~ "I wanna tell you why I kissed you at Camille's party." Kendall said while taking a deep breath.

"Okay, shoot, you know I won't judge you." Logan replied, small smile on his face.

"Well the thing is…" Kendall paused, he didn't know how to break it to Logan.

"Just take your time, Kendall."

"Yeah well, you know how people always talk about fireworks whenever they kiss the one?" Logan nodded. "I just, wanted to know what I'd feel by you."

"What did you feel?"

"A lot."

"Oh. Like what?"

"Promise me this won't change anything, okay? We're still best friends."

"Kendall, you know I wouldn't just walk away from you!"

"Okay so, I wanted to kiss you to know what it would be like, not that I had feelings for you or something."

"I believe you."

"But then… I felt so much. It took me a while to figure everything out, that's why I'm only talking about this now. I just didn't know what was going on for a while."

"What is it that you're feeling now, something about me?" Kendall nodded, then looked at the ground.

"I said that I'm gonna make you want me. I said that for fun, to maybe get a flirty friendship with you. That was just something I really needed. But now…"

"…Now?"

"Now I wanna make you want me because I want you…" He looked back up in Logan's eyes.

"Oh Kendall…"

"I know, you're straight." Kendall said quickly. "I just, didn't want to keep this from you. No secrets."

"No, Kendall, I'm so glad you told me."

"Huh?"

"Really. I'm so glad I wasn't the only one who felt a million things in that kiss."

"Where are you going with this, Logan?"

"That even though I'm straight, I can't deny that our kiss, was the best kiss I ever had."

"I am of course an amazing kisser." Kendall said cockily. Logan chuckled.

"You are, actually. So amazing that I wanna do it again."

"What?"

"You heard me. I wanna kiss you."

"Does that mean you're a little gay?"

"If wanting to kiss a hot guy makes me gay, then yes."

"Your mom will be so happy, you know."

"I don't wanna think about my mom right now." Logan took a step closer to Kendall.

"But I don't understand Logan, do you maybe, like me back?"

"Oh Kendall dear, you're so silly sometimes." He took another step.

"Logan, I need you to be serious about this."

"Don't you know I'm always serious. I don't play with emotions." Step.

"So you really wanna-"

"I really wanna kiss you." He took one final step so that they were flush against each other.

Before Kendall got the chance to say something else, Logan's lips were on his. He felt the other's lips moving against his and he didn't waste another minute, he kissed back. Logan's hands moved over Kendall's side upwards, to his shoulders. He kept them there for a while before continuing the journey. He wrapped his arms around Kendall's neck, keeping him close. Kendall finally relaxed in the kiss and let his hands trail downwards. He caressed Logan's hips before he let his hands settle on Logan's butt, squeezing lightly. In response, Logan moaned which made him deepen the kiss. Kendall tried to pull Logan closer but it was impossible. Logan tangled one hand in Kendall's hair, tugging hard. Kendall bit Logan's lip-

Kendall shot up in his bed. He looked at the surroundings. He was in his room, and there was no Logan. He sat on the edge of his bed and let his head fall in his hands. He was so screwed.

The party at Camille's place took place almost a month ago, and ever since he'd occasionally have dreams like this. He'd tell Logan about the feelings he had for him, and Logan would always feel the same way. This was the first time something else happened though; usually Kendall would wake up right after the big confession. Sometimes, he didn't even get Logan's reaction. All the dreams drove him crazy.

Kendall cursed himself for developing feelings for his best friend; the only friend he had in the last three years. If he hadn't kissed him, none of this would have happened. He would still only think of Logan of the most amazing friend in the whole world. But now he wanted so much more.

So Kendall kept flirting with Logan, trying not to act different. He tried his best not to stare any longer in those big brown eyes than he already did. He tried to keep his hands off Logan as much as possible, so Logan wouldn't be able to tell the difference. It was hard, but necessary. Logan was straight, and even if he weren't, he'd never go for Kendall. They were friends, and that's it. And Kendall needed the friendship more than anything.

The sound of Kendall's ringtone brought him out of his thoughts. He grabbed it from somewhere under his pillow and looked at the caller ID. Camille. He reluctantly answered.

"Hey Camille."

"Hey lil cousin. You sound very awake!"

"I just woke up… Bad dream."

"Aw did my little baby boy have a nightmare?"

"Camille, remember that I'm older than you."

"Yes but only by a few days and you know that girls are always more mature."

"So why did you call?"

"I've wanted to call you since the party. But I didn't have any time before."

"Or you just forgot…"

"…you know how busy my acting schedule is!"

"Sure it is. So where did you call for again?"

"What's going on between you and that Logan guy." Kendall paled.

"Nothing, like I said, we're just friends."

"Yeah and then he turned into a tomato, so what's going on?"

"Wait- he blushed when I said that?"

"He blushed when you said he'd be your boyfriend later on."

"Really?"

"Yes, Kendall, really. Now tell me!"

