Hate me, I'm a horrible updater... Sh*t been happening, and so I try to edit this, not much editing though...

"Alfie look! Snow!" The little blond girl shook her sluggish brother as she rushed to the bedroom window. Outside there were snowflakes silently falling Everything was coated in a blanket of white. The streets filled with cracks and dirt seemed to have been pure in way. "Wow! I've never seen snow before! Its so pretty!"

Her amethyst eyes glittered in awe; it was her first time in years seeing snow. The last time she encountered snow was when she was only an infant of six months. To her it seemed like a fantasy land, the ground shimmered once the clouds parted and the air was chilly through the window. She looked back at Alfred hoping he would join her.

Her brother did not move. She observed him. Remembering what her aunt gave him. Recalling this evening's events Madeline tilted her head getting a better view at Alfred's dazed face. Her aunt was fed up with Alfred's constant talking and running around everywhere, she gave him something to eat that was supposed to make him calm down. It was not a great sight to watch her twin consume something with a substance like that. "This will happen to you if you don't behave."

Snow has fallen the night before. That morning the sky refused to stop beaming blue, there were hardly any clouds, but the air was still bitter cold. Madeline was impatient for her 4th hour to end. She fiddled with the hem of her black skirt. Another ten minutes. Why can't time move faster?

Madeline felt a tap on her should. Slowly turning her head, there was another girl behind her. She had dirty blonde hair, and deep blue eyes, almost violet, they were hypnotizing. Then she spoke. "You look like a cadaver mon cher, " Her comment was beautifully spoken with a French accent but it was quiet rude. "Take it easy on the *candy sweetie."

She heard the French girl and others unknown, giggle. Do I really look that bad? By the ways, I quit that stuff long ago. Maybe it's best to ignore. She'll forget me at any moment. Sighing Madeline pulled out a medium size diary.

-oOo-

It's been a while since I've written in my diary. And I'm writing now. Good News! The new life at Hetalia Academy is alright. I made a few friends. Their names are Sakura; Wang Yao, she prefers Yao; and Alice. They're all so nice, well Yao and Alice have short fuses, but I don't mind, it's great to watch them have 'personality'. For some reason this past first week I feel like I'm being watched. It's really scary. Whenever I looked around me I would see a head or shoulder duck behind whatever corner. Don't worry though, Alfred insisted that I keep his '*knuckledusters'.

Now time for the Bad News. I haven't been eating a lot lately. Those dreams of my childhood still scare me. It hurts still when I come across any type of food. I fear that, that vile woman, would come and force me to drink *ipecac. It's complicated. I'll tell Alfie today. Sincerely Madeline Williams ^-^

She signed her name with swirls and a happy face.

-oOo-

The lunch bell rang obnoxiously waking up the loafers. Slowly students shuffled out the room as Madeline anxiously waited for everyone to file out of the classroom. No one saw her as she walked close to the wall and would occasionally bump into someone. Sakura or Alice were not standing by the stairs like usual. Maybe still coming from class? Oh there's Alfie.

"Hello Alfred." Madeline walked up behind her brother, scaring him. He dropped his burger in the process.

"Holy shhhhiiiiiurrrrks…" Alfred nearly cursed when his twin popped out of nowhere. "Maddie! Whats up? You're like a ghost that haunts the halls. We should prank some people later. Just jump at them with a BOO!"

"I need to talk to you." She ignored his plotting. Tugging at his uniform jacket, she led him outside to a snow covered bench. Both sat down instantly. The wood was wet beneath their rumps, and the cold air nipped at their faces.

"Is everything alright Maddie?" Her twin's voice was full of concern. "No guy has touched or harassed you yet?"

"No. I-its something else. Um. I really d-didn't want to bother you, but I thought you had to know. I-I" Madeline stuttering increased. Her heart started to beat rapidly. She feared that her brother would get upset. Her hand started to noticeably shake.

"When was the last time you ate?" Somehow he was able to read her mind. With the question unbearable to answer she burst into tears. Hiding her face in her tiny hands Madeline cried. Her brother started to comfort her. Hugging her, and rubbing circles on her back, he kept his mouth shut until her tears dwindled. "Maddie, you have to eat."

Nodding her head, Alfred got up tossing his bomber jacket on her shoulders. He loudly said he would be back with some 'food'. Madeline sat on the damp bench alone. She gazed at her boots; they were entombed with a few inches of dirty slush. There was a chilly breeze that passed by, she zipped up the leather coat.

"E-excuse me miss, May I sit next to you?" The blonde girl was startled. She quickly looked up at a boy with shoulder length brown hair. There was a nervous look on his face, and had an awkward smile. Examining the strange boy for any threats, he passed as 'Too Pleasant to be Any Threat'. Wiping her puffy eyes Madeline nodded, and then went back to staring at her feet. "My name is Toris Laurinaitis, we have the same geometry class."

