Painful Existence
Everything in italics are Harrys thoughts
Note at the end is important XD Sorry for the wait.
WARNINGS:
Slash, Gore, Cannibalism, Torture, Mature themes, and maybe Mpreg
Summery:
Harry was affected by the killing curse. He is bloodthirsty and lives to kill. Two of his older siblings are thought to be The-Twins-who-lived. The other one was pampered by his mother (Lily and James are alive the twins couldn't be raised by them because of Death eater attacks.) Can a lover and friends help Harry get his life back or at least love him enough to live with how he is. And will he destroy Voldemort or join him.
Disclaimer:
I don't own Harry Potter Or Naruto (I got some of the ideas for his character from Gaara) I only own the plot and any characters you don't recognize.
Reviews/answers
(AN this is how I will answer all reviews unless you only voted )
The first thing that popped into my mind you you wrote 'not finding any to
his taste"' about the owls, I couldn't help but think he meant eating taste.
And wow, Harry sure got to the kid who bought Hedwig pretty quick. Will
someone be noticeably absent from Hogwarts this coming year? As for
Elizabeth... What can I say. After the first encounter I almost want to join
Harry in the fantasizing. Great chapter. Very much looking forward to more.
Ciao XP
Loony
Hey Loony
Yah well first I'm going to thank-you for reviewing SOME people seem to be having problems with it, and you where the first to do so, so I thank-you (as much as someone this screwed up can XD.) Anyway, Yes a child will be missing… noticeably… kinda (for Slytherins). As for Elizabeth well get used to hating someone and fantasizing about a fictional charicters demise.
I look forward to answering your next review XD
HF
I'm really getting into this. Hope you update soon.
Hi ams71080
Glad you are getting into this I hope I update soon too XD you should vote
HF
I vote (50 times) for snape, please, they are just so cute!! No Draco and
Harry because Draco's such a little girl no matter how dark and retarded his
father is. No Cedric because the dead should stay dead even if he hasn't died
yet. PLUS only Snape knows how good tourture feels... :D
OR Luce because he's pretty dark and then Draco could be the slightly
frighted best friend... :D
Anyways, I vote for Snape and Luce.
Also, Remus can go ** himself becasue he just...doesn't belong with anyone
(sry but true) and Sirius should go with Luce if he's not with Harry. Sirius
topping Luce is like the best thing that can ever happen (and you better write
lemon for that)... :D
Btw, I love you!! :3
Update soon!! :D
You don't have to listen to my rambling by the way...just bored because no
one else is updating... :P
Hello SweatDrop
Wow… ok first off your review is probably one of the longest I have gotten so far XD NICE!!!! It made me happyful :P Secondly and unfortunately you are un able to vote on some one 50 times in one chapter you can however vote for more then one person/ group each chapter now your mini rant on Draco… Duly noted. Also you don't have to worry about Cedric living I have some how shall we say… special plans for our precious Diggory *smirks*. I do like your idea about Harry/ Luc with Draco in his awkward little corner. The stuff about Remus and Sirius has also been noted. As for your Rambling feel free to do so any time.
HF
Okay, nice to know you'll be updating soon.
Now, although I'm not really into all the gay stuff, I'm going to vote on
harry's pairing. Personally, I think Draco and Tommy boy are overdone, and it
generally ruins the plot of a story, though there are exeptions. Also, it's
worth noting here that Voldemort knew the prophecy, and he knows who it is he
tried to kill. And he isn't stupid- if you're told 'This is the only guy who
can kill you' then that's the FIRST guy NOT to sleep with. Especially if
you're a psychotic megalomaniac.
As far as draco goes... In my opinion, he's a matchup only a demented fangirl
would have dreamed up. Even though in the universe your fic is coming from H/D
is plausable, I wouldn't recomend it... Though that might be personal bias.
:HARRY/DRACO should be BURNED! Burned with FIRE!:
So, on to the plausable gay pairings... Blaise Zabini, maybe? He's so
uncharacterized in cannon that some people actually think that he's a she.
