Hey! Ok, you caught me... I wouldn't do leave you with this... It would suck, and I would be like someone y'all hate. Can't have that now can we? And what I wrote last chapter- I have mood swings so leave me alone... or I'll bite your head off.
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Presenting CHAPTER 4
"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all."
-Saint Augustine
After CeeCee left the next day, I felt a little better. Only a little bit. CeeCee was being so nice. Like she all, "Do you need anything? And I can't believe Jesse did that"
All the time, I felt like she was hiding something, like she was hiding something. Maybe Jesse cheated on me with CeeCee, as well Debbie. A well, I doubt it, CeeCee is so happy with Adam, right?
I decided to go to big Slur, on Saturday night, just to calm down. Even though, that's where I found out Jesse was cheating on me. I saw Jesse making out with Debbie. I mean, what does she have, that I don't? She's blonde, and big chested, and is a bimbo.
I stole my mom's car, and drove there. The sun was just about to set, the sky was no longer blue, but it was orange, and red. I loved it like this. I loved it when Jesse and I would sit here, and watch the sunset, having a great time.
Little did I know it was going to end up like this. Why? I asked myself, sitting on the same rock that we always sat on.
Why am I so desperate for Jesse? Ok, I mean, he was haunting my bedroom since I moved in to Carmel, and he was more or less the first friend I made here.
"Suze?" asked a familiar voice from behind me.
Oh, no. It's Kelly. What does she want?
"Yes, the one and only," I said, turning around, and finding Kelly all alone.
"Cool, just so you know, that super hot guy you brought to the dance is looking for you," she said.
"How do you know?" I asked, not interested in the fact that Jesse was looking for me. I didn't care, I seriously didn't. Why should I?
"Oh, he called me," she shrugged.
"How does he know your phone number?" I asked, my tone bordering on evil.
"Oh, he's been going out with me, since like June," answered Kelly sweetly, and walking away.
Oh great! Oh Great! He's been cheating on me since June! June! It's May. What's more, he cheated on me with KELLY! Kelly Prescott, someone he knows I hate with all my guts.
Is he doing this on purpose? Why does my life have to be so useless. I live it, just to save ghosts from wondering this plain of existence for ever and ever. Why do I have to end up the hurt one? I mean, I risked my life for Jesse, multiple times, and he just goes to other girls. I wanted this to work out.
"Susannah," I heard Jesse's voice next to me.
"Leave me alone, you son of a-"
"No, No! I won't leave you alone. I'm your boyfriend and I have a right to know what's going on with you," answered Jesse in a stern voice.
"You! You're the problem!" I stuttered, standing up, and brushing my clothes off, getting ready to run to my car. But Jesse grabbed my wrist, which made me slip, and fall on the rock.
Jesse was standing above me, smirking.
"I guess you found out, huh?" he said to me, not even bothering to help me up.
"Yes, I did, and I think you are the biggest asshole in the universe," I yelled, in a not very confident voice.
"So, I guess you want to find out who I did, huh?" he asked, very confidently, and pointing to the parking lot.
This isn't my Jesse. Where is he?
"Look over there, Susannah," he said, pointing to the parking lot again. No, I won't look. I'm scared. Not Suze, don't look.
I looked.
I saw a group of girls. In them CeeCee, Kelly, Debbie, and about three other girls I recognize from Jesse's school.
"What am I to you?" I asked, crying again.
"Well, I wanted this to work... But you see... Your nothing to me anymore," he said, and he pulled my up off the ground, and pushed me into the ocean.
I woke up in a hospital. I knew I was in the hospital because of the florescent lights, and the loud beeping. And the bed. It was horribly uncomfortable. The mattress was like sleeping on rocks, and the nurses had me positioned wrongly.
What happened before? Where's Jesse? Where's CeeCee?
Then I remembered everything. How Jesse revealed his real love life to me, and how a friend, who I thought was the best, went out with my now ex-boyfriend.
A nurse came into the room to see my heart monitor.She looked perky, and she was wearing a white nurse shirt with tweety bird on it, and she was singing "Jingle Bells". In May... At least I think it's May...
"What day is it?" I asked her politely.
She was surprised. Maybe she thought that I was never going to wake up. Maybe I was not supposed to wake up.
"Whoa, your awake," she said.
"Yeah, I am," I replied, remembering the events of yesterday sadly.Or what I thought was yesterday.
"You know you fell off a cliff. Everyone things you tried to commit suicide," said, taking a seat next to me.
"What? I didn't… I wouldn't- I -I-I can't believe this!" I said angrily.
Jesse is such a… I need a word to describe this... Wait a minute! There is none.
"That means, you didn't try to kill yourself, right?" asked the nurse WAY too perkily.
"Duh! I didn't try to kill myself," answered and got out of bed.
I could stand. I only had a few scratches on my legs, but my arm was broken. I could tell because it was in a tight cast. I turned to look at myself in the mirror.
My face was in tact. I looked like myself. Except for the fact that my hair was fuzzy, fizzy, and all over the place.
"How long have I been in here?" I asked the nurse.
"Twenty-two days," said the nurse, perkily again, "Making it June 17th."
What is wrong with her? She's so happy with me being in here for twenty-two days.
"Ok… Can I call someone?" I asked the nurse sitting down on my bed again.
"Yes, sure you can," she answered and disappeared through the door.
Two minutes later, I had a phone in my hands, and I called the only person who in Carmel who would be nice enough to come to my aid.
"Paul?" I asked, when I he picked up the phone.
"Who- OH MY GOD! Suze, your alive!Did you know that Father Dominic you graduated early, because he knew you would wake up?" He aked into the phone happily.
"I need help," I answered not even answering his question, or getting excited that I graduated.
"Ok, what do you need help with?"
"I'm leaving here."
"What? If your going somewhere, I'm coming with," said Paul.
"You can come, but hurry up, I want to be out of here."
I was allowed to leave because I just turned eighteen ten days ago.
Paul led me to his car, and asked if we should stop at my house, for clothes.
"No. My mom'll stop me from going," I answered, "I'll get clothes from Wal-Mart in Seattle."
"Where?"
"Seattle, for now," I said looking at a very torn Paul, "But we won't stay there long."
"Ok…" said Paul, quietly. Then he looked at me again, and said," At least let me lend you some clothes."
"Ok, fine," I answered, exasperated,"Hurry up though, I want to get out of here quickly."
SO MUCH LONGER A CHAPTER I was lazy the past three chapters. Now that I feel better, and I have over-come my writer's block (I had writer's block for the first chapters because I didn't know how to start this story), expect to see longer, longer, and much longer chapters!
Bet you guys didn't see that coming... huh?
I might make this fanfic, like "Kill Bill". Yet, I have to SEE "Kill Bill" 1+2 before.
Any Ideas are welcome. Yes... For now the story is PaulXSuze... but after a while... we it might be SuzeXJesse! Just stay tuned.
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And Happy reading...
Julie