I was trying to upload this yesterday but my computer was messing up a lot and then I had to leave. I'm 16 and I spend birthday parties with a group of 9 year olds while everyone else is talking lol, I regret nothing(:

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Selena's Pov

It surprised when she wrapped her arms around me. I knew that something was bothering her the moment I heard her voice crack when I called her earlier.

I rubbed her back and pulled her into me even more. I wanted to be able to comfort her. I could see the sadness in her eyes.

"You're gonna be okay." I whispered into her ear as we made our way to the exit.

I was nervous about this. I've been regretting this since the moment I woke up.

I'm pretty sure I didn't properly think this out. I know what I want to get out of this conversation, but there's so many different ways things could play out.

Jennel is kind of the opposite of Demi. Jennel doesn't exactly act out on impulse, she'll think things through before making a choice. She's a lot more calm, which kind of gives me hope.

"Where are we going?" She snapped me out of my thoughts.

I forgot I hadn't even said anything to her. The last words we spoke were at the airport. I've just been lost in my own little world.

"A coffee shop. I mean if that's okay?"

"Yeah it's fine. Thanks for, this."

"You don't need to thank me. I should be thanking you for giving me the opportunity to be able to talk to you." She nodded and smiled.

"I'm in heaven. This doughnut is perfection."

"Wight? Twis ish dwefintly the best donwuts I've ever had." We just stare at each other and break out into a fit of laughter, causing some old lady to hush us.

I swallow the mouthful of doughnut I still had and we continue laughing a bit more. It lightened the mood, which makes it a bit easier. Here goes nothing.

"Demi told you everything right?"

"I hope she did. You're scared of telling her something? "

"Does it really seem that simple?"

She basically summed everything up, and me not telling Demi I like her is the main thing. It seems like it's not a big deal, but to me it is.

"I don't know. That's how it seems, but obviously to you it isn't that simple because you haven't been able to tell Demi. I think you should though, because no relationship should have secrets."

"I wanna tell her. I've wanted to tell her for years, but I just can't. It would change our friendship. I don't wanna lose her."

"But you're gonna lose her if you keep things from her."

That did it. She already has me close to tears. I know she's right, but I just can't tell her.

"I'm sorry Selena, did I say something?"

"N-no. Just, Demi."

"You're gonna be okay." I smiled, realizing those were the words I had said to her earlier. It kinda gave me that push to keep talking.

"She said that to me. That I'm gonna lose her if I keep things from her. I just don't know anymore. I want to tell her, but I could lose her if do. Either way I'll lose her in the end."

"And what if she doesn't leave you? What if she doesn't change? Demi's been through so much, she's in no position to judge, and you know that she wouldn't."

"I know, and I kinda need your help."

"My help?"

"Yeah. I don't wanna lose Demi, and I thought you could help me. I don't know if you could maybe convince her or something?"

"Why should I? I can't force Demi to be friends with you."

"I'm not saying that, like just make her be not so hard towards me. She texted me earlier today, she was in a good mood. We were joking around like nothing happened, but I know she won't let it go that easily."

"Okay. I'll see what I can do." I smiled at her.

That's the only thing I could think of doing in that moment. I don't want to lose Demi yet, and I know Jennel will help me. Maybe she won't do it for me, but for Demi, and something is better than nothing.

Are you serious? I could have sworn my phone was on vibrate. Jennel starred at me, I gave her a cheeky grin along with a blush.

"Is it bad that I wanna laugh right now?" I shook my head from side to side.

I tried holding back a laugh but failed terribly. I'm embarrassed, but at the same time I'm not. I'm not ashamed, that's been my ringtone for her ever since we recorded that song. I guess I'm just embarrassed because someone knows now.

"You know, that's her ringtone whenever you text or call her. You guys are so cliche. You're one and the same."

"Are you serious? I didn't think she would have that as her ringtone."

Demi is just full of surprises, I never would have guessed she'd have One And The Same as her ringtone for me. We're total dorks, and there she goes again, texting me, making my ringtone play once more.

"So am I taking you to Demi's?" I was nearing Demi's place and I hadn't even asked if I was supposed to take her there.

I'm a lot more calm than I was before. I was still off in my own little world, trapped in my head with all my thoughts, but things worked out better than I thought they would.

"Yeah, please?"

"No prob. I hope this won't be the last time we go out."

"Of course not." She smiles at me, and I smile back.

Now that I know Jennel will help me, it's up to me to fix things with Demi.

I wasn't expecting Demi to text me today. I was actually planning on calling her after I dropped off Jennel, but she beat me to it, and it might be for the best.

Demi made it clear that she wants to give us another shot, I just have to make sure not to fuck things up again. The only way to avoid another fall out is to tell her the truth.

I've tried to. Well it was only once, but Chloe interrupted us that time. I would have told her in that moment that I liked her, but what would have happened? There's so many different ways that could have ended.

But now? How would that even work out? We're both in relationships, and it's not like she would confess that she's in love with me. There wouldn't be a happy ending. I know for a fact that she would accept me. I mean why wouldn't she? I'm her best friend, and she's bi, and she's dating a girl, it would be very hypocritical of her to not. I'm just not sure when I should take the risk of telling her.