Which HE isn't, name aside. Don't believe me, look it up.
Another possibility is Neville. With all the other stuff screwed around with,
it'd be easy to turn him dark. Of course, that would require a motive, and the
most easily found one for him is revenge against Moldyshorts. Which would, of
course, eliminate Voldie from the 'Possible friends/allies' list, if it wasn't
already.
Now, as for the other two pairings... Gred/Forge is unusual, and I think that
is interesting. On the other hand, as I prefer females, I request humbly that
you have some magickal accident turn them female. Or have them born female,
but that doesn't have nearly the drama or humor value.
Sirius and Lupin should be for him- I'm sure Sirius had stranger, more
twisted relatives [he is a Black, after all] and Lupin... Well, he's a
werewolf. No offence, but weres traditionally have strange urges and
appetites, even when it's not a full moon. Lupin could probably sympathize,
and would actually be the most likely to understand Harry.
As for their pairing.. Just throwing this out there, but turning EVERYONE gay
is a bad thing. So, I think that they should be straight. Sirius, I think,
would be one to flirt around, especially as he hasn't ever been to azkaban.
Lupin, on the other hand, would be his shy buddy that he's always getting
into... 'Interesting' situations.
You might notice that most of my suggestions include comic relief of one kind
or another. Don't worry, I'm not suggesting you lighten the fanfic up.
However, if you do it right, bouncing from dark to funny and back can be
awesome. And in dark fics like this, you need some humor, or the readers will
get so depressed they commit suicide via rusy nail file.
Hi Vindictus
Ok first if your not into slash why are you reading it? … 0.0 … Secondly on a personal level (AKA I'm cirious) What dose your name mean/ is there a story behind it or do you just like it? Any way ok your review had a lot of info/suggestions I'm going to start off by addressing your concern that everyone was going to be gay I assure you that will NOT happen in any story of mine. Now on to the other stuff. Since there's so much I am not going to mention it all. I do like your ideas for pairings and who not to pair. ( although I do think that having the only person that can kill you fall in love with you is a good idea not a bad one) I hope that if one of those pairings gets chosen you wont stop reading. I like your ideas and would like to hear more. As it seems you want some Fem/fem pairings I will add some ( I was going to anyway). I will also try to add some comic relief. ( I don't want the amount of people reading this story to drop no do I? XD)
HF
I think that Fenrir Grayback would be an interesting choice. They both like
to eat people... I see Harry and Voldemort and the bestest of friends. That
could be a more interesting storyline. I also like the Blaise Zabini choice.
As another reviewer said that character is wide open. Unlike the other
reviewer I love Harry and Draco together... so whatever. I also agree that in
slash stories writers tend to make everyone gay, which doesn't really work. I
like how Harry's siblings and the Dursley's completely ignore or enable
Harry's habits. It's amusing. I am curious about why the Potter's kept one
kid, got rid of three, but still acknowledge two of them. It doesn't make
much sense... Anyway this is an entertaining story and I look forward to
more!
HI semper paratis
K lets get started shall we. As I previously mentioned not all the pairings will be gay. Well I like your idea about Harry/voldie being BFF's (LOL). Nice ideas with the pairings by the way. As for the Potter sibs well, you will understand later why James and Lily hate Harry so much and love the other three ( you know you are the only one who actually asked that, please ask more questions like that)
HF
Like this weid little story.
Please don't make the abuse too graphic !
Lets the blood flow...
Take care
Nicol
Hi Nicol
First off the abuse may have graphic parts BUT I will be putting warnings before and after these scenes along with a quick summery at the end of the chap about what happened within them as I know some people find abuse upsetting. On to a happier note I'm glad you like it and yes Lets…
…Let the Blood Flow
HF
love how your going with this story and can't wait four your update. I want
the pairing to be Harry/LV/Lucius and Sev to be a father figure to Harry. Siri
and Remmy should be on Harry's side and should be with Sev.
Hello Youko'sgirl16
I'm glad you like where the story is headed and your ideas are interesting ( I Likes the pairings) I cannot wait to hear more.
