4. FIGHTING

Carlisle walked out and I sighed and muttered to myself "Hopefully he will be better than Demetri or Felix they were pathetic."

Then the door burst open and Emmett was standing there grinning like an idiot. "God you look like an idiot you know that."

I heard four laughs down stairs and he said "Wanna fight now."

I sighed and said "Fine that's get this over with."

He grinned wider and said "With pleasure."

We walked down stairs and the Blondie was thinking 'you hurt him and I will kill you.' I stopped and faced her and said "I'd like to see you try." Fear rolled off of her and I laughed and said "Pathetic." She glared at me and glared back, she flinched well of coarse who knew that would happen I did everybody flinches from me.

"Ready." Emmett said.

I nodded and he leaped forward, great this will be boring I did a back flip onto his back shoulder and slapped his neck before he had time to register what happened. I heard four laughs from the porch.

"How did-

"Oh please really, you don't go down in history as indestructible without you really being indestructible." I said simply, god he was stupid.

"What do you mean indestructible." He said everybody was waiting for an answer.

"She can't be killed ever." Carlisle said stepping onto the dirt.

I grinned and said "We haven't done this in a long time; sure you haven't gone soft on me Carly."

He growled and Emmett said "Carly?"

"It was my name for him, because he fought like a girl." I said and they erupted into laugher.

"You two have fought before." The bronzed haired boy said I really would have to figure out there names soon.

"He was me student." I said simply then looked at Carlisle said "Ready." He nodded

He didn't move, smart. I moved to me side he stood there I moved zigzagging around him in impossibly fast speed and he watched me everywhere. I laughed then leaped he leaped I pulled to the side letting him hit a tree he got up and I said "I told you, you should wait till the attacker actually reaches you Carlisle." He was back on his feet in a second and circling around me I didn't have to watch him I winked at the Cullen's and closed my eyes I felt them all freeze in shock, man they did that a lot. I felt Carlisle leap at the back of me I jumped up my eyes still closed and flipped my body and kicked him square in the chest. He went flying into a tree and I opened my eyes Carlisle was mad.

I shook my head and said "What did I tell you about emotions Carlisle." It was like we were back in Italy I felt him slip away from his home I saw it in his eyes him going back to the training, I wouldn't let him do that it took him five years to get back to his normal shelf and not be a killer like me.

"Emotions are useless." Carlisle replied and the Cullen's froze, Jasper felt it and the rest could see it in his eyes.

I froze for the first time in my life that was the same thing Carlisle said to me when he became a killer, when I had broke him. "No!" I ran toward Carlisle he did a back flip and landed on my shoulders I ran up the tree and then flipped so I was on top of Carlisle I looked into his eyes it was like I had broke him all over again "Carlisle this is not you, you are not a killer snap out of it."

He threw me off of him and said "Why Bella is that emotion I am sensing, that's pathetic."

My jaw tighten and I balled my hands into fists I looked at his family and back at his. "Carlisle Cullen!" I yelled at him but he was crunched low ready to spring and then he did he tackled me on the ground I shot my legs straight out and pushed him over to the side of the yard "Carlisle Damn it! You have a family now." I screamed at him, well his family didn't understand only Jasper knew the rest just thought he was in fighting mood.

"What are you scared Carlisle will beat you." Emmett said Carlisle grinned an evil grin and Esme gasped.

"Damn it Carlisle you told me you never wanted your mate to see you like this well look at her she just saw it." I said I saw he face flicker to Esme and then back to mine.

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"Don't you dare say that in front of her Carlisle Cullen!" I snapped with enough venom in me to make everyone flinch he looked at me and then his eyes flicked back to the right Carlisle's eyes and he looked at Esme who looked like she was going to start sobbing any second. He fell to his knees I ran to him and pulled his face to mine and said sternly "That was not you Carlisle that was me that was my sick side that you had taught to you, you are not him do you hear me."

