Ok, here it my first M rated chapter. I'm just gonna go...over there...
Castle sat on the bed, listening to the water running in the shower. It had taken him and the boys over an hour to convince Beckett that it was too late to do anything tonight, and that getting some rest would make things that much easier tomorrow. That, and if she was right and Bracken was involved, she'd never forgive herself if she made a mistake because she was too tired. That seemed to get through to her, and Castle was able to persuade her to come back to the loft. He really didn't want her to be alone tonight, and honestly, neither did she.
She walked into the bedroom wearing one of his baggy tshirts. He loved seeing her in his clothes. He motioned for her to come to bed, lifting the sheets so she could slide in next to him.
He reached over and flipped off the bed side lamp leaving just the light glow from the street lights outside filtering through the window. He slid down in the bed, lying on his back and pulled her close. She lay on her back, tight against his side, his arm around her, her head on his shoulder. She lay there, silent. She reached down and wrapped her hand around his fingers that were slowly stroking her side. She lay there in silence, staring at the ceiling just playing with his hand, finding comfort in his warmth.
He lay there on his back, one arm under his head, the other around her. He wanted nothing more than to pull her tightly into his arms, and kiss away her pain, but he couldn't. Not with this case. If it was in fact connected to Bracken, she was in danger. He couldn't risk pushing too hard, and having her run where he couldn't protect her. He felt her grab his hand and begin running her fingers around his. It was something she did sometimes when they would cuddle on the couch watching a movie. He didn't know if she even realized she did it, but it seemed to sooth her.
"What if it is him, Castle?" She finally whispered. "What if this is finally my chance to make him pay?"
"Then we will make him pay, but we do it by the book, and we tread carefully until then."
"God! I just want this so bad to be him. To be the case where he slips up and I finally can take his ass down. I can't screw this one up, Castle. I just can't."
He could feel the tension in her muscles and the slight catch in her breath told him she was crying. He turned and kissed the side of her head. "You won't. You are a great cop, and if it is him and if he made a mistake, you will find it. If this is his work, we will get him. Together. But right now," he kissed her head again. "You need to try to relax and get some sleep. It's been a hell of a day, and you need to be fully rested when we go after him."
"God, Castle. I don't know if I can sleep. All these things are flying through my mind. What ifs? And theories and fear of screwing this up."
"Shh, just quiet your mind and relax," he whispered. Slowly rubbing his hand up and down her arm.
"Relax, yeah. If only it were that easy."
"Let me help you." He whispered. "Just breathe deep, try to clear your mind." He said as he slowly rubbed his hand down her arm and back up, massaging her shoulder and arm as he went. She released his fingers, and he began to do the same thing on the other side of her body. She lay there, eyes closed, breathing deep as he massaged her arms and moved to her sides, lightly stroking from the sides of her breasts to her hips and back.
"This feels good, Castle, but I just can't turn off my mind." She huffed.
"Shh, it's ok, trust me. Just keep breathing deep, try to clear your head, focus on what you're feeling, not what you're thinking."
She closed her eyes and relaxed back into him. His hand began to run slowly up and down her abdomen, from just below her breasts to her naval and back, while his other arm, wrapped around her, held her against him as his fingers danced up and down her bare thigh.
She could feel the tension in her muscles starting to subside, but a new tension was growing. A small moan escaped her lips, as his fingers continued to dance over her skin.
He couldn't help but smile.
"Castle, I know you mean well, but I don't know if I'm up for sex tonight."
He kissed the top of her head. "Nope, no sex tonight, Kate. Just helping you relax."
"Um, I'm not sure your plan is working." She laughed as another small moan escaped her lips when his hand brushed the underside of her left breast.
"Mmm" he replied, "I think it is working." He slowly moved his hand over her hip and around and back up the inside of her thigh. Another moan escaped her lips as her legs automatically parted for him.
"Castle." She warned.
"No sex, I promise." He kissed her neck. "Can I touch you?" He asked, as his hand trailed across her abdomen and back down her thigh.
Her breath hitched. "Please," she moaned. His hand slid back up her thigh, he slowly slid his hand between her legs as they parted for him. He could feel the heat and moisture between her legs, and it thrilled him that he could do that to her so easily.
With the arm that was around her, he began to slowly run his fingers through her curls, feeling her moisture on his hand. His other hand running up and down her body soothing her. She moved her hips, seeking more pressure from his hand, he gladly gave it. He ran his fingers along her moist slit, making them slick with her wetness. Slowly he inserted a finger causing her to release another throaty moan. "God that feels good, Castle."
He worked his fingers inside her, while holding her tight against him, still running his other hand across her abdomen and up and down her sides, lovingly.
His touch was amazing. He definitely was making her forget everything. The things this man could do with just his hands never ceased to amaze her. As he continued moving his fingers inside her, she could feel the tension building within her. God she wanted him. She started to roll towards him.
"No, Kate, stay." He held her against him with his free arm, while his hand continued to pleasure her.
"Please, Castle." She whined, as she rocked her pelvis against his hand, trying to relieve her building need.
"Shh, relax, trust me." He said as he withdrew his fingers running them up her slit to the place he knew she needed to be touched."
"Fuck! Castle! How can you touch me like that and ask me to fucking relax?" Her hips jerked as he slowly swirled his finger around her tight bundle of nerves.
He laughed. God he loved her. The way she responded to him always amazed him. He was starting to feel his own arousal grow and shifted slightly to relieve some of the tightness in his boxers.
He slowly moved his fingers, slipping back in, as his thumb began to work her most sensitive spot. Her hips jerked and she made a noise neither of them had ever heard or even knew she was capable of making, but damn it was hot!
She could feel herself coming close she tried to roll over again, she wanted him with her. He held her still again. Panting, she moved her hand up his leg and feeling for him. She reached for him and he pulled back. She let out a frustrated groan.
Suddenly, her hips were bucking out of her control. He kissed her neck and whispered to her encouragingly. "Just let go, Kate. Just let go. Come for me, Kate."
She cried out as her muscles fluttered around his fingers. He held her back, tight against his body as he felt her trembling as she allowed herself to lose control in his arms.
When she had stopped trembling, he slowly removed his fingers, allowing his warm hand to lie gently over her still sensitive mound.
She lie there, breathing heavy, limbs unable to move as she came down from the pleasure he'd just brought her. Never in her life had she felt so loved and cherished by a man.
He kissed her neck. "Feel more relaxed?"
"Uh huh." She breathed out.
He laughed. "Good."
She smiled, totally content. She rolled slightly, and felt his erection poke into her side. "You'll have to give me a sec," she said, reaching for him.
"Nuh uh," he replied, pushing her hand away.
Her eyes came to meet his, confused.
"I'll be fine, not tonight. Tonight was all about you. Now, time to sleep."
She looked at him, tears in her eyes. "You're sure? I could..."
"Shh, I'm sure." He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her tight to his chest giving her a gentle kiss.
"Just sleep, Kate. We've got a big day ahead of us."
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