An interesting and twisted story so far! I love it! My vote for threesome is
LV/LM/HP or LV/SS/HP. I couldn't make up my mind as I love Tom, Lucius,
Severus, and Harry. They are my fav characters. I look forward to seeing what
Harry does to Ollivander and how he handles that manipulative old fool
Dumbledork. *cackles manically* I look forward to reading more! ^__^
Hey mysta81
From the looks of it we could get along just fine. Our old Ollie friend unfortunately wont die for awile but it will be worth the wait. As for Dumbledork… Well… *grins evily* as for the pairings its really all up to the reviewers if you ask me for a threesome you will get a threesome if you ask me for a foursome you will get a foursome ect. If you want a herem you will get a herem ;)
Hope to hear from you again soon
HF
DarkSudi
I love your story so far As to your question here's my opinion
2)you might play with the thought of Tom Riddle,Harry.P and DM.
3)see above pairing.
4)Do you mean you will update it Mon. or Tue of this week or sometime in
August?,Are David and Dian going to stay with Harry all through out the
story?(Please say Yes)
6)Does that mean if you decide to go with Harry and say someone from
Grinffindor that they will be evil?
7)What will happen when he sixteen?
8)Understandable but will there be at least a little smut.
9)Don't be afraid to put some graphic scene in but please don't detail every
little thing.
10/10,1/2)Yes even evil needs a little support, I thing Sirius and Remus
should be together maybe with Snape in the middle.
11)You've have excellent taste, Gred and Forge together.
You got this in just before I put up the next chap good for you!!!! XD. Anyways I will now answer your questions…. #1
I think HP/TM/DM would certainly be appropriate XD. #2 I am updating now 0.0 #3 yes Harrys sibs will stay with him although I am planning on killing one off. #4 If the person Harry is with could be Godric bloody Gryffindor and he would be evil (not that Harry is going to be with Godric who is obviously madly in love with Salazar…XD) #5 Smut will happen (YAY) among some other things but you will have to wait and see. #6 I will write Smut!!! Don't you worry. #7 I won't detail every little thing cause it bugs the hell out of me when authors do that #8 you seem to like Threesomes…0.0… I do too XD. #9 Twincest is a must in messed up stories XD #10 there is no #10 but, well the number amuses me. Hope you review again.
HF
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Harry scowled as he was told to sit on one of the plush seats. He wouldn't have if David hadn't pulled him down. Oh that boy was so lucky that he actually almost liked him. And no, he was not in denial about actually caring about his brother he was just… you know what screw it that mother fucker was so gonna die… tomorrow yah that's right tomorrow at… three o'clock. Bloody clock he hated clocks, and socks and docks and locks and pocks what was a pock anyway? He would have to ask his brother whom he didn't care about … tomorrow…before he killed him.
The silence was getting annoying Harry glanced around; everyone was looking at him as if he was expected to speak. Elizabeth sneered at his wide eyed stare.
"See I told you that he was insane."
Lily sighed, "I know darling, I know, But he is you brother."
That Meany she was supposed to be loving and caring and annoying and oh harry didn't know mother-like. God didn't she know anything plus her hair was way too red. Blood would just clash with it. But was her flesh tender. Eyeing her he decided it looked kinda tender he wasn't sure. May be he would taste it would it taste good? Or…
"HARRY"
Harry jumped looking over at the headmaster.
"Now that I have your attention."
Basterd he startled me huh, well we all know what's going to happen to him for that now don't we.
"I want to explain to you what's going to happen."
I already know what's going to happen you are going to DIE, die, die, die, die, DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEE!!!!!!!!
"You are going to be resorted because no Potter is to ever be in Slytherin; furthermore you are to stop talking to the Malfoy heir as you are just endangering the Twins"
Twinny twin twin twin, wait a minute… don't talk to Draco? Oh well. Ill just have to find some other stuck up idiot to scare.
Both David and Dian tried to interject there but were cut off by James
"He is using you to get to them so you will since all contact with him. I also know that you have been raised by muggles, however I still expect you to be respectful. I know that you will be in the shadows of your siblings a lot and I cannot have you taking them down with you.
