Love Me

Chapter 4

BPOV

I awoke on my couch.

"Bella. Are you O.K.?" It was Dr. Cullen's voice. "Yeah, I think so. I feel very dizzy tough." I stated.

"That's because you fainted. I'm guessing with everything that's went on and lack of eating, your body decided to pass out, to heal it's self." Dr. Cullen smiled.

"I'll be fine, I just need time to myself, really, I haven't had any in so long and I was so use to it, I miss it." I shrugged. "O.K., Bella, we'll go but remember if you need anything, call Esme or myself and we'll drive back here, no matter the time, got it?" he stated. I shook my head and as Alec went to walk away, I grabbed his hand and asked him to stay for a little while. "Sure Bella. Jane took the care a while ago, I've gotta hail a cab anyway." he smiled. "Look Alec, you can always stay here if needed, you know that." I smiled at him. "Thanks Bells, I probably will need a place to stay and I'll bring over my girlfriend and introduce her to you, I met her 3 weeks ago at the farmer's market, she is the sweetest thing and I know you'd love her." he smiled. My mouth hung open, he'd been cheating on Jane and I whispered as much to him. "No, we've done nothing but talk, but I told her once that papers were filled next week, we could." he smiled.

I laughed at my brother, "I can't wait to meet her then." I smiled.

A week later my brother showed up with 2 suitcases and said the rest of his stuff was in storage.

I was proud of my brother for leaving that bitch Jane.

It was Saturday and Edward and Rose were hosting dinner night at their house.

Alec and I arrived early to help set up, well, I helped set up with Rose, Alec and Edward drank beers and watched a game.

"Rose, what ever happened to your ex who raped you?" I whispered in the kitchen.

"He was shot in a robbery." she shrugged. "Not the way he should have went, he should have suffered long and hard, but at least he'll never come after me again." she gave a sad smile and I hugged her, tears flowing freely. "Bella, what's bothering you?" she asked.

"I just found out my ex, James, the one I told you I dated in college and when I broke up with him, kidnapped me and took me to California to the dessert, he was going to kill me, but not before he raped me over and over repeatedly for 2 weeks and when I was found, I wasn't even recognizable. They identified my through fingerprints, thank goodness my dad had me in the system, I couldn't talk, my jaw was broke, both arms and hands, my left leg, a huge gash in my right and in my head, not to mention all the scarring on my female parts." I was in ICU for weeks. Alec and my dad were frantic, not to mention Jake, my best friend from La Push, it was bad." I sighed. "They finally caught him and put him in jail, he's been there for 4 years, now I find out he's getting released in less than a month for good behavior and I'm a nervous wreck." I sobbed into Rose's shoulder. Right then Edward walked in. "Bella, you O.K.? I know I gave you crap the first time I met you about hurting my brother, but he was the one that did the hurting, I am so sorry." Edward gave me a hug and Rose smiled softly at me. "Thanks Edward, that means a lot." I smiled at him and dried my tears.

Alice and Jasper arrived and shortly after them Emmett and his girlfriend arrived, Edward and Alice took him into Edward's office, for a 'family' discussion.

"I can't believe you were such an insensitive asshole Emmett! I thought you liked Bella, I thought things were going good for you two, you were taking it slow?" Edward questioned.

Before he got a chance to speak, Alice started "You left her when she needs someone the most! Her ex is being released from prison and she's terrified, he fucked her up pretty bad! I don't know the entire story, only what I Googled after hearing Alec and Jasper talking about having her guarded at all times." Alice stated.

"Look, I'm not a fucking body guard! I'm not here to heal her! We were friends, we were taking it slow, but I have fucking needs and she wasn't going to fulfill then anytime soon! So I had to take it somewhere else." he stated coldly.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me Emmett!" Edward laughed.

"This is not my brother. The brother I know would have stood by and gladly took a bullet for someone like Bella any day of the week with or without sex!" he stated."Well, maybe I'm tired of being walked on! I walked on her before she could walk on me!" Emmett stormed out of the office and into the back yard, Irina followed, but he told her to go back in.

I sat on the window seat, clearly upset, I was sobbing so hard, I knew I was going to puke, so I ran out to the back yard and to the side of the house and threw up. I dropped to the ground and cried, I couldn't stop. I suddenly felt two pairs of strong arms lift me up and hug me and pull me on to their lap.

