Title - Sunshine Follows Thunder
Chapter title - Crush
Author - OblivionsGarden
Genre - Romance/Drama
Disclaimer - I do not own My Mad Fat Diary or My Fat Mad Teenage Diary, in anyway shape or form. I only own my original characters and the plot for this fic. For this chapter I own, Teddy.

A/n - Please read and review, I'd greatly appreciate it. Hope you enjoy, xx (:

How Chop had managed to cram this amount of people into his house was beyond me. I squoze past body after body until I landed myself in the kitchen. Every surface seemed to be covered with some form of alcohol. I found a clear plastic cup in the sink, washed it out and made myself a snake bite.

"I said let's all meet up in the year 2000. Won't it be strange when we're all fully grown." I sung along to Disco 2000 by Pulp as it blasted from the living room. I thought about trying to find someone familiar but didn't need to when Izzy came bobbing along into the room. She grinned at me finding herself a drink. Once she was set she came closer and leant forward to whisper in my ear.
"Finn is looking for you." I say whisper and yet my ear drum nearly burst. I nodded to let her know I heard.

I moved out of the kitchen and through the house until I nearly walked into Rae as she was heading down the stairs. Luckily she grabbed my arm before I could fall over though.
"Steady." She smiled.
"How am I supposed to talk to Finn over this music?" I shouted by her ear.
"Secret communication!" She winked as she danced.
"What?"
"Something we invented." She pulled my arm up so my palm was facing the ceiling and started tracing her finger along. "See?"
"See what?"
"Pay attention to how it feels!" She repeated the action on my palm and I frowned.
"Did you just write cock on my hand?" Rae erupted into laughter. "He'll know what you're doing." And with that said she dissapeared into the crowded living room.

I wondered when she and Finn invented the intimate way of talking but decided to leave it and ask her tomorrow. I continued searching the house, resorting in the end to just ask Archie. He smiled and pointed back the way I'd came.
"Looks like he's still looking for you too."

I ignored the suggestive tone in his voice and moved towards Finn. I tapped his shoulder, noticing now the broadness that Rae had talked about. The living room was dim and crammed with other party goers. Finn turned, a thin sheen of sweat covering his face. His hair was stuck down to his forehead and his naturally dark eyes seemed darker as he looked down at me. His lips moved but being in the room where the speakers were, I couldn't hear a word he said. Instead, I did as Rae instructed and grabbed his wrist, turning his hand palm up.
O-U-T-S-I-D-E.
He got the message, nodding and following me through the living room and kitchen and into the back garden. I sighed when he shut the door behind him.

"What did you say?" I asked with a slight smile.
"I said I've been looking for you." He seemed to be reluctant to talk to me now there wasn't deafening music blasting around us.
"Yeah. Izzy said."
"Listen, I just..." He scratched the back of his neck as he looked everywhere but at me. "The other night in the pub when I-"
"Saw my scars?"
"Yeah." He looked down at his converse clad feet. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you or anything."
"You didn't. People are going to look, I just have to get used to it. But..." I paused trying to figure out how to word my question. "You didn't look like they made you feel sick."
"They don't." He frowned. "Why would they?"
Shrugging, I scuffed the toe of my boots on the concrete floor. "Dunno. Most people look like that though."
"Nob heads."
"Yeah." I smiled. "You looked kind of...Curious."
"Yeah. I mean...I kinda wanted to know why. Do you get me?"
"Mm. I don't know what to tell you though. I haven't even been able to answer that question for the therapists."

Finn chuckled as the music from inside changed to what I recognized as The Smiths', 'There is a light that never goes out.'
"Oh god no." I groaned, leaning my head back and closing my eyes.
"What?"
"The Smiths."
"You telling me you don't like The Smiths?" He seemed genuinely concerned at my judgment.
"They've had a few good songs but he just sounds so miserable. And his voice irritates me."
Finn dropped his jaw, faking shock. "Right. I am making it my mission to change your opinion."
"Good luck." I chuckled, opening the door and heading back into the party.

I awoke to the sound of music. Not something I recognized so I lay with my eyes shut just listening to the lyrics for a while.
"Two lovers entwined pass me by and heaven knows I'm miserable now. I was looking for a job, and then I found a job and heaven knows I'm miserable now."
There was no mistaking that voice. "Ugh. Someone turn the wingy bloke off please." I moved my arm to rest over my eyes. I felt something soft hit my head.
"Don't insult The Smiths when I'm in the room or you can stop calling yourself my sister." Laughter followed Rae's voice and so I decided to sit up.

I found myself on the floor of the living room in between Archie and some guy I didn't recognize. I looked up and saw Rae, Finn and Chop already starting to clean the place.
"Time is it?"
"Half nine."Chop answered.
"What? That is ridiculous. Goodnight." I rolled onto my stomach and closed my eyes, ignoring the laughter behind me. Suddenly the music was turned up louder making any chance of returning to sleep impossible.

