I was sat on the railing of the window walk contemplating the stars when I sensed Stefan behind me.

'It's beautiful up here.' I turned and gave him slight smile, don't want everyone thinking I'm a crazy person.

'It is, although I think Mrs Flowers was hinting at something when she cave me this room'

'Don't be fooled, she knows more than she lets on'

'How do you know my brother?'

I turned around shocked by his question. 'Haven't we already been through this?'

'No my brother told his tale, I want to hear yours, forgive me for not believing everything my brother says, but I'm sure you can understand why'

'He's not as evil as he pretends you know, he's actually one of only two men I would ever trust with me life, I did after all'

'I'm waiting'

'It's not good to push a crazy person you know'

'I don't believe you're crazy'

'Then you really do need to hear my tale, sit down, it's a long one'

' Let's see you already know most of it, I was a singer in London, no family as such just a well to do aunt who I despised, don't worry the feeling was mutual. So Damon came backstage one night and requested seeing me, I don't know if he liked the smell of me or if he was generally impressed' I giggled causing Stefan to look at me funny.

'We just clicked, went on a few dates together that sort of thing. Then Damon went away on business for a few months, I met a sailor, cute as a button, fell head over heels in love. We got engaged, we were going to go up to Gretna Green the following Tuesday, had the coach tickets and everything.'

I paused looking out over the boarding house garden, I could smell the roses all the way up here, I smiled to myself remembering James, he always bought me roses. I shook myself and turned back to Stefan.

'He got called away early, some make your fortune voyage that was too good to miss. He never came back, and well no big surprise that I was pregnant, why do you think we were going all the way up to Scotland to get married'

'I'm sor…

'Don't you dare say you're sorry, I knew what happened to the unlucky ones you know, I grew up with Victorian Morals! And you don't fool me, can you honestly tell me that if you had a sister in my position you would have done any different?' I turned to look him straight in the eye, 'Say it Stefan, I'm a disgrace, a whore, harlot, tart, pick your words'

' I would have helped her'

'No you wouldn't have, in this day age maybe, but not back then, it's not what people did. Well as I was saying, I got fired, he threatened to kill me actually' I laughed making myself sound totally crazy.

' A pregnant stage girl is no good to anyone, so I ran back to the only place I could'

'You're Aunt?'

'My Aunt. Naturally she through me in the loony bin, or a 'correctional Centre for wayward girls' to give it its proper title.

I sat down on the floor gazing off into the past.

'By the time Damon found me I was completely insane, id lost everything I held dear, I gave up. He gave me his blood to try and heal me, but I died in his arms. The whole time I was in there I prayed that I would die free, Damon gave me that freedom, I died happy.' I felt a tear run down my cheek and quickly wiped it away. I sensed Damon on the stairs and knew he'd been listening.

'So why won't you help us with the Kitsune?'

'Because I can't Stefan, this isn't my fight'

'But you've done it before'

'Because that was my fight! The only reason I got involved then was because my great great great granddaughter was involved. Blood is thicker than water Stefan, and you're not even a raindrop to me!'

I turned and stormed out of the room, forgetting all about Damon until I ploughed straight into him. We both lost our balance and toppled straight down the stairs landing in a heap at the bottom.

'Ow'

'Ow, lucky you broke my fall Damon' I had landed up onto of Damon our arms and legs tangled all over the place ' Been a long time since we did that'

'You can say that again, I remember now why we don't do it more often, you always land on top'

I burst out laughing and ending up sprawled over Damon as I collapsed in a fit off laughter

'I miss her laugh'

'I miss him'

'More work less play please Eva' I looked up to find sage towering over me. I lost all control, I lept at him knocking him to the floor. My fangs tore at his flesh.

Damon

I jumped up and tried to grab hold of Eva. She had that crazy look in her eye, the one that scares me. She was literally tearing sage apart. I through her against the wall, there was a sickening crack as her head made contact with stone. I had never hurt her before tonight, it sickened me.

'thankyou Damon'

I spun round and punched sage. ' I have never never hurt her, ive never even laid a hand on her until tonight. Get out of my sight before I kill you'

I went to Eva's side where Bonnie was trying to rouse her.

'thank you Bonnie, ill take her' I scooped Eva up in my arms and walked up to stefans room and out of the window. I ran with her in my arms till I was deep in the woods.

'Come on bella wake up. Im sorry, for everything'

'since when does damon Salvatore apologise?'

'since he met you, your my weakness'

'far from it, im nothing more than the girl you felt sorry for, hardly a downfall.'

Im sorry, please don't regret it, im not crazy honest'

'I have to regret it, I should have just let you die instead of acting so selfishly, forgive me bella'