Gone
Victorious fanfic
Hiya.
tomorrow's friday but I have a crap-ton of homework and a test and math...(UGH!)
so yea, might not update much.
and thank you to the reviewers, readers, favorites and follows!
and the guest reviews were really nice so ty
Disclaimer: We've been over this. I will give you my foot if I ever wind up owning this show.
PS: oh and the big revelation comment was supposed to be later, sorry lol xD
Chapter Four:
Wakeup call
Cat: "What's THAT supposed to mean?!"
Cat's POV
I still can't believe it.
Flashback
I blinked my eyes open.
This felt like a dream.
I could've sworn I was just in an alley, with Robbie and Jade at my side.
"She's up." I heard a twinkly voice whisper.
"Great." A boomingly loud, but nice-sounding voice followed. "Try and talk to her." (1)
"H-hello? Miss Caterina Valentine?" I looked up from the very fluffy bed I was on.
A man with light brown hair, and dark brown eyes was in front of me.
He was wearing some kind of white-ish vanilla dress-robe thing, no shoes- his feet were a few inches off the ground, and he had fluffy wings like the-
"You're an angel?" I asked quietly, just now noticing his shiny golden halo.
He nodded. "Yes. Um, do you remember anything at all?"
I nodded a little. "I-I was…"
"Raped?" He offered.
"Yes." I said shakily.
"It's okay. You're fine. He can't get you from up here." The nice angel assured me, holding my arm gently.
"Up here?" I asked curiously.
"Yes. You are… Well, technically you are not in heaven, but you're in the caring area for broken souls like your own."
"B-broken souls?" I sputtered.
"Yes. You were just raped and murdered." He informed me.
I blinked. "I was?"
"Yes. The man that hurt you, he shot you- remember?"
"Where are Jade and Robbie?"
"They're on earth."
"On ear- you mean I'm not on earth?" I asked.
He rolls his eyes. "I kinda just explained that, but no, you're not on earth."
"Oh. Um, Mr. Angel what's your name?" I asked innocently. "I love making new friends."
He chuckled a little. "That's what I hear. I'm Kevin."
"Ooh! Like the boy in the movie!" (2)
"Um, I guess…" He looked at me strangely.
"So, I can't be with Robbie or Jade or Beck or Tori or Andre or Trina or Sikowitz or Sinjin or Lane or-"
"No."
"-until they die?"
"Correct."
"So… What do I do to wait for them?"
I gasped.
"What-what's wrong?"
"Nothing just… I'm in heaven."
"Kind of." Kevin corrected me.
"Wait, so… then why can I b-be sad?" I asked, tears already forming. "I thought in heaven you were happy all the time."
"I told you Caterina-"
"Cat." I corrected him.
"Cat." He repeated. "You're not exactly in heaven because your judging time hasn't happened yet."
"Blah-blah-blah, technical techy stuff, I wanna see Robbie and Jadey!" I whined, wiping my eyes.
"Here." He whipped out a tissue box from nowhere.
I guess it's magical here.
"Th-thank you." I sniffled.
"Now there is one way you can see your friends." He twiddled his thumbs.
"How?" I asked earnestly.
"Well…" Kevin started. "We can let you go on Earth- but you'd still be a spirit-soul-thing-, and you can see them."
"But- I wanna talk to them and hug them." I explained.
"I know that." He replied, agitated. "You will be able to talk to… certain people."
"Who are…?" I asked.
"People you had contact with in life."
I eyed him curiously.
"Your friends and relatives."
"Oh."
"And you can touch them, it's just…"
"Just what?" I pressed.
"Just… they won't be able to see you."
"So… I'll be a ghost?"
"Well not exactly." Kevin started. "See, eventually they might be able to see you."
"Explain."
"If-… If the person can guess that it's you, then they get the ability to see you and touch you back."
"So they can feel me?"
"Well, granted you let them."
"What?" I asked curiously.
"You can decide if someone passes through you or touches you."
"Oh. And I have a question."
"Yes Cat?"
"Um, won't it be obvious to them? It's my voice."
"To us it's your voice. To them it's distorted and different."
"Until…?"
"Until they figure out that it's you."
"So, I just like… stalk them until they figure out it's me?"
"Pretty much." Kevin shrugged.
"But, isn't that weird?" I asked.
"Not really. I mean, what do you think guardian angels do?" He joked with a half-serious look.
I shuddered. "Please tell me my guardian angel wasn't like Sinjin and was normal."
He smirked. "Oh don't worry. Your guardian angel isn't like Sinjin."
"Ooh! Do you know her?"
"Him." He corrected.
"But, why would I have a-?" I stopped. "Are you my guardian angel?"
"When you were a pre-teen, yes. Lately? No."
I blinked. "Elaborate."
"Well, recently we've just observed you, seeing as Jade and Robbie were taking care of you."
I blushed at the mention of Robbie.
"I take it you liked him on earth?"
"I-I still do." I whispered.
"Really?" He asked, eyes widening a little.
"Y-yes."
"This is just…" He sighed, putting his hand in his hair.
"What's wrong?"
Kevin sighed. "It's just… this only ever happens-"
"What only ever happens?"
"When you have feelings for someone on earth, those feelings only travel with you if you… If you really genuinely loved them." (3)
"Like what kind of love?" I asked.
"Family love, love for a pet, love for a friend, or…"
"Or what?" I asked, wishing he would stop being so cryptic about this.
