I know it's really late and I really don't have an excuse I apologise profusely and as a treat I'll get writing the next one now and I'll also upload the next chapter of my other fic 'One Chance' sometime tomorrow. Please review if you liked this, even if you didn't like it. Tell me why?
I was running through a field the wind blowing in my face, the smell of freshly cut grass filling the air. I stopped running to take in the beautiful scenery. Nothing could have made this any more perfect, unless she was there.
I turned around sensing that there was someone behind me.
We both laid down in the grass facing each other. Her hand reached over to my hair and stroked it. It was the lightest touch but it felt great.
I looked into her eyes they were so blue, like more than usual. She didn't say anything but her eye's said it all. It wasn't an invitation but it was all I needed.
I pouted ever so slightly and began moving towards her beautiful lips...
"Sophie, Soph. Come on wake up." A voice said interrupting my beautiful dream.
"Urgh, five more minutes." I said rolling over onto my stomach. Then I found out, the hard way, that I was awfully close to the edge.
As my head collided with the floor my splitting headache hit me. The events of the previous night came flooding back. Oh no.
"Get up kid!" Sian said giving me a hand to get up.
"Oh God. My head is killing me, what happened last night? Why am I in your bed?" I asked Sian. I looked at her and it suddenly hit me who the girl from my dream was.
My stomach was in nots and they started twisting more tight as she spoke.
"Well Rosie's living with us at the moment, when you went to bed last night she was already asleep on your bed. She's already up and she's downstairs cooking breakfast at the moment, so I think we better go help her."
I thought back to the last time Rosie had cooked for me and Sian, it was a disaster!
"Bon appetit!" Rosie said placing two plates of toast in front of me an Sian.
"Wow Rosie you didn't burn our kitchen down, well done." I said sarcastically.
Sian went off to work leaving me and Rosie to spend the day together. We went for a walk first, I sensed she needed to talk.
"Are you okay?" I said as I watched Rosie kick a stone across the pavement. It was awful seeing her like this, she just looked so sorry for herself; it caused me physical pain watching my sister like this.
She'd seen me in worse situations when I was younger, now I know why she was so protective.
"I was so stupid you know. Jason was the best thing that has ever happened to me, he loved me for who I am, right or wrong, he didn't care." She said visibly trying to hold back her tears.
I nodded allowing her to continue. I didn't speak because one, I didn't know how to respond and two, I didn't think she'd continue if I interrupted.
"Things were getting a bit weird with us though, he stopped saying 'I love you', then we stopped sleeping together and I just needed to be close to someone you know. I knew I'd be able to win over someone, just a bit of harmless fun. While I was out I met this Jamie, nothing special but I'd had enough to drink and I threw myself at him." Rosie inhaled a sharp breath and I watched her bottom lip begin to wobble.
I pressed my hand against her shoulder; directing her over to a bench across the road.
"It's okay Rosie." I said lightly as I curled my legs up on the bench.
"When I got home I had to tell him, I couldn't lie. Before I knew it my bags were packed, he couldn't even look at me." Rosie said finally letting her tears fall down her cheeks. "I can still remember what he said, It's still ringing in my ears. 'You broke my heart because you're a dirty little whore, now I'll break yours, get out!' He hates me Soph."
I had no idea what to say to her, finally something had managed to break my sister - and it wasn't pretty!
"Come here." I said wrapping my arm around her shoulder and pulling her in to my chest. "You got me, it's all going to be okay."
I didn't know if it would be okay, I still hadn't told Rosie about what happened with George. That'd break her even more, even if that did seem impossible.
We walked home reminiscing about the old times before dad had walked out, before mum got ill, when we were a normal family. We'd both laughed and cried but I felt considerably happier and comfortable with Rosie.
"What are we doing for dinner?" Rosie asked after we'd finished watching aimless daytime telly.
"Well Sian finishes work at seven and it's monday and on mondays we normally get a take away in and spend some time together." I said smiling at the thought of Sian.
My whole world stops for a moment; me and Sian. Thoughts flooded my mind mostly involving the blonde getting really close to me. I blushed as reality came flooding back.
"What's the crack with you two?" Rosie said laughing.
"What do you mean?" I said as I got up to leave I didn't want to have to look Rosie in the eye while she picked apart mine and Sian's relationship.