"Selena, I, well. Um." I take my eyes off the road to look at Jennel, but I make sure to keep an eye on it as well.

"What's wrong?"

I couldn't help but sigh. I don't wanna talk about it, but at the same time I do. It hurts a lot to keep thing bottled up.

"Just a lot on my mind."

"No shit. Seriously Selena, what's wrong? It's not good to keep everything in. I know you wanna talk about it."

"I can't."

"You can't or you won't? Look I have nothing against you, I respect you and whatever you say stays between us. Demi doesn't even know I'm with you, hell she doesn't even know I'm back in LA. I lied and told her I'd be back tomorrow."

"I like Demi, and I think I always have. There you happy!"

I didn't mean to yell, I was just so frustrated. I pretty much reached my limit. I don't think I regret what I said, because I mean it, I just kinda wish I hadn't told her of all people.

"What?"

"I like Demi okay? You have nothing to worry about because I wouldn't dream of getting in the way of your relationship. That's why I left Demi. That's always been the reason for our fall outs, because I like her more than a friend!" My screams turned into sobs.

It's out there, and I can't take it back. I feel like a table was just lifted off of my shoulders.

We had just arrived at Demi's apartment, my body was still shaking.

I parked the car but didn't face her, I couldn't. I just sat there and held my face in my hands as I continued to sob. I felt her arms on my back as she brought me into a hug.

I hugged her back and rested my head on her shoulder, soaking her shirt with my tears,

"It's okay Sel, just let it out." I took a deep breath and pulled away.

"I'm sorry." It's the only words I was capable of speaking.

"There's nothing to be sorry for."

"Yes there is. I've hurt Demi because of this. I fell for my best friend Jennel! Do you not understand that?! And I just told you, of all people I told you! You're Demi's girlfriend for crying out loud,I'm stupid! You probably hate me! I'm sorry." Things were getting bad.

I get easily nervous, and right now I'm a total mess. I can barely breathe from all the sobbing and screaming I'm doing.

She hugged me again, and I tightly held on to her. I needed the comfort, but I don't deserve it.

"You should be mad at me." I mumble against her shoulder.

"I'm not mad. I kinda always knew. I had my suspicions, but you just confirmed it, and I'm okay with it. You can't help who you fall for right? As cliche as it sounds it's true."

She knew? She knew?! How could she know?

"Y-you knew?" I pulled away once again. Her hands immediately went up to my face as she brushed away the tears.

"Yeah. It just all adds up. You were jealous of Demi spending time with her coworkers, and you kinda overreacted when you um saw us on the beach.

I've noticed the way you look at her, your eyes automatically light up. Whenever her name came up in our conversation just now, I would catch you smiling. You're not very subtle."

Yeah, definitely not subtle.

"We're cool though right?"

I want us to be, I'd hate for things to change between us.

"Yeah. There's no reason for us not to be. I know you wouldn't get in the way of my relationship with Demi, and I"m not gonna treat you any differently. Surprisingly,I'm not even jealous of you spending time with her. You're not a problem, but-"

"Wilmer might be?" I finished her sentence.

"How did you know?"

"He makes Demi happy, and she'd leave me for him sometimes. I understood though because they were in a relationship, but when you left the first time I came over and saw them together. And then he went to the set of X Factor and they took pictures together."

I know how she feels, to know the person you love is spending time with someone else.

But I don't love Demi, do I? Maybe, I mean she's my best friend, of course I love her, but do I love her more than a friend?

"But whatever she loves you, she always talks about you. I've never heard anything bad about about you. And even when she complains about you, which is hardly ever, she says it's cute. The girl is head over heels in love with you Jennel."

It pained me to say it, but I knew Jennel needed the reassurance.

"I'm gonna go. Thanks for, well everything."

"We're okay though right?"

"Yup. I'll treat this as if it never happened, if that's okay with you?"

"That's more than okay. Thanks Jennel, for being here for me. It really means a lot to me." She leaned over the arm rest and pecked my cheek.

I watched her as she walked out. She turned to wave at me and I waved back. I started the car as soon as she made it to the door.

She's so calm about this, it's scary. I know if someone told me they like my girlfriend I would have flipped, but she didn't. She was so understanding about everything. No wonder Demi's in love with her, Jennel is a total blessing.

I wonder if Demi will ever feel the same way about me. I wonder if I'll ever have the same affect on her that she has on me. I'll never know, but what does it matter? She's in love with Jennel, and I'm not stupid enough to get in the way of her relationship.

Even if they weren't together, she'd go back to Wilmer. And I'd stay in the friend zone.

"If I went to Paris…" Jennel! That's her ringtone, and I can't find my phone great.

I pull over on the side of the road. I still remember when she set it as her ringtone.

We were messing around and she took my phone away from me and gave it to Demi. They basically played monkey in the middle with my phone Jennel recorded herself singing and saved her number as well as setting the bit she sang from Paris as her ringtone.

Demi was almost drooling. Jennel's voice is amazing, she's extremely talented, but Demi wouldn't say that. She'd say she's perfect, I guess that's what love does to you.