"Respectful?"
Who dose he think he is telling me to be respectful? like I would respect an, an, an... egocentric like him!
James sneered "what? Don't you know what respect is?" Harry just stared blankly at him. "Listening to what people say, not talking back, and being polite."
What dose he think I'm an idiot?
"Answering when you are spoken to"
Apparently… he dose, that's kinda rude not to mention disrespectful.
Lily frowned slightly
"Harry" she began "Why aren't you speaking to us? It would be nice if we could all just get along"
Get along, GET ALONG. She ditched me and now she wants to GET ALONG.
Emerald eyes narrowed
Sensing a possibly homicidal temper tantrum coming the twins tried to step in only to be cut off by old Dumbles himself.
"Come here Harry"
"No"
David and Dian both winced
"What did you just say?" James's eyes filled with anger. Elizabeth smirked.
"No!!"
"Now Harry," Lily's voice was sugary sweet "you have to be resorted. After all no Potter has ever been a Slytherin."
Emerald eyes narrowed more.
"No."
Dian quickly stepped in "Look Mom, Dad, Professor Dumbledore. I don't think he should have to be resorted. I think that he should be able to stay in Slytherin if he wants to."
"But sweetheart--"
"Mother, why didn't he have any money for his school supplies?"
Lily's lips tightened "you're changing the subject darling."
"Yes I know. The Polite thing to do would be to go along with it."
"Don't be disrespectful sweetheart."
Elizabeth chose that second to speak-up,
"Mommy, Daddy. He also has this really big snake that tried to attack me on the train.
Dumbledore frowned. Lily clutched her daughter closer to her, and the always predictable James exploded.
"YOU WHAT!!!!??"
"Now James--" began Dumbledore.
"NO I WILL NOT HAVE MY CHILDREN THREATEND BY THA… THAT FREAK"
Freak you deserve everything I gave you and more …if you bite me you will wish you where dead …stop talking and use that mouth for--
I sharp pain brought harry to the present. She hit me she fucking hit me large green eyes surveyed Lily. Her green eyes where flashing angrily as she stood between Harry and her Daughter protectively.
She looks disgusting up close pity that means I can't eat her, hell I wouldn't want to touch her with a fifty foot pole…AND SHE TOUCHED ME!!!! Eweee
Tears filled killing curse green eyes. Harry took a deep breath its ok she already touched me I'm sure I will survive it again Harry's eyes narrowed hardening slightly. David quickly dragged his younger brother out of his seat and into his lap not really sure if now would be a good time for the parental units to realize that there youngest was homicidal. Avadakadavra eyes peered accusingly up at him before turning there attention to Lily. Harry angrily pointed an accusing finger at the red headed bitch
"It touched me"
All hell broke lose.
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"Well I hope you're happy" David looked down at his little brother, who happily smiled and nodded, David sighed. Lily hadn't taken well to being called 'it' she had attacked Bolt. Who of course freaked out tried to tear out her trachea. Which didn't go over well with James who for some 'inexplicable' reason didn't like the fact his youngest son had tried to kill his wife. It had taken Dian almost a full hour of fake Tantrums and tears to get Dumbledore not to expel Harry on the spot. David grimaced noticing said boy eating a piece of steak. They hadn't served steak at dinner that night.
Rounding a corner David froze. A container of ink was floating in front of them "Peeves show yourself at once" A high pitched giggle was his only answer. As David opened his mouth to threaten the poltergeist with the Bloody Baron. He heard another giggle. Harry was laughing. The ink bottle soared above said boy and emptied its contents on his head. Harry's laughter if anything just grew. Peeves popped into existence eyeing the strange boy in front of him. "I just dropped ink on your head" Harry nodded happily in agreement. "How do you turn invisible? Will I be able to learn? And its just ink" he paused for a moment pondering, "it smells funny" he added Peeves blinked before cackling maniacally, and floating away. Harry looked happily up at his brother who quickly cast a scougify on him before taking his hand and continuing down the hall.
