AN: I use 'HE' when talking about the person who killed her husband because a) I was sensitive for what is about to be read, b) I was to lazy to find a name and c) because I didn't want people to tell me the name is wrong or doesn't make sense. Anyway early warnings mentions of unwanted sex, but she let it happened not that she was raped. It was all to get a dragon ball away so she could wish Vegeta back for Bulma and Trunks.
About an hour later, they all started to hear whimpers from Goku's room. They all stood up and hurried towards the room. The opened the door to find Goku kicking and screaming. Vegeta not knowing what to do quickly ran to her and held her still. ChiChi knew what they needed but she didn't have some. "Mint. We need mint to calm her, it helps but I don't have any." Bulma looked at her and said "Then we find some. Vegeta keep her here until we return." And with that they left them alone.
Goku had woken up as soon as they left. In utter shock she saw Vegeta towering over her. "Get off me!" And she shoves him down to the floor. "Kakorat, calm down. You need to get better, Bulma and ChiChi have already gone to get help." Goku tried to calm herself, but she was so angry. Angry that she loved Vegeta. Angry that the nightmares came back. Angry that she could do nothing for the ones she loved.
"Karorat, you need to get better soon, who else am I going to spar with?!" That came out a little more selfish than intended. And that got Goku completely mad. "Is that all you are worried about?! All you ever care about?! Advancing to higher levels of Saiyan! You don't know half of what I've gone through and yet all you revolve around is surpassing me!" That left Vegeta shocked and silent. 'Is that all she sees?' He thought slightly heartbroken.
Taking a deep, deep breath and sighing she looks out through the window and sings. "Have you ever fed a lover, with just your hands? Closed your eyes and trusted; just trusted." She looks at Vegeta, "Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air? Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, 'I just don't care'?
She remembers when Vegeta died; how she search nonstop for those dragon balls to wish him back. Not for her sake; she could never be that selfish, but for his son's and his mate's sake. Piccolo was helping her and so was Krillen. It was Gohan who knew where the last ball was. He dreaded telling her, because he knew what she planned on doing. Goku had told Bulma, ChiChi, Piccolo and Krillen of her plan. None of them liked it, but she had not choice.
Remembering she sang "It's only half past the point of no return. The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn. The thunder before the lightning, and the breathe before the praise. Have you ever felt this way?"
She bid farewell to her family and friends; and off to sell her soul to the thing that killed her husband. Five years she had spent with that "man", doing what he had always wanted her to do; be his. Rough hands on her, unable to see places she had loved to go to. And even having to bear a broken, beaten heart just to bring back the man who could love no one else.
She remembers sitting by the phone, expecting a phone call from anyone, knowing it would never come. That was the first years of living with him. She hated it. But it kept her sain. Years felts like lifetimes. "Have you ever hated yourself for waiting at the phone? Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove, you're not alone."
She can recall the day she finally snapped. He had made a remark about her late husband and Vegeta. She went crazy, that she attacked without mercy. It was all gone by that point. A punch, powerful enough to break boulders. A kick strong enough to break the Earth in half. And a blast so great, it would make the sun feel inadequate.
While she was remembering again; Vegeta had listen, and watched as she cried her soul out. He didn't dare interrupt her, not with the look of disgust spread on her features.
As soon as the fight was over, she had grabbed to last dragon ball and whispered a deadly warning to the beast. "If I EVER see your face again, I will not hesitate to kill you on site, with my bare hands." And with that, she had left that prison for home. Soon after the crying, the pain, and rejoicing was said and done, they had wished Vegeta back.
Sadly Vegeta believes it was Bulma who wished him back. Why? Because as soon as the wish was made, Goku left to her secret garden.