"Bella, I am so sorry for everything I did to you. I was just trying to protect myself from being hurt. I truly do have feelings for you. I do want to be with you, I can't stop thinking about you. I hate when Irina touches me, I want it to be you. I screamed your name out during sex and she was pissed and we haven't been together since, 'she's teaching me a lesson' I am so truly sorry about everything. If you need me back to help you, I will be there, I heard Alec was there, but he works midnights and sometimes 24 and 48 hour shifts, how can he protect you? I know I was an ass and don't deserve your forgiveness, but please, find it in your heart to do so." he begged and I could see with his eyes he meant every word, but my heart hurt, I didn't know what to do."I'll have to think about this Emmett. You hurt me really bad and said some nasty things about me, plus you've still got a girlfriend." I shrugged.

"Not after tonight." he smiled and kissed my head.

"Will you tell me everything about James if I come back, I don't want the short version, I want to hear it all!" Emmett smiled a sad smile. "Yeah, I'll tell you all I can remember." I shrugged, "If I allow you back."

That night Alec had to work and I couldn't sleep. I text Alec at 3:30 in the morning and asked if him and Jasper were hungry, they replied 'Hell yes' and showed up half and hour later.

I made chocolate chip pancakes, bacon and eggs and a thermos of coffee for them to take. Jasper headed to the car, but hugged me and whispered "he's been on my couch for 3 days now, please invite him back, I hate seeing that hulk of a man cry everyday." he kissed my forehead and told Alec he'd see him in 5. "Bella, I know you're scared shitless about James, I am too. We've taken all the precautions we can. Everything you have is registered under the name Dwyer and there are 15 of them here. So that's a little more comforting. Also, your building is guarded, no one comes up without your permission, so at least you're safe in your own home and I've given pictures to the staff, they know not to let that man in here, under ANY circumstances." Alec held me tight. "I know and I do feel a little better about that fact." I smiled. "With that being said, Emmett called and talked to me and apologized for the way he treated you. I gave him a verbal lashing, but nothing like the one he was getting from his sister tonight when I went to get Jasper, she was laying into him big time. Alice really wants to get to know you and become your friend. Rose is already a good friend and they're sister in laws, so it'd be perfect for you. Give him a second chance. Call him, I know he's awake." Alec kissed my forehead and said he'd see me later tonight.

I took a deep breath and though about what he and Jasper had said.

I REALLY liked Emmett and I missed him here. I missed our movie nights, his cooking ME dinner and just our long chats. I picked up the phone and text him :

'you awake?~E'

I waited and no response, he must be asleep, I went to clean up the kitchen when my phone beeped.

'yeah, fixing a snack, Alice just went shopping today.~Em'

'can we talk?~E'

'I'll call you now.~Em'

'I was hoping face to face.~E'

'Oh, um, now?~Em'

'Unless it's a bad time.~E'

'No, no. let me get dressed, ½ hr.?~Em'

'See you then. Bye~E'

':0) ~Em'

I hurried and cleaned up my kitchen and changed into a pair of shorts and a tank, instead of the baggy sweats I was in. I ran my fingers through my hair and brushed my teeth, just in time for a knock at my door.

"Hey,you." Emmett smiled.

"Hey" I smiled and let him in.

"So? Do we sit here and act like this is our first meeting or do you start telling me about James and all the fucked up shit he did to you." Emmett said sternly.

"How much has Alec told you?" I asked.

"Just that James is an ex, a very bad ex and makes Rose's ex look like a Saint." he grimaced.

"Yeah, well, I have shared my story with Rose and she's heard mine, anyone who's been raped, would beg to differ, no matter what happened to them or how bad it was.

James of course started out nice enough. I met him at a bar with my friends, we hung out and went on a few dates, he seemed like a nice guy, I introduced him to Alec and of course he did a background search, finding nothing, so I decided to proceed with the relationship.

We dated for 6 months, things going pretty good, then Jake and a few others came up for my 21st birthday weekend and we were all hanging out having a blast, Jake and I have always been close, we love each other, but deeper than brother and sister, not romantically though. We just have a connection. Any way, we were dancing and James was meeting us after he got off work, he hadn't met the guys yet, but knew they were coming. He came in and saw me dancing with Jake, now, Jake is just as big as you, but James, is kind of like Jasper and Edward, muscular, but not overly so, but VERY strong, he came over and sucker punched Jake.