"Brother?" Harry looked up at him
"What is it Harry?"
"What dose Egocentric mean?"
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"Look there he is!"
"The one with the scar!"
"He's the only Potter to have ever been put in Slytherin!"
"Do you think he's evil?"
"The one standing beside Malfoy."
"He's the younger brother of the twins-who-lived."
Comments like these where following Harry wherever he went. Dian, David and Malfoy where all worried. Harry who didn't like and wasn't used to strangers, attention, crowds or noise seemed to be getting paler by the second as the mental strain of what was being forced onto him by fate started to really get to him. He had taken to wandering around aimlessly clinging to one of them. However no matter how much trouble he seemed to be having with the people of Hogwarts, the castle it self along with the less then human inhabitants seemed to almost worship him. Doors opened into classrooms he and Draco where late for. Peeves gave him actual directions. The stairs only ever seemed to move when he was on them if it helped him. If you where with him it didn't matter which corridors you walked down you always seemed to get where you needed to go.
As for Harry, he was finding the classes themselves vaguely interesting for but nothing earth shatteringly amusing, or interesting and to tell the truth he was mildly disappointed… ok so he was very disappointed, well until potions that is.
Draco watched as Harry relaxed the moment they entered the cool potions lab, round green eyes surveyed the darkened classroom as he allowed Draco to lead him to the far side of the class blissfully unaware of the thoughts going trough his friends head.
Cool, dark, damp, bright enough to see what your cutting, the Dungeons are perfect for me to prepare my "dinners" his thoughts where cut off by the door slamming open and Snape gliding in Harrys eyes widened.
How dose he get his robes to bellow like that, I want my robes to bellow like that.
Snape surveyed the class pausing on the green eyed boy pouting at him, after eyeing the discoserting youth, for a moment wondering why the hell he was pouting. He turned his attention to the rest of the class "there will be no silly wand waving in this class… the door opened again and Elizabeth stalked in head held high her two lackeys following behind.
"And what do you think you are doing Miss Potter."
Ohhhh she's goanna get it now.
"Coming to class, what do you think Snevillus" A nervous murmur moved through the class like a wave as Snapes face went white with rage.
It's like a bad soap opera with a potential murder!! This is so amusing all I need is popcorn she is totally dead.
"One Hundred points from Gryffindor."
OHHHHH that's gotta hurt.
"WHAT YOU CAN'T…"
"Another Fifty will be deducted for yelling at a teacher"
Idiot---
"BUT…"
"And detention with me this weekend"
"YOU…"
"Do you want to lose more? If not then SIT down."
Awww is it over already? That's upsetting, Oh well.
Elizabeth through herself down onto a seat, arms crossed lower lip sticking out obviously pouting.
Wait a minute, she's in MY year that makes no sence…we can't be the same age, right? I mean we could be twins but…ewwwww did he just say newt eyes? I hate eyes, I refuse to touch them, and he can't make me.
"You can't be serious you actually expect us to touch newt eyes!!!"
"Ten points from Gryffindor for cheek" all the Gryfindors glared at her.
I love eyes, especially newt eyes, newt eyes here I come!
Potions was officially Harry's favorite class, not only had Elizabeth lost 180 points by the end of class but it was fun!! He was getting restless though; absentmindedly Harry trailed his fingers along Perficios scaly head as Hedwig settled on his shoulder and Leo lay curled on his lap. He needed to hunt. He glanced out of the window at a dark shape on the grounds and he knew just who he wanted to hunt, wanted to eat.
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I really am sorry about the long wait a lot of shit has been happing the least of which being writers block anyway guys there are some things I need you to do.
POLLS
Who should Elisabeth's Lackeys be?
Who should be the Yuri girls (threesomes are fine)
You can now vote for OC pairings
You can give me ideas for OC people's personalities
And I think that that's it, Oh and don't worry Harry will NOT be unbeatable. He will not be able to do wand less wholly shit I could blow up the world by winking at it, magic because I find it a cop-out. That being said he will not be normal magically.
See ya.