"H-hello. I-I'm Madeline." She whispered as quiet as a whisper can go. Then awkward silence.

"Well, um, what are doing out here alone? D-do you enjoy snow?" Toris could not think of anything to ask the shy girl. He came up with anything. "The weather is not bad today."

"Um, I'm waiting for my brother. And snow is okay, sometimes." Madeline began to wonder about Toris. "Uh, I don't mean to be rude, but where are you from?"

Toris smiled. He was sort of getting through to her. "I'm from Lithuania. And may I ask where you are from Madeline?"

"Oh, uh, Canada." The conversation started out slow. Then both shy teens began to get comfortable enough to make simple jokes. And of course Alfred is off somewhere, taking FOREVER!

"So I uh was wondering, who is your brother exactly?" Toris was sure Madeline resembled someone.

"It's Alfred Jones. We're twins." For the first time, it was Alfred who was forgotten. She giggled at the thought of it.

"Ah yes, I remember now. Heh. Your twin enjoys talking."

"Yes, sometimes it gets pretty frustrating when all he talks about is Captain America, and Hamburgers. I think he's more connected to his American side, than Canadian." It was true. Their father was American, and their Mother was Canadian. And each twin inherited either the hyperactive laugh or modest smile.

"HEY BACK OFF! I WILL BREAK YOU IN HALF!" Toris jumped up slipping in the slushy snow. Alfred ran towards the bench with his fist waving and a bag with a fast food logo on it.

"I'm sorry Toris, but I think you should start running." She gave him a small smile, he took off, before doing so, he waved goodbye. Madeline smiled wider. At least some guys are not greedy.

"That bastard didn't hurt you didn't he? If he did then I will get an envelope and-" Before Alfred could finish his envelope threat Madeline threw his bomber jacket over his blonde head.

"I'm fine Alfred. We only have three minutes of lunch left." Madeline smiled.

Digging in his fast food paper bag, he pulled out large fries and a burger. Accepting the food, she watched Alfred gouge himself with four burgers at once. It was interesting to Madeline that her brother eats like he is a bottomless pit. She took small bites of the greasy burger, and ate half the fries. The security came around telling everyone to get to class.

"Okay, well eat all of that, and I will see you after school. Remember, meet next-"

"To the south doors. I got it. See you later." The twins split ways. Madeline walked half way to class. She looked down at the greasy food. Disgusted she tossed them on the floor and kicked them into an occupied classroom, by mistake. Making a dash to the nearest restroom, she was out of breath. The mirrors cascaded over the white sinks. The aroma of perfume filled the powder room's air.

Madeline's reflection was nearly unbearable to look at. It looks as if she has not slept in days. Her amethyst eyes no longer shimmered, it was bleak. The healthy pale skin was now paler, that it looks if it could tear like paper. Disgusted with herself, Madeline dashed into a stall. The sounds of coughing and spitting echoed in the empty restroom. She tried to catch her breath. Her throat stung, leaving a nasty slimy feeling at the back of her throat. Just standing, tears would no longer drip. It was the familiar pain. She slowly rolled up the uniform sleeves. Her wrists had old scabs, her wrists had pink scars, her wrists were begging for new scars. "And I'll be okay."

Making way from the water fountain a strong grip grabbed his collar. "Hello Toris" It was the familiar thick accent. Toris had no memories on how he met his bipolar friend or so called friend. The earliest memory would be in Junior High and they were gym partners. But before then the taller of the two has always been predatory on his ass.

"You have my information, da?" His voice dripped bitter sweet.

"Y-yes" Toris tried to pry off the other's fingers.

"Good. Let's go."

Already up the stairs to the roof Toris did his usual routine pleading. "I have to go to class" The taller student kicked the door open like it was nothing. Fear started to overtake his mind. "Please, I really should go to class."

Forcefully shoving his companion down on the hard surface he smiled widened as the fallen boy scrapped his face. Speaking in his native tongue he knew that the Lithuanian understood, as well as spoke. "Tell me now."

In a sitting position Toris began. "Aaah well. I'm sure you know her name. A-and I found out that um that guy who talks too much, i-is her twin." Toris looked up see his smiling expression unchanged. Continuing. "And, she's from Canada."

"From Canada?" Putting on his thinking cap he turned on his heel and stood away from Toris.

"Y-yes, she's a really nice friend" The word friend slipped out. Twisting around the taller student snapped his eyes violet back down the trembling Lithuanian. His eyes turned into a darker shade.

"Did I say you could become friends?" Grabbing the frightened boy's neck he put his head over first. Toris could see across the street. There was no one out to notice and of course this was just for fun's sake. "You know I can make this look like a suicide"

He felt something hit his back. Pissed as ever he pulled out his faucet pipe ready to maul anyone who interfered, but there was no one. He set his weapon back into his coat then turned his attention back to the trembling body.

