Okay, okay... I know what you were expecting. Don't hate me! Please?!
After a moment or two of his silence, the realization of what she had just done finally hit her. Her face blanked of all color, and she quickly made a repeat performance of the first time she had kissed him. She reached for her robe quickly before wrapping herself up tightly in it. "I'm such an idiot!" She whined as she did so. Next, she turned towards the door once more to make a run for it, but by now Tommy had at least somewhat regained his composure, and grabbed her wrist once again to stop her from leaving.
"No... NO! You don't just get to do that and then run away from me. Now what in the hell has gotten into you?" He demanded. "I... just... I dunno. You were avoiding the question and I thought... Oh, I don't know what I thought. But I figured maybe it would get you to answer, which it did, I guess. But now... Now I just feel so stupid. So, please, just let me go and hide in my closet for the rest of my life, okay?" She finished in a whirl of confused and nervous rambling.
Although he was still in shock by her, well, flashing him, he couldn't help chuckle at her adorable expression as she tried to pull her arm from his grasp once more. "Girl, there's no reason to feel silly. It's okay, really it is." He told her with a sincere smile. "It's okay? OKAY?! Tommy, I just...! I just...! You know what I did. That is sooo not okay. I'm not like that. I mean, I've never done anything like that before. Okay, well, I've done STUFF, but definitely nothing like that. No one's ever even seen me naked before. What was I thinking?!..." She continued to ramble, but he cut her off before she got on a roll again. "Girl, relax... It's actually quite a complement that you let me be the first. I always figured..." Her head went to her hands at his words, her face turning a deep shade of red. "I know what you figured. You figured the same thing that Karma and all of those damn tabloids figured. But no, I haven't done it. With Shay, Jamie and Spied I may have... " She began, but didn't really know how to finish that. Okay, well she did, but she didn't want to admit that, especially to Tommy of all people. She hoped to leave it there, but at his urging and insistent glare she continued. "Uh, let's just forget that I mentioned that. But no... I haven't done... IT. I'm... I'm still a virgin. Okay?! Are you happy now?! Just add to my humiliation why don't ya!"
Tommy gave her a sympathetic smile, but inside he was celebrating, thanking the lord that none of those punks had 'deflowered' his girl. "Why should you feel humiliated? That's nothing to be embarrassed about. Girl, still being a virgin is NOTHING to be ashamed of. Hell, most of the time I wish I had waited longer than I had... or at least could remember my first time." He sighed. "You don't remember? How can you not remember?" She asked, suddenly forgetting her embarrassment. "Honestly? I was thirteen and we were just finishing up rehearsals for first tour when the guys decided it was time to make me a man. They found some ready and willing groupie and that was that. It was over almost before it began. They had me so nervous from all of the tips and suggestions they had given me that I couldn't focus. I can't even remember what she looked like, let alone anything about the act itself. All I remember is that it was so terrible that I instantly wished that I had waited, but it was too late. So don't you dare feel ashamed for waiting. Wait as long as you want... Until you're sure that it's what YOU want. Don't let anyone try to pressure you or push you into doing something that you're not ready for. I learned that one the hard way, I don't want you to do the same." He truthfully confessed. The look in his eyes told her that he meant every word, and the soft reassurance in hers told him she understood.
They were both silent, neither quite sure what to say next as the sudden tension in the room began to unnerve them both. Jude took a deep breath before finally getting out what had been on her mind since she had confessed everything to him earlier. "But what if I don't want to wait?"She tentatively asked while looking at the floor.
At his silence for response, she slowly looked up into his confused eyes. "Ex.. Excuse me?" He stuttered, needing to clarify that he did in fact hear what he thought he did. "I said, what if I don't want to wait?" She repeated. "Yeah, that's what I thought you said." was all she got in response, and even that she barely understood as he said it under his breath. "Look, it's just... Before, with Shay and the others... I just wasn't ready. I..." She started before shaking her head. "Okay, that's a lie. I was ready. I have been for a long time actually." Now he was truly interested. "Then what stopped you? I'm sure they would have been more than happy to..." He asked, but stopped himself short, refusing to imagine any of those dork laying a hand on her. "You." She softly spoke just above a whisper, a little unsure as to whether or not he heard her, but his next question confirmed that he had.
"Me? What do you mean?" He slowly asked. "I just couldn't... with them, I mean. It's not that I wasn't ready, it's that I didn't want to... not with them, at least." She turned her attention to the floor again, afraid of his response when her true meaning dawned on him. This time, she was the one caught off guard as he quickly pulled her to him, raising her now shocked face with his finger before crashing his lips upon hers.