I screamed at him for doing so, saying that he was my friend. James told me he wouldn't date a whore who every guy fucks and touches, the guys came to my defense and said none of them had any feelings for me that way AT ALL, we were just friends. I rubbed James' arms to calm him down and made sure Jake was O.K., he apologized, thinking he was just some stranger, so we let it go. I danced a few times with the guys and James that night, the guys all went to their hotel that night, after James and I went back to his apartment, he beat the shit out of me, telling me I flaunted myself in front of those DOGS as he put it. He told me I wasn't to see Jake anymore. When Jake text me for breakfast, I told him I was hungover from last night and I'd see him on my next trip to Forks.

A few weeks past and James was waiting for me outside of my class, I was talking to my partner, getting ideas for our next project, when I turned around, I noticed him. He was livid looking. He yelled at me in front of the entire school, I told to calm down, he grabbed my arm and pulled me to his car and took me to his place. We got in a huge fight that night and he beat me up really bad, I called Alec that night.

Alec and Jasper came over and took pictures, they went to arrest James but he was gone, his apartment was empty and everything." I took a deep breath and Emmett wiped the tears streaming down my face.

"I'm sorry you had to endure that." Emmett said.

"Please, let me finish." I said and he nodded.

"A few weeks went by and I felt normal again. Jake came to visit me and I told him everything that James had did to me. He was pissed, not at me, but because I hid it from him and I didn't let him protect me. He told me if he ever got his hands on him, he'd be dead and I do believe him, If his dad didn't depend on him, I'd tell him about this. Any way, I went about my normal life for over a month and then one night I had to go to the store for 'female' things, I had ran out, something I didn't usually do, but now I know that he broke into my place and removed them, to lure me out, knowing I'd need them. I went to the 24 hour store on the corner, I just walked, since it was right there and on my way back is when he grabbed me. He told me he was taking me to the dessert to kill me.

He punched me in the face 3 times, knocking me out. He had a camper van stocked with everything he needed, he beat me and raped me and forced me to do things I care not to repeat and he did things to me, that should NEVER be forced on someone. Let's just say, if I ever have a chance to get pregnant, it will be a miracle. He messed me up really bad.

He had finally broken my jaw , arm, leg and I had slashes all over my body and to make it worse, when he'd cut me, he'd pour alcohol on the gushing wound. I would scream in agony and he would force himself inside my mouth and force me to swallow everything, if I threw it up, he'd do it again.

2 weeks of hell I went through. When he was done, he tossed me out of the camper in the middle of the dessert, in only a t-shirt, thinking I was almost dead anyways.

I managed to sit up enough to watch the way he drove and after he'd been gone for a while, I drug myself across the dessert, it hurt like hell, I was bleeding and couldn't scream, I was in pain and hungry and thirsty.

I must have passed out, the next thing I know, I was in a hospital and they were asking me questions and telling me my brother and father were on their way.

They had did a rape kit on me and luckily, I guess they found enough traces of him and to make matter worse, they told me I was pregnant, how that was possible I don't know, but I told them I wanted an abortion, please don't think of me as a horrible person, PLEASE! I just couldn't carry his child and look at it or know that it was out in the world and that it might end up like him one day.

With all that, they put out a nationwide search for him and finally found him, right before he crossed into Mexico. I had a horribly long trial and was disgusted he only got 4 years with everything I went through, he had a sleazy lawyer who had to have people in his pockets. From what I understand, his parents actually have money, when they choose to recognize him as their son and I guess they didn't want him going to prison for too long." I stopped and the sobs racked my body. I was shaking and crying so bad, Emmett pulled me into his lap and shushed me, telling me he was here, if I wanted him.

"Bella, do you want me back?" he asked.

"Yes. Please. I want you fully in my life. I want to be with you and only you Emmett." I told him, pulling him to me and kissing him deeply.

"Bella, are you sure?" he asked pulling away and looking into my eyes.

"Yes, if you can handle being with someone like me who's broken and used, then yes. I want you!" I said kissing him again and turning to straddle his lap. He groaned in response and I rubbed up against him."Bella, please, I won't be able to stop if you start, I don't have the will power anymore." he sighed putting his head on my shoulder while I kissed his neck.

"Then don't hold back, don't stop." I smiled at him

He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him, letting him carry me upstairs. "Bella, I will never, ever hurt you like James or Mike and I am so sorry for causing you pain over this Irina mistake." he sighed. "It's done and over with, I know you'd never hurt me, make love to me." I smiled and that's all the words he needed. We made love slowly all night long, he treasured my body and touched me like I never thought possible. He made me feel loved and beautiful.

We fell asleep in each others arms.

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