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A/N: Sorry I have taken a small hiatus. And I am not sure if I am back yet. But I will do the best that I can. I just moved from South Korea back to the US so I am still adjusting and now I will be taking a month of leave so that I can go home to see my family and help my mother with her store. I am not sure how often I will be able to update but I will do my best.
Disaster Prone
A fleeting moment of happiness is all that stands between me and my utter demise. I know this only because of the way that he looks at me; the way that he can seem to see straight into my soul with a single glance, a look that is so deep and all knowing that it scares me sometimes.
Our partnership has always been like this, balancing on the edge of a blade so precariously that one wrong step to this left or the right… no it wouldn't even take that much, all it would take is a strong gust of wind to blow one of us over and this small utopia that we have created would fall in around us and dissolve into nothingness.
I know this, I know this all to well and the thought frightens me to no end. What would happen if one day he was to wake up and see that the cause of all of his problems is me? What would happen when he looks at me and sees only a child rather than the man that I pretend to be. What will happen then?
I know the answer to this. I know that he would turn and leave me without a second thought, just like every other person in my so unstable life… well… after life. But there is a part of me that doesn't want to believe what I am thinking a part of me that screams that I know better than to think such irrational thoughts.
Our relationship was doomed from the start. Our partnership has been based off of a rash of kidnapping, death, and lies that it is surprising that we haven't already fallen off the deep end.
But at night, when all is quiet and it is just me and him laying with one another in bed, I can't help but think that perhaps this is where I belong. After all it is so fitting with the rest of my life and after life that it seems natural that my relationships would also rest on the edge of a blade. Perhaps I am prone to disaster, destined to live unstable waiting for that wind to knock me over. But until that day comes I am going to be content wrapped in the arms of the man that I love.
Tsuzuki gives a slight sigh and breaths my name as he moves deeper into unconsciousness. I can't help but smile and snuggle closer to him. My lips lightly graze his and I follow him into slumber, but not before I saw the small smile that graced his lips. Yes, I could live like this, no matter how dangerous, or disaster prone it may be.
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