Chapter 4 – Loss

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"He always wanted you to become a pirate, Liz," she heard a voice behind her.

Elizabeth turned around, her eyes widening in surprise and shock….

Will was standing there, not moving, his eyes showing clearly what he was thinking. He had heard her little talk with Sam – or at least a big part of it.

"It's not what you think it is, Will," Elizabeth whispered while Sam just left, knowing this conversation wasn't meant for her to hear.

"Oh, you want to tell me you love me and that's all what matters? I don't believe you, Liz. And now you're going to tell me the WHOLE truth, no exceptions, no lies," he snapped angrily, glaring at her way in a way she had never seen him looking at her before.

"I… I can't."

"Can't or won't? You have to make a decision, Miss Swann. It's either me – your fiancée, the one who saved you several times – or a bloody pirate who only cares about himself."

Elizabeth just looked at him, not uttering a single word. Her eyes showed him everything he needed to know and yet he refused to give in.

"I saw what you did, Elizabeth," he said, his gaze piercing her, his voice as cold as ice. "You kissed Jack just before we left him on the Pearl. You kissed my friend. You betrayed me…"

"But I… I didn't want…"

"You didn't want to kiss him? Or didn't want me to know it? After all, what was that rot you told me about loving me? Why the hell did you lie to me? At last you could have been honest like you were with Sam. Since when do you trust a stranger more than you trust me?"

"Sam is no stranger to me. And what should I have told you?" she replied, now getting angry, forgetting what she said. "Would you have wanted to hear 'I'm sorry, Will, but I've fallen madly in love with your best friend who appears to be a pirate, by the way and then I cuffed him to the ship to save my skin?'"

"You did WHAT?"

"I killed Jack," she answered, now sad and a bit scared how he would react.

To her surprise and relief, Will just turned around to leave.

"I guess in this case, there's no reason why we should stay engaged, Liz. You love Jack Sparrow, not me. I don't know if you'll get him back, but I can't go on with this knowing you don't love me."

He stepped away from her, but she stopped him.

"Wait, Will. Can we still be friends?" she asked, not sure what to expect.

"I don't know, Elizabeth. Give me time."

With those words, Will left the deck – and the only woman he had ever loved.

The moment he had disappeared downstairs, Elizabeth let herself drop to the deck, just like she had done during her night-watch. She sat with her back getting soaked by the sea.

'What did I do? I never wanted to lose my best friend. I can't live without him. I mean, I've known him for almost eight years. He was the first person I fell in love with – the first man I ever trusted. He saved my life, became a pirate for me and yet… I don't want to lose him,' Elizabeth thought, fighting hard to suppress the tears that were threatening.

The memories… There were so many….

She remembered how they had found Will as a child, the only survivor of a shipwreck. How he had refused to call her Elizabeth. She remembered his hand covering her mouth to save her from Barbossa and his cursed crew. She saw herself again trying to open the hatch on the Interceptor to save him from drowning. Remembered the ship exploding, how she had been sure he was dead. And she remembered her relief when he appeared on the rail and his face when she was forced to jump into the water. And she'd never forget their desperate fight against the pirates on Isla de Muerta and how he had saved Jack from sure death on the gallows . And oh, yes, she remembered his kisses, his touches, those little affections he always showed her, remembered that he had found Jack to save her – again. And the fear she felt for him when she heard he was on board the Flying Dutchman. All those memories suddenly came crashing down onto her. Yes, she had loved him, but he also had been her best friend…

Then she saw Sam sitting down beside her.

"You okay?"

Hearing those words, Elizabeth broke down, crying…

To be continued

(Sorry this one is so short, but I'll update soon)