THIS IS HOW THE EVENTS AT THE CEMETERY BETWEEN BEN & ADRIAN WOULD HAVE UNFOLDED.
Ben: Let me go Adrian, why are you even here. (he shakes free from her and gets up from the graves.)
Adrian: I'm here because she was my daughter too. And I know you needed me. And I need you.
Ben: I don't need you now Adrian. I'm fine.
Adrian: If you're fine then why are you here crying in the cemetery on the day of her death, all by yourself. Instead of celebrating at your sister's wedding.
Ben: Because she needs me to be here (points at Mercy's Grave). Because no one else does what I have to do for her. Because unlike you I remember that she existed, and I was her father.
Adrian: And I was her mother, and there is not one day that goes by that I don't miss her or think of her or wonder about what type of person she would be if she had lived. You aren't the only one who misses her Ben. You're just the only one that continuously punishes yourself for her death.
Ben: Maybe, but that is how I deal with it. So leave me alone.
Adrian: You don't have to deal with it alone Ben. I'm here for you if you would just let me be there for you. We would all be there for you if you would just let us help you. (still crying for him)
Ben: You had the opportunity to be there for me. Instead you chose to be with Ricky, then Omar, then my best friend. Then Omar again. I learned to stop needing you, and everyone else, because none of you cared. In turn I learned that I didn't need anyone. I can stand on my own without you, without Amy, or Ricky. Henry, Alice, my mom, my dad, or Mercy. Because all needing people has done for me is let me realize none of you can help me. ONLY I CAN HELP ME.
Adrian: I'm not going to lie Ben you're right. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. You were there for me for months while I grieved for Mercy, and I wasn't there for you. I never thought of how much pain you must have been feeling, or how hard it must have been to be there for me. I should have realized that when you yelled at me in the nursery, you hadn't grieved at all. But I thought the best way to get rid of that pain was to replace it. Then when I saw you weren't ready to deal with it, I just decided to replace you. I'm sorry. That is all I can say.
Ben: Well, you said it, and you're forgiven. So you can go back to the wedding and fix your relationship with Omar, or whoever.
Adrian: I don't want Omar, Ben. I don't want Ricky, or Henry or anyone else. I want you. I wanted you the day you sat in my car with Amy and she took her hand away from yours because she was embarrassed, by that. I wanted you when hugged me in the hallway after Jack blamed me for Grace's dad dying. I wanted you that night I slept with you after I saw how Amy hurt you when she told you about the kiss with Ricky.
Ben: Well, you had me, and then you realized that I wasn't the one, and you divorced me, and found everyone else. So lets just leave it at that.
Adrian: DON'T! Don't you dare do that. You were just as guilty as I was, and don't try and make it like it was all my fault. You wanted me in the car that night too. Or you would have never slept with me. You slept with Alice to get back at Henry for sleeping with me because you felt angry for me, and you know it.
Ben: I was a kid Adrian I did a lot of stupid things that I shouldn't have done. Like dating a girl pregnant by the school gigolo. Asking this girl to marry me, and she didn't even love me. Sleeping with you, and you only loved Ricky. Getting you pregnant and marrying you. Letting girls smoke marijuana in my room, humiliating me in front of my dad. Dating a girl who only liked the trouble she could get into with me. Disappointing my dad over and over and over again. Believing that Henry and Alice were ever really my friends. Or worst of all believing I would ever be allowed to be a father to any child when I am more screwed up than Ricky, you, Chloe, or anyone else will ever be.
Adrian: Don't say that Ben. Don't say anything that you did was a mistake because it wasn't. If it wasn't for you John wouldn't be alive right now, because you gave Amy the confidence to keep him, and realize she was stronger than she knew. Ricky would never have become the man he is today if it weren't for his friendship with you. Henry and Alice cherished their friendship with you it killed them to realize how much they hurt you. They named their first born son after you because they felt they owed you that much. Chloe, your dad both of them said they owed so much to you for being there for them when it mattered. Like after your mom died. Your dad said you were the reason he was able to get through that because you reminded him everyday that your mom still lived through you. You gave him purpose again.
Chloe told me that if she had not met you, and your dad she would have never known what to look for in a man, and that is why she got married because her husband Adam has every bit of the attributes you and Leo share. I owe you everything, Benny. You taught me what real love truly was, and that I am more than just my body, or my looks. You made me proud to be who I am without shame.
Ben: Well that's great Adrian. I helped all of you now you can all live your happily ever after and let me live mine.
Adrian: Ben your life is no happily ever after, and you know it.
Ben: Why isn't it? I have control over my Dad's now billion dollar corporation. I even own my own million dollar magazine. I can go anywhere in the world I want, and I am recognized world over. I help kids all around the world, and I am even up for winning a Humanitarian, and Man of the Year award. I'm way more attractive now than I ever was in high school. I can sleep with any woman in the world I want, and I don't have to ever worry about being made the fool of, or making a fool of myself, or falling in love or getting someone pregnant. I don't have to worry about disappointing my dad ever again. I don't have to worry about people betraying me, or hurting me. I AM LIVING MY HAPPILY EVER AFTER ADRIAN!
