The few days spent in hospital was awful for me. I felt…I don't know…different. I felt disgusting, if I was being honest. Because I felt like I was out of control and I felt that the other night had only been an example of that.
And I kept panicking.
I had nightmares about what could have happened, because the more that I worried, panicked and thought about it; the more nightmares that I kept having. I'd wake up screaming; the images too much to bear before apologizing over and over again as a nurse ran into check on me.
I was a complete and utter mess and I really wasn't helping with Rob. He was there everyday, watching me get more and more quiet as time grew on; the confusion plain on his face. I really wanted to tell him the truth; I really did, but I didn't want him to worry about the way that I felt right now.
Because, I would be okay again; I knew I would. I just needed time to get over this and then…I would be his. I would prove to him-as soon as I ready-that I loved him as much as I said that I did. He would know soon enough; he would realize just how much I needed him…
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Sorry its such a short chapter. My other story; I'll Be Your Lover Too and I'd love it if you could give it a quick read and tell me what you think. It's now on Fanfiction too! Thanks for the wonderful reviews!