"S-selena." By the tone of her voice I kind of regretted finding my phone.

She struggled to speak my name. All she said was my name, but she sounded so, so broken. She was breathing kind of heavy into the phone.

"Jennel? Jennel is everything okay? Are you okay?"

"Come. Please, come pick me up." She hung up on me.

I don't know how I'm even driving right now. It's been raining all day, but it got worse. I can barely see and the roads are slippery.

The fact that I'm nervous doesn't help. My mind is racing a mile a minute. Something happened to Jennel and I don't know what it is. Luckily I hadn't made it too far so it didn't take me too long to get back to Demi's.

I saw a figure laying down next to the entrance. I stopped the car, making sure the lights would illuminate the figure. I slammed the door and ran once I realized who it was.

"Jennel what the fuck happened!" I immediately hugged her.

But she she didn't respond, she didn't look at me, she did nothing.

"Jennel, what happened?" I was trying me best to stay calm, but that seemed impossible at the moment.

I just don't even know what's going. I come and find her soaked, she isn't speaking, she was laying on the grass. Anything could have happened.

"Can you just take me somewhere else?"

"Yeah, come on I'll take you back to my place."

I helped her to my car, there were no words exchanged. She kept her head down, but I could hear the sobs escape her lips every now and then.

What am I supposed to do? Should I call Demi? But would calling her resolve this? Does she have anything to do with this?

I'm panicking. She fell asleep the moment she got in the car. She was shaking so I turned the heat on. Even in her sleep she looks so broken, I can't imagine what happened in such a short amount of time to make her act out this way.

I really hate to have to wake her up, but we're here.

"Jennel? Jenn wake up?"

I start shaking her arm, but that only makes her face the window.

"Jenneeeel." I actually slap her arm,I didn't want to, but it woke her up

"We're here come on."

She followed me into my house. I kicked my shoes off and started heading towards the stairs, she stood there and looked around.

"Follow me." She walked up the stairs behind me, she hasn't said anything yet. And I'm scared of talking, I don't wanna say something that'll set her off or anything, so I just keep it down to what's necessary.

"I'm not sure if we're the same size, but it'll do for now. You can pick out what you want. Just bring your clothes downstairs so I can put them in the dryer. And I'll take your bag downstairs so I can go ahead and start drying these clothes. I'll be downstairs if you need anything, we need to talk."

"Y-yeah. Sorry, for this."

"Shh no, don't apologize. We'll talk when you get downstairs." I walked out with her bag and left her alone in my room.

I feel a bit more calm now that she's at my house because I can take care of her. But I'm still worried about her. There's just so much I wanna ask her but I don't want her to feel overwhelmed. Like what the fuck happened? I'm just so worried.

I open the door to the dryer and throw her clothes in.

"You hungry?" She shakes her head and pulls the stool closer to the counter.

"Fine, looks like you'll miss out on my famous cookies." I tease, trying to cheer her up.

"Take your time." I didn't mind being the only one talking, I know she need her time.

I take a seat next to her and place the plate of cookies in front of us.

"Well Demi didn't know I was flying in today, I told her I'd be here tomorrow since you were picking me up.

I knew she had been spending time with Wilmer, and I called her out on it. I told her that we weren't spending too much time together anymore. I know she's busy recording, but she started spending her free time with him. We haven't even been on a proper date in a while. Whenever I want to ask her out to dinner she already has plans with him. I'm okay with it, to an extent.

I'm happy that he makes her happy, but he's her ex. I automatically get jealous and insecure. He's older, he's a celebrity, they've known each other longer. I'm just some girl from the X Factor that she had to mentor, it's like I'm just some charity case.

I've always been so insecure about it, but she always told me otherwise, and I actually believed I don't know what to believe anymore." She stopped talking, I guess it's because her voice was getting shaky.

It's not that I feel bad for her, or look down on her or anything; I just hate that she's felt like that. I feel like that sometimes, I feel so small compared to everyone else, but I'm a celebrity she isn't, it's different.

But Demi isn't like that, she isn't shallow. She wouldn't leave Jennel because she isn't famous, Demi isn't one to toy with people's emotions.

"I walked in, hoping to surprise her, but things worked out differently. She didn't even notice me. She was too busy shoving her tongue down Wilmer's throat. I ran. I slammed the door and took off. I heard her screaming, trying to get me to stop, but it was most likely that she scared that someone had opened her door.

I kept running, not once looking back. I gave up and just threw myself on the ground. I had been crying so much, and the running didn't make it any easier to breath."

Demi kissed Wilmer. Demi fucking kissed Wilmer! What the fuck?! I'm not even mad because it wasn't me, it's the fact she's with Jennel! She doesn't deserve to be hurting like this.

"I'm sorry." I wanted to say a lot more, but I decided against it. I had to control myself because I know I would have made things worse.

I hugged her. I know what it's like to be cheated on, and I know what it's like to see the person you love kiss someone else.

"You give really nice hugs." I pulled away and smiled at her.

"You don't have to pretend to be okay. I know you're not, and I'm here for you.

"Thank you." She whispered. Her voice cracked, but I still heard what she said.

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