disclaimer-OKAY LAST TIME I DO NOT OWN JUNJOU ROMANTICA IF I DID THERE WOULD BE MORE EGOIST AND MORE EXPLICT SEX SCENES
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Hiroki's eyes opened as the words slipped past his lips.
"Akihiko" he repeated.
/Now I remeber/
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Hiroki cringed as Akihiko entered him he opened his eyes as Akihiko slid his hand on the side of his face he smiled looking at him. This feeling inside of him....what was it.
He didn't know how to describe it, instead something slipped out his mouth.
"I love you" he said as Akihiko raised his other hand to his face sliding them into his hair.
"T-Takahiro" Akihiko groaned out.
Hiroki's eyes widened as he heard the words exit his mouth he felt something in him snap.....it was his heart.
His warm hands left his face leaving him only a memory, what was this new feeling it was so different from the one he had felt before. It hurt.....his heart felt like it was being torn apart, what was this.
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Hiroki widened his eyes at this memory.
/Now I remember.....I said that to Akihiko....right before that happened/
Now Hiroki knew what the feeling he felt that night was ......heartbreak.
"Wait" Hiroki said suddenly at coming to realization.
"Is that why I can't tell Nowaki that.......because....." he started and then paused
"I'm afraid" he said finally.
"I can't say it to him...because I'm.....afraid of getting my heart broken again" he said in a shocked voice his eyes wide and his brows furrowed.
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Hiroki couldn't believe it...that was the reason...he just knew it, it had to be. What else could it possibly be.
Hiroki had ran out of his office with his stuff at realizing it. He hadn't even realized how much he had been running until he arrived at the door to his apartment. He stood there panting breathlessly before pushing open the door.
"Ah, welcome back h-" Nowaki stopped in mid sentence as he looked over at his lover, his eyes widened at seeing the brunette.
Hiroki stood there panting awfully his whole body trembling he looked pale his eyes wide his brows furrowed he looked awful his legs looking as if they'd fall right under him.
"Hiro-san" Nowaki said standing up and rushing over to him "what's wrong" he asked with deep concern in his eyes.
"Nowaki...I...I...I" he stuttered hopelessly Nowaki looked at him rapping his arms around the others trembling figure. Hiroki felt his fingers clutching to him .
/Say it...come on say it already...god say it right now/
"I..I..I......I'm sorry" he finally said Nowaki widened his eyes.
"Huh" he asked "Hiro-san why are you...apologizing" he asked confusedly.
Hiroki could feel something inside him breaking he wasn't sure what though he had his eyes shut he couldn't bare to look at him. he could already feel shameful tears begin to streak his face.
"I'm sorry Nowaki...I'm sorry" he sobbed out how could he have done this to him. How could he have caused Nowaki pain like this.
"Hiro-san why are you apologizing" he asked again holding on tightly though to the sobbing brunette.
"I'm sorry that I did this to you" he said how out of character he must sound right now ...but he didn't care for once..for once in his life his pride had vanished and he wasn't quite sure were it went. Now he was left alone with only his inner voice and his feelings that he might not have even known existed.
"I have been avoiding you alright...but its not because you did something its because......because I can't.....I can't say-" he felt himself choke again while Nowaki waited patiently. "I can't say it" he said in distress.
"What Hiro-san" Nowaki asked looking at him.
"W-what I can't say is...how I feel about you....I can't say it" he sobbed out.
"Do you mean......I love you" he asked looking down at him there was a small nod of his head.
"And I can't say it because......because last time I-I did......they broke my heart....." he said bottled up feelings finally pouring out.
"And I didn't want it to happen again......" he sobbed out. His hands clutching to the blue eyed male.
Nowaki looked down at him his eyes slightly wide a sudden feeling of relief washed over him and then something else. He smiled at him tightening his grip around the older one.
"I love you Hiro-san" he said
Hiroki let out a choked sob as he heard these words.
/Come on...you can do it....say it...say it/
"I....I....I....l- I lo-" the words kept getting cut off in his throat. Nowaki looked down at him and leaned down kissing him closing his eyes. Swallowing up the others words he could feel the others trembling subside, he departed looking at him.
"I love you"
The words finally coming out silently, Hiroki opened his teary hazel eyes at hearing himself say those words. It felt like his heart had been set free the most wonderful feeling overtaking him. Nowaki's eyes were also slightly wide but he smiled.
"I love you too" he said and kissed him again Hiroki's arms holding on to him like he'd never let go and his grip matched the brunette's.
"I love you" Hiroki repeated again
He'd done it...he'd finally said it....and now...he couldn't stop. Finally having said those words.
"I love you"
Those three stupid words.
THE END
oh my god i finished it....okay i may have an epilogue so don't worry but how'd you like it REVIEW