"Nothing is going on between us! We just made a bet. I'm gonna make him want me."

"Ah, so you want him."

"…"

"Kendall has a crush!" Camille sang.

"I didn't at the time, just now I do."

"I'd love to help you out baby bro, but I've got to go. See ya later."

"But Camille-" Kendall groaned in frustration. He loved Camille a lot, but she could be very annoying when he needed her. He threw his phone back on his bed and stood up. He was gonna meet up with Logan and he had to get ready.

xxx

"You and Logan have been hanging out a lot. I'm so happy you made such a good friend!" Kendall was sitting at the dinner table with his mom, shoving his breakfast down his throat. He was already running late.

"Mom, please don't start this." The last he wanted right now was a deep conversation with his mom about Logan. She'd see right through him and know about his crush immediately.

"Fine. Not today." His mom smiled sweetly at him.

"Yeah well I'm leaving." He didn't even finish eating. He'd grab some food with Logan if he was that hungry. He hurried out of the house, on his way to the park once again. It was like their second place. They loved strolling around there, helping each other with whatever problem they had. They mostly talked about how Kendall hated his school and how Logan's mom made him go mental.

Kendall arrived and saw Logan sitting where he'd always sit. As soon Logan spotted Kendall, he'd stand up and start walking; knowing Kendall would catch up with him.

"Hey, you started walking away faster!" Kendall said as he got to Logan.

"I'm improving your stamina, be happy with it." Logan said smirking.

"But now I'm tired. You should carry me." Kendall made an attempt to jump on Logan's back, but Logan fought him off.

"Kendall, you're almost a grown-up man; I think you can walk yourself."

"I'll carry you then." Before Logan could answer he was lifted in the air. Kendall had picked him up bridal style. Logan crossed his arms and pouted.

"Really Kendall?" Kendall looked down at Logan. He saw how the boy's lips stuck out and all he wanted to do was kiss them. He quickly shook his head and looked at the path again.

"Just enjoy the ride, my lady."

"The ride? What a fabulous choice of words." Kendall chuckled.

"And you tell me I've got a dirty mind. You're just as bad."

"You brainwashed me."

"It's all my fault hmm?" Kendall enjoyed the fact that Logan made no attempts to escape out of his arms. He just stayed there. Kendall could feel his body heat; he never wanted to let go.

"Are you gonna carry me all day?"

"You don't seem to mind."

"You know, you kinda treat me like a girl sometimes."

"That's cause I'm the man in the relationship."

"You did not just say that!" Logan squirmed, trying to get out of Kendall's hold, but Kendall wouldn't let him. "Can you let me go now?"

"No you're warm."

"Did you really just imply you want to cuddle?" Kendall stopped walking.

"No. Though you're very cuddly." Kendall rest his head on Logan's for demonstration. Logan jerked his head away and finally jumped out of Kendall's arms.

"Kendall sometimes you just gotta listen to me okay?" Kendall frowned.

"What do you mean."

"I mean that you're a great friend, and I love to hang with you but sometimes you just need to stop with your damn flirting!" Logan wasn't yelling at Kendall, but he'd never used that harsh tone before.

"I thought you didn't mind."

"Sometimes I do, cause then you just don't know when to stop." Kendall could feel tears welling up in his eyes. He didn't know where they came from, but he didn't want to let them flow so he bit his lip. Suddenly, everything that was bottled up inside Kendall came out.

"I'm sorry, okay? You act like it's all so hard for you, having a gay guy hitting on you the whole time. But do you know how hard it is to be gay? I never meant to annoy you or something. Just- before I met you, everyone I was friends with ran away from me when I came out. The only friend I had for a while was my sister. No not just for a while, for a whole three years. And then, then there was you. You were… special. You treated me as a real person. It may have started out as a joke, but I ended up really liking you, way more than I should. And I… It wasn't a game anymore. I kept hitting on you because I like you. Reallylike you…" Kendall's eyes widened when he realized what he just confessed. He backed away slowly. "Shit, okay, I must've scared you away now. I'll leave." He turned around and walked away.

"No wait, Kendall! Come back!" But it was too late. Logan felt like the biggest asshole on the planet. He had no idea of Kendall's feelings. He always wondered why Kendall had kissed him, but he didn't really care. Kendall said he needed to do that, and he accepted that. It wasn't like Logan hated the kiss either. Sure it was weird, and not expected, and he was drunk. But in some way, he liked it.

He liked it. He liked kissing Kendall. He liked Kendall's lips pressed against his. He liked it that Kendall wanted to carry him. He liked being in Kendall's arms. He liked the idea of cuddling with Kendall. He liked how Kendall would inappropriately touch him. He liked Kendall. He had a crush on his best friend, who just walked away on the verge of tears.

He had to fix this, he had to fix Kendall. He just didn't have a clue where to start.

A/N: Yeah there was a little delay- personal issues. I don't really know what this chapter is. It showed you Kendall's side of things, and still Logan's side as well. Was it okay? Cause I'm not sure.