Adrian: Stop fooling yourself Benny. You know you aren't happy with that life, and I know you aren't because I lived that life, and I was never happy. My mom was never around and no one wanted me around. I had my choice of any man, and I was desired. I could go and do anything, and I was still a straight A student. And we both know that I was empty inside. I didn't realize that until I met you, and knew I wanted more.
Ben: No, you mean until you met Ricky.
Adrian: No, I mean until I met you. Until I saw you. That skinny geek leaning on your locker watching me from across the hall while I flirted with Ricky. I knew you would never have the guts to approach me, so I was more than happy to give Ricky a shot. Because I never thought a kid like you would ever have the balls to approach me. Then one day you did. You came up to me and asked for my help to go see Amy. I said to myself when I was talking to you, This is the guy I would want in my life. A man who would do anything to be there for the woman he loved. I hated seeing you with Amy because I knew she never would appreciate you. I knew it when she was embarrassed for holding your hand, while she was the one pregnant with another man's child.
When I found out I was carrying your baby, you have no idea how confused I was. Out of all the men I have ever slept with, out of all the times I slept with Ricky you were the one who got me pregnant. I didn't know what to do when I found out, and I thought for certain you would just turn me away when I told you. But you didn't. You held me and told me that you would be there for me no matter what. I was the "SCHOOL SLUT" Pregnant by the SCHOOL PRINCE. You could have told me to get an abortion, or just do what any other guy would do and say that it wasn't yours. I wouldn't have even blamed you. But you didn't you were there everyday. You never left my side. You never once questioned me, about being the father. When I went to get the abortion I was scared that I was killing this child because of what I knew I could feel for you. I couldn't go through with it because she was a piece of you, and I could never bring myself to harm or hurt something that came from you. I knew that when I came to your house after arguing with my dad, and you didn't turn me away. You stayed by me and made me believe everything would be okay, and even if it wasn't you would still be there.
I was proud, and happy every time you took your hand in mine and walked down the hallway with me. I would be overcome with joy whenever you told me that you loved me. You were the man I wanted Ricky to be. I wanted Ricky because I thought he was the best I could ever get. Then I had you, and I let you go because I didn't believe you could ever want me after Mercy died. I hurt you to keep you away because all I ever seemed to do was hurt you. That's why I thought my... our daughter died. When you yelled at me in the nursery I hated you for not stepping up and being the prince I always thought you were suppose to be. Then when I realized that I was trying to bring another life into the world to keep you, I didn't want to do it because you weren't the man I needed you to be so I went for Ricky, and I kicked you out of the condo too hurt you again. The night of the party after Ricky and Omar both just left me. There you were again being the prince and coming to my rescue. I hated you when you left to be with Dylan, and I wanted to hurt you so I slept with Henry. You have no idea of the shame I felt when I realized what I did.
Ben: Well you got your wish, and you got your Knight in shining armor with Omar. You married him, what a year after our marriage was done. You, Omar, Amy, Grace, Jack and Ricky could of all had your lovely wedding together. I wasn't around to be the fool anymore, and from what I heard things went smoothly for all of you. Just go back patch things up with Omar, and let me be to my happiness or misery or whatever you think it is. Because I don't need to be anyone's hero or savior anymore Adrian. I'm done wearing a cape, fighting dragons, and rescuing princesses. There is no such thing as a Prince Charming, and I'm done trying to be one. I never wanted to be the "Sausage Prince" and it is obvious Ricky is much better at it than me.
Adrian: I don't want you to save me Ben. I want to save you. No one was there to rescue you from your pain, that's why I'm here now. (Touching his face and rubbing, which reminds him of the night she woke up and lost Mercy).
Ben: Sorry Adrian, (taking her hand away) I don't need saving anymore. I saved myself. So I don't need rescuing specifically from you.
Adrian: That won't mean, I will stop trying Benny.
Ben: You should, because it's useless. I never loved you anyway. I love Amy. It was always Amy. I only used you that night to get back at her and Ricky.
Adrian: (Shedding tears for herself) Maybe, but it doesn't stop me from loving you Ben. It also wont stop me from trying to be there for you. Because I love you, and I owe it you and to our daughter...
Ben: Well you should. Because chances of you and I being together is just like our daughter. Dead and Gone.
Authors Note: There will be a fifth final wrap up coming. Just had to put this piece in. I had broken pieces of it, and it took me time to put them together. But the rest will be up later, and so will the final chapter of "YOU FOUND ME" as well as the final 7 Chapters of "BEN BOYKEWICH" and stay tuned for "MR. NEWMAN".