Pouting I stood and moved towards the stereo, sifting through the Cd's until I found a Stone Roses one. I switched it with The Smiths,smiling at the sound of the music.

"I've been casing your joint for the best years of my life. Like the look of your stuff outta sight." I sung along heading into the kitchen where Chop was filling the kettle with water.
"Tea for the Teddy Bear?"
"Please. Milky, one sugar." I pushed myself up to sit on the kitchen counter which was now miraculously clean. "How did you clean this place up?"
"Chop's age old trick." Finn came into view, leaning against the door frame. "Bin everything." He nodded to the back door that had been left open. Just outside was a pile of bin bags, stacked against the wall. "I'll have a tea, mate."

Finn glanced around the kitchen before his gaze settled on me. But his eyes weren't trained on my eyes. They were fixed on my now bare arms. I don't remember shedding my jacket but now I was just in my Oasis vest with nothing to hide the scars. I stayed unmoving for a while, hoping not to worry him but when he didn't look away, I self consciously folded my arms against my chest. He blinked once, his eyes snapping up to mine. I looked over to Chop, watching him make the tea. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Finn coming closer until he stood between Chop and I. His hand came up to my knee before he used his finger to trace out letters, like Rae had shown me last night.
S-O-R-R-Y.
I slid down off the counter, lifting my hand to the top of his arm.
I-T-S-O-K

I took my tea from Chop and returned to the living room. Archie was now awake and trying to locate his glasses. Which was a funny sight to see since without them he was practically blind. Shaking my head, I set my tea down and started helping him. It was a good ten minutes before we found Chloe, asleep in the corner of Chop's parents bedroom, wearing Archie's glasses. Neither knew how she ended up with them.

Everyone chipped in to finish the tidying before Chop's parents got back from the wedding they'd been attending. Rae and I walked home together at about elevenish, planning to get showered and changed before heading to the hospital for Rae's session and to see how Tix was doing. I'd met Tix a few times now, along with Danny Two Hats and found the pair of them to be fantastic. It was nice to know Rae had had someone in the hospital to talk to.

"So, what did Finn say?" Rae asked, squinting against the last remnants of the sunshine. Soon to be September we needed to make the most of it.
"Just that he didn't mean to offend me or anything."
"And?"
"And, that he kind of wanted to know why."
"He asked me why once."
"Did you tell him."
"Yeah, he's one of my best mates." The tone in her voice said that should've been obvious.
"Rae, how did you and Finn end up coming up with the secret talking thing?" We turned onto the driveway of our house as Rae pulled her keys from her bag.
"I used to have a massive crush on Finn. Even thought I was in love with him. Anyway, obviously he's not good at speaking so I came up with that. So he didn't have to say the things he couldn't figure out how to."
"You were in love with him?" I frowned, kicking the front door shut behind me. "Were you two a couple then?"
"No. We got close but we had a heart to heart after mum and Karim's wedding."
"And?"
"And we realized we'd be better as best friends. As alike as we are there are some differences that just make it better to stay as friends and nothing more."
"Are you OK with that?"
"I wasn't at first but I am now. I can't even imagine being with him now."
"Oh."

Rae chuckled to herself as we headed upstairs.
"What's so funny?" I frowned, pulling my jacket off.
"Nothing. But it's a good job I don't still fancy him, isn't it?"
"Why?"
She stopped outside her bedroom door, cocking one eyebrow at me. "Who goes to a sexy party and spends the night looking for each other?"
"Wh-"
"You and Finn." She winked before entering her room and closing the door behind her.

I moved into my own bedroom and collapsed onto my bed. My bedroom way nowhere near as manic as Rae's. The walls were a sea blue colour with just a few posters on. My bed on the right hand side had plain black covers and one bear sat at the end. The bear was nothing special, just something I took into hospital with me. On the opposite wall was my dressing table, CD player and book shelf. My Cd's took up one shelf on the book shelf and the rest were, obviously filled with books. I did most of my reading at the hospital but since I arrived in Stamford I haven't had the time. I thought about reading something now but couldn't bring myself to move from my bed.
Instead I thought about what Rae had said. Finn and I didn't spend all night looking for each other. After we spoke in the garden, we had a drink and a dance together but that was all. Some random initiated a game of spin the bottle but the only ones from the gang that played were Chloe and Archie. Archie ended up snogging a blonde girl which for some reason he didn't seem too happy about. God knows why, she was gorgeous.
I thought more about Finn and how I felt about him. Sure, he did look like something out of a magazine but that was all, right? He had good taste in music, excusing The Smiths, and he was a laugh when he wasn't being a moody sod. Although, when Rae had shown me the secret language I did feel kind of jealous that she and Finn had been close enough to come up with it. And I did feel a bit of relief when Finn refused to play spin the bottle. I didn't really want to watch him snog someones face off that wasn't mine.
Oh. Maybe Rae was right.
I've got a crush of Finn.