~ Speak Your Dark Pleasures to Me ~
When it comes to bedroom activities, Hanji is definitely the more adventurous of the two. She is willing to try just about anything once, although she is not hesitant in calling a halt to the proceedings when she finds an act or position to be unpleasant after all. And while Levi could hardly be called a prude, there are hard limits to what he is willing to try.
Tonight she brings up the topic of an act that he has already refused to perform several times in the past.
"I've told you before, I am not going to do that," Levi snarls. "It's filthy and disgusting!"
"It doesn't have to be," Hanji protests, undeterred.
"I'm not doing anything that will involve me getting shit on my dick, and that's final!"
"There are ways to prevent-"
"If you really want to do that so badly, go find someone else to do it with!"
When she does not respond immediately, he thinks he's won the battle and the subject will be dropped. A few long moments pass before the silence begins to make him uncomfortable, and he notices that she is staring at him with a speculative gaze.
"What?" he snaps.
"Oh, nothing," she replies, her offhanded tone causing his scowl to deepen. "I was waiting to see if you were really breaking it off with me or if you were just angry. And since you haven't thrown me out of the room yet, I'm assuming 'just angry'."
True, he'd said it in the heat of the moment, but his suggestion had also not been entirely insincere.
"And if it was a serious suggestion?" he asks. When her expression sours, he hastens to add, "But I also don't intend on ending our... relationship... thing."
"Oh..." Hanji brightens up as an idea strikes her. "Does this mean you want to watch?"
"What? Why the fuck would I want to watch?"
Hanji sighs. "It may surprise you to learn that I generally prefer a committed, exclusive relationship with a single sexual partner. However, I am willing to indulge in polyamory if that's what turns you on."
Levi stalks toward her.
"I don't want to share you," he says, taking her into his arms. "But you keep asking me to do something I've already told you I can't do."
He aches to tell her that every time she brings it up, it makes him feel like he isn't doing enough to please her, like he is less of a man for being so averse to an act which other men would jump on the opportunity to perform. Yet, at the same time, he doesn't want to admit his weakness to her, or to let her know her how deep his feelings run when their "relationship" was just supposed to be about the sex.
He is drawn out of his thoughts by the feeling of Hanji wrapping him in a tight embrace.
"I'm sorry," she says quietly. "I won't bring it up again if you're really that against it." She presses a soft kiss to the top of his head, and for that one brief moment, he is glad that she is taller than him. She continues, "But I want you to know that I asked you about it again because we've been together for a while now and experimented with a lot of things, and I thought you might be ready to try it now. It's not just that I wanted to do it - I want to do it with you."
He is glad that she's better at all this being-honest-with-your-feelings shit, too.
"Maybe," he whispers against her neck.
"What was that you said?"
"Maybe," he repeats, louder this time. "I'm not saying soon, or for sure... but sometime in the future, maybe."
~oOo~
A/N: So, this was just supposed to be a humorous little drabble about Levi refusing to do anal, but it turned into this.