The next day…

I was pacing up and down, up and down next to the pool outside.

"Will you stop?" Rachel shouted.

"Stop? I can't stop. Rachel he was there. He's best friends with Randy. Why me? Seriously. Why?" I sat down on the chair and put my head in my hands. I couldn't believe that I had seen John the night before. I had walked out on him 5 years ago, and I had never expected him to walk straight back into my life. Not now.

"It will be fine. Just don't go the show. Get Randy to come over here more. "Rachel sat down next to me. "You'll be fine."

"Rachel, I can't just say to Randy, I'm not coming to the show anymore." I cried. John had meant everything to me. And last night he still gave me that feeling inside. The one only he could give me. The feeling I hadn't felt in a long time.

"I'm bringing sexy back! Yeah!" Just then my phone rang.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hey Charlotte it's Randy. Are you ok?" Randy asked.

"Yeah I'm fine."

"No John said you left because you were feeling sick."

"Oh yeah. I'm a lot better now thanks." I couldn't believe I was lying to him. I hated lying. But I couldn't tell him about me and John. It would just be too awkward.

"So listen. When I went to talk to Vince last night. I asked him about giving you a job. You know as a therapist thingy. And he said you can start work next week." Randy laughed.

"Are you serious?" I shouted.

"Yeah. You want to right?" Randy asked. I hesitated. Of course I wanted to work there. But what about my other job? Plus I had John to deal with.

"Erm. Yeah. I guess that's cool."

"Cool? It's awesome. It means I get to spend a lot more time with you now." Randy laughed.

"Yeah I guess it does. Listen I got some stuff to sort out I'll call you later?" I said.

"Yeah, speak to you soon. Love you."

"Yeah, love you too." I whispered. I slowly walked over to the pool and sat down at the side with my feet in.

"Rachel, Randy's got me a job. At WWE." I shouted. I couldn't believe he had actually got me one. Don't get me wrong I was thrilled but John was going to be there. This was going to be weird.

"Oh, god. Your job is gonna be awesome. Just like avoid John." Rachel smiled.

"I doubt I can do that." I cried.

I had been sat by the pool for hours. Rachel had gone to visit Dan. They were still together from high school, and every time I seen them together it would remind me of me and John. As happy as I was for them it still made me jealous that they were still together and we weren't. But I had to get John off my mind. We weren't together anymore. I was with Randy. He made me happy and that was all that mattered. I couldn't just ditch Randy for him.

"Knock, knock." I stood up and walked over towards the door. I couldn't be bothered with visitors today but I opened the door anyway.

"Hi Charlotte." I froze. It was John. I tried to slam the door, but he put his foot in the door. "Can we talk?" I frowned.

"What do you want to talk about?" I shouted.

"Listen you don't have to shout. I'm just here to talk." Said John as he stepped into the house.

"You're still not answering my question. What do you want to talk about?"

"Us."

"John, you know there is no us. You haven't called me or anything for 5 years, and now you want to talk about us." I cried.

"Listen, I'm sorry I didn't mean for what happened to happen. I didn't want us to end like that."

"Yeah but you did want us to end though didn't you. That's my point John. You broke my heart, and I didn't want to see you ever again. And now I'm dating your best friend, and you still think there's an us."

"I don't think. I know—'

"John, stop with this bullshit. I'm with Randy, I'm happy. I don't want to talk to you John."

"Listen can't we just talk about this. I finished us because I didn't want to be a million miles away from you. I wanted to be with you every day. And I couldn't do that if I was so far away. I kept this tag you got me for a reason. Charlotte I never stopped loving you."

"Oh no you say that. Now its 5 years later, now I'm with Randy, now when I'm over you. Now when I don't feel the way I once felt about you. John I gotta say you have the best timing in the world." John frowned.

"But Charlotte you don't get it. I want to be with you." He grabbed my hand.

"John, I can't do this I have a boyfriend. One who's not leaving me. Okay? I don't want to be with you." My heart broke inside, I couldn't believe what I was saying I had dreamed of the day that John would walk back into my life. But it's different now. I'm with Randy and I love him. I can't.

"John just go. Please." I pushed him away from me.

"Charlotte just listen—" He moved back closer.

"No, John just—" He leant in and kissed me. I couldn't believe it. I didn't want to cheat on Randy, but I couldn't help it. My feelings for John were still there. He pulled away.

"I'll go now." He walked out the door and got into his car.

I couldn't believe it. 5 years after me walking out on him, he wants to be with me again. But I couldn't. Randy was in my life, and I wasn't going to mess that up. I just had to forget about John. But how could I? My first love had just walked back into my life, said he loved me, and kissed me. What the hell was I going to do?

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