I wake up to Santana arguing with some random nurse about how she doesn't want me to wake up with no one there so she is staying. I laugh a little, typical Santana.

"Hey San, don't worry I didn't wake up alone." I give her a weak smile. She runs towards me to give me a giant hug while the nurse goes to inform the doctors I'm awake.

"Fuck, Britt you had me so worried."

"I'm sorry, San." I smile at her. We fall into a silence only to be broken by her.

"So your mom told us that Brain isn't your real dad." I stiffen immediately not wanting to talk about my past. Lucky, for me Dr. Lopez walked in.

"Hi, Brittany. I'm glad to see you're up" he said hugging both me and Santana. "But now lets talk about your health. Brittany do you hold in your emotions? Do you talk about them?" he asks with concern.

"Umm no but what does that have to do with anything?"

"Britt besides it being unhealthy emotionally it also is physically. That's why you started coughing up blood. We did some test to make sure it wasn't anything else but we didn't really find anything except for things that are in correlation with stress. I know that everything has been changing and well even though you and my daughter aren't together anymore i do care about you. We all want you safe and happy, Britt. I'll let you talk to San now. Bye you two." he said with a wave.

"You need to stop holding in your emotions, Britt. I mean have you even cried about what happened?" she asked with concern. I clench my jaw.

"Never show weakness it only makes things worse." I repeat like it was engraved in my mind.

"Who told you that?"

I turn to face her, "My biological dad. And no Santana I don't want to talk about it. Maybe if we were still together I would have but no not now. Not with you I'm sorry. I'm still going back by the way. Just don't become a stranger. No matter what you're still the love of my life but right now it hurts to bad to be with you."

Two months later

"Hey, Pierce. Did you hear about the new girl?" Puck comes up next to me while I'm looking for my English book.

"Yeah, finally someone new to fuck!" I practically yell. After that day in the hospital, I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and date...well fuck...I cant do dating anymore. Now I'm probably one of the biggest heart breakers at Lincoln well besides Puck that is.

"Dude, aren't you with Jamie?" he asks.

"Nah, we're more friends with benefits. You know I don't do relationships anymore." I say, he notices the sad look in my eye so he gives me a tight hug. "Thanks, I needed that." I smile softly.

"I kno- holy shit you're kidding me." He said with wide eyes.

"What?" I turn around to follow his line of sight. "Fuck!" Santana Lopez standing in the entrance looking pretty scared. Damn it. "She's the new girl!?"

I ran over towards her and pull her to the side so we could talk. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I uh I," she looks down and in a low whisper says, "I missed you."

I open my mouth to say something but I'm off by Jamie coming towards me, "Hey, Brittany," she says in a low voice. I know immediately what she wants just by the tone of her voice, "So I was wondering if you could maybe meet me in the locker rooms during first period?"

I look over to Santana and I see that she's trying hard to fight back the tears. "I umm I dont know Jamie. I'll talk to you later, okay?"

"Aww okay, text me!" she said as she walks away with a wink. *sigh* fuck.

"Y y you're dating?" San asks heartbroken.

"Fuck, no. She's just a fling. I can't risk my heart again." I say to her.

"Oh," is all she says before walking away.

Later, that day at lunch me and Puck are sitting outside throwing grapes at each other trying to catch it with our mouths when I see Santana sitting alone eating her lunch. A grape hitting eye brings me back.

"Dude, stop staring at her."

"I can't help it. She looks so sad and alone. I'm going to go see if she wants to join us." I say before getting up and walking towards her.

"Hey, San. I saw you eating alone and was wondering if you wanted to at least eat your lunch with us."

She looks up surprised, "Are are you sure you want me there?"

"Yeah! Come on!" I smile and offer her a hand which she gladly accepts. I feel a familiar warmth spread through me when are hands touch.

"Well look who it is" Puck says sarcastically.

"Puck." I growl trying to warn him.

"What? Look I'm not going to be nice to her right now. You're like my sister and she cheated on you. I was the only one that really saw how heartbroken she left you! I'm not going to be nice."

"Then, leave! Look I just want us all to be friends because believe it or not I do miss her friendship! Please just be nice." I pleaded with him.

"Fine. Do you wanna play capture the grape with us?" he asks Santana as nicely as he could.

"N no maybe I should go. You're right Puck. I don't deserve Britt or you to be nice." she says looking down.

"look, San. We go to the same school again. I want us to at least be able to act civil towards one another plus I hate seeing you alone." I say just as the bell rings.

"Well I have to go to Earth Space, I'll see you at next period, Britt." he said hugging me before jogging to his class. I turn towards Santana and I see her trying to figure out where her next class is on the map. I look over her shoulder to see her schedule.

I grab her hand "Come on. I show you the way. And no it's no bother especially since we have the rest of our classes together."

She smiles big. God, I missed that smile.

"So umm...did you have sex with that girl?" she asks me. I raise my eyebrow and look at her.

"Well I don't see how that's your business..but yeah. I had sex with her. It was meaningless like always." I tell her. I see that she's hurt but I cant be affected. It's my life. It's not us anymore. If she wants me back then I guess she has to fight.