"How do you know, you saw-

I slapped him and I heard everyone stop breathing except for Carlisle he looked ashamed "NO!" I screamed in his face "Don you dare even think that, YOU. ARE. NOT. THAT. PERSON. Do you hear Carlisle you are not that person, that person is me and you are nothing like me."

"I know, but it doesn't mean that it the real you Bella, I have seen it you have feelings and emotions you wouldn't have snapped me out of it if you didn't." He said and

I smiled and said "That is very nice to say, but it is not true." Then I stood up and helped Carlisle up.

"Go to your wife and say your sorry now and don't you ever let her see that again." I said sternly.

He nodded and then said "Woo déjà vu."

"You didn't have a wife back then." I said.

"Yeah but it was like you were my teacher again." He said and ran to his wife, I saw there love and thought maybe love can make you stronger.

"Bella you will find a mate someday, you just to stop being blind about it." Carlisle said and then looked in my eyes and said "There is a better person in there Isabella Swan and I am going to bring it out."

I looked away and said "No there isn't." I felt his spirit die a little at my words, but there wasn't another me like there was another Carlisle and there never will be a mate.

"I am going hunting." I said to Carlisle everybody froze but him and he nodded him think to Edward the beautiful bronze haired on 'She's a vegetarian.' "Of coarse, human blood is repulsive." I said and then turned to Carlisle and said "Take her away for a while anywhere I don't care, just do it." Then I turned and ran into the forest.

"I told you, you have a better side." Carlisle shouted into the forest.

"No there isn't, I am a killer and that is all I want to be." I said as a whisper but I knew they could hear me.

I was done hunting and was aware of Edward standing twenty feet away from me watching me.

"You should be more careful Edward if I didn't already have your scent I would have killed you." I said he didn't flinch anything, everybody flinches what was his problem.

"I don't believe that." He said simply and his voice was like a song so soft and smooth.

"It's just plain instincts." I said and sat down.

"No I don't believe that you think there isn't another side to you." he said softly moving from the tree to sit in front of me. His eyes were unlike anything I have ever seen, I could get lost in the for hours.

"Well you should." I said coldly. He had no idea what he was talking about.

"What you did for Carlisle was amazing." He said in awe.

"I would do anything for Carlisle." I said simply and leaned back against a tree.

"See if you were heartless you wouldn't have done it in the first place." He said and leaned forward, wow he smelled good, what am I thinking he was just another weak vampire, nothing more.

"Carlisle has a family and he is my best friend I broke him once and left him like that I won't do it again." I said and Edward froze I grinned and said "What surprise you."

"Yes it does." He said.

"Well if you were smart and read your history books like a normal vampire you would know that I am a murder and am fine with it." I said and his eyes were disbelieving.

"I have read the books." He said looking into my eyes with curiosity and I could have sworn longing but that is crazy nobody would feel that way towards me and I didn't want them to.

"They are all true." I said simply and he froze again and I laughed and said "Surprise you again."

"Yes you did." He said

"Well it shouldn't." I said simply.

"And why not?" He asked staring at me, usually I would turn away or snap at him for staring at me but with him it was different it felt almost normal. Damn it I just had to come to visit Carlisle nothing good ever comes out of that.

Well guess it's time for damage control but oddly I felt actually bad for doing this to him, oh well I'll get over it. "Look I am just as what Blondie said back there heartless, soulless and ruthless, when I first found Carlisle I thought he would be a great assassin if I could break him and I did but he snapped out of it right before his first kill, would I want Carlisle to be like me no, would I be happy if he choose it willingly yes, would I change him back probably not."

He sat there in front of me staring at me like I was the most interesting person in the world, god what an idiot he was really starting to annoy me now. "I don't believe that."

"Well then you are as foolish as Aro." I sneered and stood up and snapped "Now I have to go torture some vampires, having a lovely day Edward." I hissed the last part and he didn't flinch, god what was his problem and what was up with that emotion. God Carlisle sure did pick a winner there. I thought sarcastically.