as he spoke. "Well if it isn't our fearless leader." his voice showed no hints of sarcasm.

"Hello, BeastBoy." Robin replied coolly.

BeastBoy stared unblinkingly. Robin had always been hard to read, he had once told BeastBoy that, a good leader controls his emotions for the good of the team, so you could never quite be sure what he was thinking. "I'm surprised StarFire hasn't come before you. Everyone else has, and she always has been the most comforting."

"StarFire has been busy crying, sleeping, and then crying herself to sleep. I'll tell her you would like to see her thou."

"No, that's alright. I wouldn't want to trouble her if she's busy."

Robin's face hardened at that, but he pressed on keeping his voice level. "BeastBoy, I would like you to be honest with me. Can you handle that?"

"Whatever you say, Robin. You are in charge right?" He raised his eyebrows slightly with the inflection of the question, but otherwise maintained his facade.

Robin bit his tongue to refrain from showing anger. He knew BeastBoy was only trying to get under his skin to drive him away. "Do you know what I did the other night until 5am ?" BeastBoy's cold stare continued. "I sat on the kitchen floor with Raven while she cried. I have never witnessed someone so heartbroken in my entire life, BeastBoy." he waited for a response, but was given none. "It wasn't just some tears and a little silent crying. She screamed and shook and sobbed for hours. She screamed so loud Cyborg thought someone broke in." in truth BeastBoy had heard her vaguely, "When she finally cried herself out and fell asleep I had to put the kitchen back together. She broke the doors, she shredded the whole place apart. I don't want to know what she would have done if I hadn't been there." he paused and his anger started to show. "You didn't just hurt yourself, BeastBoy. You hurt all of us. You shattered Raven and StarFire both." he chuckled sadly "I don't even know what's wrong with Cyborg because he hasn't spoken to anyone in a week. You shattered all of us, and I don't know if I'll be able to put us back together, BeastBoy." his voice dripped with venom as he finished, but BeastBoy did not respond. He half laughed after a moment, "Nothing to say for yourself?"

"What do you want me to say, Robin?" he said monotonically looking at the roof again

"I don't know, an explanation? a reason?" his voice rose "something!" he yelled

He whipped his head to the side to face him again."I don't know, Robin! I have no idea! I would fucking love to, but I don't!" his body started shaking as he lost all the composure he had worked so hard to maintain. "Is that what you wanted to hear?!" he beat his fists on the bed as he spoke "That I have no fucking idea what I'm doing!? That I have no goddamned control over my self!? he screamed.

"I want you to tell me exactly what the fuck you were thinking." Robin spat in a barely audible volume.

"I WASN'T!" he screamed abruptly in response. He wouldn't have been surprised if the whole tower had heard. "I WASN'T THINKING THEN, AND I'M NOT THINKING NOW!" his voice continued to get louder, until he stopped. He and Robin glared at each other while he breathed heavily calming down. "Are we done now?" he hissed.

Robin's mouth set in a hard line, and for the first time in a long time tears he felt tears welling in his eyes. "I guess we are." he closed his eyes so BeastBoy couldn't see. "I'm going to send in StarFire." he stated as he stood "Try and collect yourself." he finished harshly and stormed out, leaving BeastBoy alone again.

AuthorNote; that was a lot shorter than I wanted... oops (better than nothing?)

xxoo Melissy Mae