I heard Rosie sigh behind me and I could feel her eye's burning into the back of my head. I knew what was coming next, she wasn't going to give up.
"There's so much sexual tension between you two, what's going on? I mean you hardly leave each other alone." Rosie said following me into the kitchen.
"Nothing Rosie, shut up!" I snapped, instantly regretting it.
"Well there's no need to get defensive." Rosie flung her hands in the air in surrender.
Even Rosie could feel my weird crushy thing on Sian. This was not good. I need to confront Sian before things turn weird.
The doorbell rang at about quater to eight.
"PIZZA!" We all shouted!
"I'll pay." Rosie said as she jumped up from the sofa and headed to the front door. Me and Sian laughed at Rosie's eagerness.
"I need to talk to you Sophie." Sian said after shaking off the laughter.
My heart fluttered out of either nerves or excitement, which one? I don't know.
"What about?" I asked trying to sound casual.
Before Sian could answer Rosie reappeared with our pizzas.
"Tuck in ladies!" Rosie said extremely proud of herself, as if she'd just made the pizzas. I looked at Sian longingly, hoping she'd continue our previous conversation.
Eventually I caught her eye. She shook her head at me. My heart fluttered again this time out of nerves, it had to be serious.
"Seriously you two! What is going on?" Rosie asked with a mouthful of pizza on show.
She'd obviously just watched the awkward exchange between us.
I had to bite my tongue to stop myself from making a jibe at my sister.
I looked at Sian willing her to answer for me.
"Rosie, I told you this earlier. Shut up." Sian said shooting daggers across the room at my sister.
My mind was boggled- had Rosie asked Sian the same question earlier? What did Sian say? Why was she now getting so defensive over it?
I realised I was starring so I turned my attention to the pizza that rested on my lap. I picked up the next slice and bought it up to my mouth slowly for some reason, I felt the dire need to savour this moment.
Rosie had been taking sneeky glances at me and Sian all night; smirking as if she knew something we didn't. And suddenly realisation flooded over me - she did.
Rosie had watched me and Sian grow up together. She'd seen how infinitely close we'd become as teenagers and how the distance between us was still decreasing.
She knew the inevitable.
I played the scenarios of me and Sian discovering that Rosie had known, before us, that we were more than just friends.
"Sophie, can we talk now please?" Sian said delicately.
I looked up, Rosie must have gone upstairs, it was just me and Sian.
"Where'd Rosie go?" I said quietly in case my sister was pressing her ear against the door and listening in to our conversation.
"Upstairs." Was all she said as she crossed the room to sit by me.
My heart began racing, this was it! This is the moment I'd been waiting for.
"Soph," she whispered "how can I say this?" her voice gained volume but not confidence.
I reached out for her hand, my eyes locked on hers I was silently telling her it was okay. It was okay.
"Don't-" Sian flinched and let go of my hand.
"What? Come on Sian there's no need to beat around the bush with this. Just tell me." I said smiling at her, I had it all worked out in my head and excitement pumped around my body at an extraordinary speed.
"I, I've been offered a job. In Surrey. I'm leaving in three weeks." She said, her eyes wandering around the room, desperate for a distraction.
My heart must have stopped, I didn't breathe or blink. My mouth hung agape. How could she do this!
All the chemistry between us, I'd just made up. The whole thing! And Rosie, oh Rosie she'd known. I can't believe this.
I was livid, my mouth was bone dry so much so that i couldn't get my words out.
"Say something?" Sian said softly placing her hand on my shoulder.
It was my turn to shrug her away. A lone tear slid over my top lip, I hadn't even noticed I was crying.
I felt my face collide with something soft, yet hard at the same time, it was warm and pulsing. Sian's arms were wrapped tightly around my neck, she whispered words of comfort into my ear as I cried.
"I'm not leaving you Soph, I still love you." She said pulling my back by my shoulders. She looked in my eyes. 'I still love you.' Those four words sounded round my head.
I took my chance.
My eyelids gently fluttered shut. I physced myself up chanting to myself. 'You can do this Sophie.'
My lips parted ever so slightly as I moved slowly towards Sian's.
The pressure on my lips came too soon and shocked me, I pulled back. Sian still had her eye's closed.
I leaned in again.
"SOPHIE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" She shouted in my face.