"True love."
"Heehee, that's cheesy." I giggled.
"I'm serious Cat." Kevin said, and I grew quiet. "Was this Robbie related to you?"
I shook my head no. "And no he wasn't an animal." I added.
Kevin smirked. "I can tell Cat. And was he your friend?"
"Yes."
"So he was a friend that you cared about?"
"No, I…"
"Really loved him?" Kevin offered.
I nodded. "Yep yep yep. And I wanna see him. But that mean stranger killed me and now I can't tell him how much he means to me!" I yelled, tears coming again as I grabbed a tissue.
"Sit down." He said, and I sat on the white couch in front of the bed.
"Cat…" Kevin trailed off. "True love never dies."
"I know that." I said angrily. "So why can't you bring me back home?"
"Oh, I-I'm not capable of such things." Kevin raised his hands in the 'surrender' gesture. "He is."
"Who's that? The booming voice?"
He chuckled. "Yes Cat, the booming voice. Come to think of it he might be more helpful in this situation, seeing as he definitely knows who Jade and Robbie are."
"Ooh is he a stalker like Sinjin?" I asked excitedly.
Kevin looked at me curiously. "No Cat, I'm talking about God." (4)
"Oh-okay." I stuttered.
I'm gonna talk to God?
…What…?
Kevin told me to close my eyes.
I obeyed and heard him leave.
"She's ready."
"Cat?" I heard a very nice voice.
"I'm Cat who's calling?" I giggled, remembering the Christmas present Robbie got me a long time ago.
"Robbie's a sweet kid." The voice commented.
"…You can read my thoughts?" I asked, amazed.
"I have been able to read your thoughts since before you were born."
"Ew… Who are You?"
Better not be a Sinjin.
"No I'm not like Sinjin, Caterina." The nice voice chuckled.
"Then who are You?"
"Your heavenly Father."
"God?" I guessed.
"Yes." He confirmed.
"Um, God, may I ask a question?"
"Go ahead."
"Why-why did that man get away with raping and murdering me?" I asked quietly.
"Sweetheart he's not getting away with it."
"Ooh! Are they grilling him in court right now?" I asked excitedly.
"No… No one knows who he was remember?"
"Oh…"
"I assure you, he's going to have a long, miserable eternal life in hell unless he redeems himself."
"Well that's… I want to say good but I don't wanna sound evil."
"You don't sound evil."
"Good. How-how is Robbie? And Jade? And the others?"
"Well, to be honest, Robbie is torn apart."
I gasped. "Robbie…"
"Jade's the same but hides it better."
"Jadey…!"
"Everyone else is pretty much depressed. Not as bad as those two but pretty bad. You had a special impact on their lives Little Miss Valentine."
"Heehee…" I giggled.
"You miss them."
"Yeah… I love them too."
"I know."
"No I'm serious I really-" I paused "You know?"
"I told you Cat, I read your thoughts. I know what's in your heart. You loved them. You were in love with Robbie."
"Am. I still am."
"I know." He paused, and I felt his eyes on me. "You can open your eyes you know. I don't bite."
"Oops!" I giggled, opening my eyes. I pout. "I can't see You!"
"That's because you aren't a full-spirit yet."
I felt someone give me a hug.
It's hard to describe.
It's like every good, platonic hug you ever had, along with hugs from your mom and dad.
"Was that You?"
"Yes. You're sad."
"I…"
"Miss everyone?" He guessed.
"Yes." I nodded, feeling tears.
I felt the gentlest breeze wipe my tear away.
"Aww, was that You too?"
"Yep."
"God?"
"Yes Cat?"
"I… Why can't I come back to life and be with my Robbie and-?"
He laughed. "Your Robbie?"
"Hey!"
"I think it's sweet and endearing."
"Thank you."
"But… Cat I don't just perform those types of miracles left and right anymore."
"But it's happened."
"But-"
"Please?" I pleaded, giving my best puppy dog eyes because I know He sees me.
"Now Cat. Begging won't help anything."
"But I want to see him again!"
"Cat didn't Kevin tell you can?"
"Well, yeah but… He has to guess that it's me. And let's face it- Robbie's a little clueless." I explained.
He sighed. "I'll… I'll think about it."
"Oh yay! Thank you God!" I squealed, jumping up and down.
I blushed, clearing my throat and collecting myself. "So… can I see Rob now?"
"Yes."
"How do I…?"
"Let Me get Kevin."
"Kay-kay!"
Kevin explained how to be with people on earth to me.
It seemed simple enough but then again I was in a different place.
I spent the next week following Jade and Robbie around, trying to get them to realize that it was me who was 'watching them'.
…I missed them.
They still don't know it's me.
Oooh! I can try Jade again…
Hopefully.
yeeeeeah.
(1) have no idea how God sounds like so I guessed xD
(2) reference to Home Alone (obviously I don't own THAT either...)
(3) made that up cause OBVIOUSLY I haven't died yet so I wouldn't know...
(4) totally fine with it if you don't believe in that stuff, but if you don't, just pretend God exists for this story, kay? ty lol
A/N you wouldn't BELIEVE how long it took me to think of Kevin's name!
then I was watching YouTube and the name just popped up and I was like "THANK YOU YOUTUBE!" xD
ps this was written late and I was tired so excuse any errors (which I'm sure come up frequently anyways...)
:)