With a sadistic smile he lifted Toris ready to give him the scare of his life. He noticed his victim was looking at something. Or someone. In an instant the purple eyed pillager turned his head only to meet lead. He did not see who hit him.

Using one eye to scan the area he spotted his victim getting away. Somehow he didn't see the other person. Like any predator would do in slasher films he followed the fleeing victim down the empty halls until the release bell rung. Still no sign of his attacker nor his faucet pipe. Once in his reach, Toris was rescued by the loud American, Alfred. Still no sign of his attacker.

Skipping the rest of her classes she found false sanctuary on the roof of the Academy. The view was perfect in the winter. Buildings camouflaged by snow and in the distance there were clouds building up. It'll snow later I bet. She stood close to the edge looking down at the concrete Earth below. Tracing her fingers over the fresh slices she smiles silently. The lines tingled with every touch and the feeling of relief soothed her. The grumble in her belly silenced after agonizing minutes spent gagging in the restroom earlier.

Her jacket was not thick enough for the winter air as the breeze picked up a bit. The bitter draft slapped against her chapped face as she sighed. Puffs of breath escaped. All she had to do was take one more step. The paranoia would end. The aching would go away. The greedy people would go away. Just one more step and it's all over. It'll be over.

She zipped up her red maple leaf jacket then gripped the vomit stained sleeves. Just one step. She made her decision. Clenching her eyes shut she held her breath, lifting her right foot. "I'm sorry Alfred"

"I have to go to class!" Madeline pulled back when a faint voice disrupted her resolution. It was getting closer. The roof door swung open revealing two students. She ducked behind an electrical box. "Please, I really should go to class."

Toris? What's he doing up here? Who is that? Madeline watched Toris' attempts to pull away from the taller person, only to find it pointless. The companion was a lot taller than the Lithuanian and had silver hair with a light tint of blonde. The Canadian could barely make out the rest of his features. Where's my glasses? Ah here they are! What are they saying? Is that Russian I'm hearing? What are they doing!?

She watched with curious eyes as the boy she met earlier looked if he were ready to pass out, and the taller guy looked ready to punch him. The taller of the two males started talking in a furious tone. Toris seemed to be struggling with the grip. Madeline eyes widen when as Toris was held close to the edge. Maybe I should do something. What would Alfred do? Of course, *Ding-Dong Ditch.

After a brief moment of thinking over the plan she knew she had to do it, no matter the consequences. Oh crapp, I'm actually going through with this. Oh well, it could be worse….. Yeaaah this is bad.

"H-hey, stop it." Curse my whispering. Okay maybe a little louder. "Please leave him alone!" Knocking over a soda can, she picked it up and tossed it to the attacker's back, he whipped his head around scanning the area. Unsure who threw the can he went turned his attention back to the frightened Lithuanian. Curse my invisibility. A short faucet pipe fell from the student's jacket unnoticed. Ah ha! Taking cautious steps she hoped her invisibility will last much longer. Quietly picking up the cold rusted pipe she glanced up. Toris finally noticed her. His blue eyes were pleading the Canadian not to do anything. Madeline swung with all her might when the tall student spun his head around.

"Ah!" He stumbled sideways, releasing his victim. Madeline got him good in the right eye.

With fast reflexes Madeline grabbed Toris before he went over the edge. She pulled him to his feet then ran to the exit. Toris was out of breath from being choked, he could barely keep up with the nimble Canadian. Toris' attacker was hot on their trail. Entering the sophomore hall the dismissal bell rung, Students started shuffling out of class, not noticing Madeline and her injured friend.

"Alfred!" Madeline spotted her twin walking with a couple of friends.

Hearing his name called by a familiar whisper, he turned around with a big smile. Only it turned to a frown when noticing what was going on. "Oh crap! Maddie! DON'T WORRY THE HERO WILL RESCUE YOU!"

In an instant Alfred had the out of breath Lithuanian over his shoulder and grabbed his twin then dashing off. "I'll kick your ass later Commie!"

So Russian? Madeline looked back. I guess Russian…

Madeline forgot she had the Russian's faucet pipe in hand.

The (*) stuff:

Candy- well candy does not mean sweets. Candy means drugs. Ecstasy or pill popping. In this one it means pill popping.

Knucklebusters- Brass Knuckles of course.

Ipecac- It's a type of medicine that makes you vomits. Like, if you accidently swallow some sort of poisonous thing then it's used for that particular reason.

Ding-Dong Ditch- It's funny cause my friends call that Ding-Dong Ditch. Like, if your friend is getting their ass kicked, then you jump in kicking ass and saving theirs, and finally running like hell. Ding-Dong Ditch. Ha, it's fun attempts! Toris is in the perfect situation for an attempt.

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