Torn Between Two Lovers

By: Catwomen88

*Disclaimer: I do not own degasser in anyway…I am just using the characters to write a fan fiction

*Authors Note: This is my first degassi fic…so bare with me please. This story does not follow the season…I mean some of the things from Season eight have happened, but this is my own story…. that I created…I hope you like it…. it's basically for all the Jemma/Semma fans…. basically a fight between Jay and Sean for Emma….

Chapter Four: One month later…

A month had flown by and things were more complicated then ever. Sean had come home. He was injured and was in the hospital right now. He was going to be okay. Emma had gone to visit him everyday. So had Jay, but they went at different times. Hoping not to run into each other. Emma decided to take a walk. She went to a playground at the ravine and sat on a swing. She moved on it slowly just thinking back.

Flashback: Three weeks ago

Jay was walking into his apartment after work only to find Emma in his kitchen. "I forgot I gave you a key. How drunk was I when I did that Blaze…." Jay asked with a smirk as he sat his stuff down. He eyed her, "What are you doing?"

Emma smiled and turned to look at Jay, "I did some shopping. Your cabinets need food and I bought my self some things as well. No need to thank me."

Jay snorted, "Thank you…I do not remember asking you to take care of me. I remember asking you to stop bothering me." Jay went into the bathroom to clean up. He took a quick shower and then got dressed. He walked back out and sat on the couch.

Emma was eating and pushed a plate of food at him, "I am so not bothering you and you know it. Besides you like my company now. Admit it…I am different then you thought."

Jay ate his food for a few moments without saying a word, "Okay…sure…if that's what you need to hear." Jay did enjoy having her around. They had been hanging out for a week. It was actually not so bad. Jay hated to think that but it was true.

When they finished the food Emma took the dishes and put them in the dishwasher. She started to clean up her mess. Then she sat back down on the couch, "Movie?"

Jay got up without a word and put in a scary movie. He turned the light down low. This was a routine for them. Hanging and watching a movie. Jay sat back on the couch as the movie started. About thirty minutes into the movie a scary part came up and Emma practically jumped into Jay's lap. He could not help but smile.

"Okay next time I clarify no scary movies." She hide her face in his chest. Jay smelled that sweet vanilla as he lightly stroked her hair.

"You're a big scaredy cat for a girl. Then again that does not surprise me Blaze." Jay remarked as she hide.

Emma hit his chest, "Hello I am a girl. Just because I am not like Alex or Mel does not mean a thing. A normal girl would be scared of a man in a mask coming after someone with a huge ax."

Jay laughed, "Knife…"

"What?" Emma asked.

Jay smiled, "It's a big knife, and if you were like them you would not be on my lap now would you." Jay could not help but flirt. He looked at Emma's scared face and it got to his heart. He could now see why Sean was crazy about this girl. Their faces had been mere inches apart before but this time the lips touch. All the sexual build up came out in one kiss.

End flashback

Emma was remembering the first kiss while on the swings as Jay was walking in the direction toward Emma remembering more then that kiss.

Flashback: One week Ago

"This is so wrong." Emma said as she was on Jay's lap kissing on his couch. She just could not stop. Something about making out with Jay given the history and all was hot. Emma knew it was wrong. She could not help it. This newfound passion she had for this man. This was not the person she knew. Jay had been sweet, charming, smooth, and something about the way they fought was so hot.

Jay smiled as his hands ran up her back, "What's so wrong Blaze…from my point of view it seems okay." He pulled her lips back to his and he slide his tongue into her mouth.

Jay was different then Sean. Sean was gentle and nice, but Jay…. he just took it. Sean asked for permission to kiss and Jay would just pushed her against the wall and kissed her. They had been doing that a lot for the past two weeks. Emma had gone somewhat far with Jay. Like what happened in the van far. She loved every minute of it.

Emma laughed, "Its wrong…. isn't there a bro code or something. I mean you are Manny's ex and she warned me about you. I told her about this and Manny told me I have been warned. Last time you told Sean about us you got punched."

Jay shook his head, "Do you want to stop? If so then I will never say a word to Sean." Jay's mood turned sour at the idea of Sean coming home at the end of the week.

Emma bit her lower lip. Then she kissed Jay, "No…. don't stop." She kissed him with a passion she did not have for Sean. Then again, she had not seen Sean in over a year. Not since, he visited during her senior year. She liked this too much to stop. And they did not stop. Clothes were quickly shed and Jay picked Emma up and deposited her on his bed. That night their bodies became one. It was filled with fire; passion and roughness Sean would not dare use.

End Flashback

Jay saw Emma in the distance. He walked over and smiled, "Sean got released today. He is at my place." Jay sat next to her on the other swing, "You're avoiding me."

Emma looked at him, "Sean came home hurt. He needs me and I slept with his best friend. I know he went home. I can't face him."

"Is what we did that bad? Is it our fault if we like each other?" Jay pointed out.

Emma sighed, "I know I have been avoiding you. Sorry and no, I do not regret what I did. I mean…. it was amazing, but Sean is hurt. He can't take hearing about us now. Sean will be pissed. He will kill you…."

Jay shook his head, "Sean is a big boy. He needs to get over it. Look I want you and I will not say sorry for that, but if you are still hung up on Sean then fine." Jay stood up, "He is at my place if you need to see him. I am going to crash with a friend tonight." Jay walked away. He was pissed. Emma had gotten to him and he hated it. He hated how he fell for the vanilla smell and that innocent smile. Jay was damn frustrated.

"Jay…." Emma could kicked herself. She got up and decided to go see Sean. She did not know whom she wanted. Jay was…he was different. There was a side of Jay she had never seen before. Jay was different then she remembered in high school. She had totally misjudged him.

Emma knocked on the door as Sean answered. He was wearing jeans and a white tank top. "You are back and that's all you have to wear." Emma walked in and took her jacket off. "I see you are staying here…in the spare room." She turned to look at Sean.

Sean closed the door, "Well Jay offered. He had a second room and I need a place so. And as for my wardrobe I do not recall you complaining before." He walked over to Emma and brushed some hair out of her face, "I missed you Em. Seeing you in that hospital…I needed that."

Emma felt something. Not like what she felt with Jay. But something would always exist with Sean. They had a history…but the question was what did she have with Jay…was it a one time thing or was it more…. Emma had no idea. "Sean…I…." Emma had no words to say. He had been injured…in a war…how could she say anything…

To Be Continued…..