I'm still blown away by how nice you all are! I'm really grateful for all the support and feedback I've been receiving. Also, the people who have added this story to favorites or alerts, it's just as high a compliment, so thank you all as well :D You guys are what makes me sit and write!

I'm going to try to keep the chapters long like the last one because I know it's a lot more satisfying :P

So, here you go! Reid POV and how he reacts internally to this new discovery! A lot of this is dialogue, just warning :P

Disclaimer: I do not own any recognizable characters, they belong to CBS

Warnings: This fic is rated M for language and sexual content.

Chapter Four:

Reid stood there, forehead resting on the doorframe for a couple of minutes. This was nuts. This was insane. This was unfair.

This was exactly what he had dreamed about Morgan doing for years.

He felt the lump in his throat and the sting in his eyes and sniffled. No, he was done crying over him. He had sent that ship sailing.

He stood straight and turned, aiming to go back to his room and cuddle with Jasper and forget about this whole thing, but he was stopped short.

Jasper was leaning against the wall about five feet back.

Reid wiped his eyes. "How long have you been standing there?"

Jasper just shrugged.

Reid folded his arms and sniffed. "How much did you hear?"

Jasper shrugged again before answering. "Enough."

The silence was uncomfortable and Jasper's eyes were almost accusing.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

Jasper sighed and pushed off of the wall, arms still folded. "It means we have some things to talk about."

Reid shifted his weight. "Like what?"

"Like, the fact you never told me you used to have feelings for him."

"It's irrelevant now."

"Is it?"

Reid shook his head. "I had to let him go, he'll just have to do the same with me."

"And you're just willing to let that happen."

"What are you implying, Jasper?"

Jasper just shrugged again and turned back to the bedroom, calling over his shoulder as he went. "I'm just saying, I don't think you're completely over him."

"Oh, and you would know right?" Reid rolled his eyes.

Jasper turned back. "I may not be a BAU profiler, Spencer, but the fact that you told him about your past feelings leaves room to believe-"

"Jasper, I haven't been with you for even a month! All of a sudden you know what I'm feeling? What my actions mean?" God, why did everyone just think they knew him?

"I'm just saying, I don't think it's fair to me if-"

"Fair to you? In the last 48 hours I've had three major fights with my best friend. He just confessed to me that he's in love with me, and you think I'm not being fair to you?"

"Look, Spencer, I don't want to fight. Come back to bed and we'll sort this out later."

Reid stood for a moment before deciding he really didn't have the energy to fight either.

He walked back to the bedroom behind Jasper. He welcomed the warmth under the blankets, but when he moved closer to the other man, wanting to forget Morgan in the warmth and comfort of his body, he turned the other way with a soft "Not right now Spencer."

"I just want to cuddle." He whispered.

"I said, not now."

Reid was silent for a couple seconds. "Kay." He said so softly he doubted Jasper had heard him.

He lay there for a while, thinking of what just transpired. Why did Morgan tell him now? Why not before, when neither of them were committed?

Well, YOU never told him. Doesn't that make you a hypocrite? You yelled at him for not advancing on you when you were single, but you never said anything to him about YOUR feelings.

Reid curled in on himself. He felt lonely even though he was right beside Jasper. Right beside the man he was dating. The man he was committed to.

Right beside the man who didn't want to cuddle him when his emotions were so raw.

Morgan would have cuddled me. Weather we were together or not he would have been there.

Reid rolled over onto his other side.

This was so not fair.

When Reid woke the next morning, alarm clock blaring, Jasper was absent from the bed. He found him in the kitchen, back towards Reid, making coffee.

He walked up behind him and wrapped his arms around Jasper's middle.

"Morning," He said, nuzzling into Jasper's neck.

"Hi." Jasper said, worming his way out of Reid's grasp. "Coffee's made. I'm going to have a shower."

"Want company?" Reid asked, putting his hands on the other man's chest.

"No, thanks." Jasper took Reid's hands off him before exiting the kitchen.

What the hell? Reid stood there for a long moment before grabbing a cup of coffee. What did I do?

Reid was changed and ready to go by the time Jasper got out of the shower.

"You can go without me." Jasper said absently, changing.

"I'd rather go with you." Reid said quietly.

Jasper sighed and nodded.

They arrived at the bureau five minutes late. Reid had to practically beg Jasper to walk him up, and even when he gave in, he said he would only take the elevator with him.

It was really starting to worry Reid. I mean, sure the conversation last night hadn't exactly gone smoothly, but that didn't mean Jasper should be avoiding him.

When the elevator doors opened, Reid stepped out. He turned back and tried to give Jasper a kiss but the man just sidestepped it.

"What's going on Jasper?" Reid asked.

"I really don't want to talk about it here." Jasper shrugged.

"Are you mad at me?"

"Can we talk about it later?"

"What did I do?"

"Later, Spencer."

Just then Morgan walked up behind Reid.

"Can I talk to you?"

Reid shook his head. "Not now."

"Reid, I really need to talk to you."

"And I really don't want to do it now." He turned back to Jasper, who had now stepped out of the elevator and was looking at Morgan like he was going to kill him. "Jasper, can we please talk?"

"Spencer," Morgan began, but Jasper cut him off.

"Did you know you sleep talk?" He asked, looking at Reid.

Reid furrowed his eyebrows. "Yes, I have my whole life. Why?"

"Do you recall a certain dream you had last night?"

Reid gulped. Yes, he did remember. It had been short. He had been standing in his own kitchen, Morgan across from him. Morgan had sighed and rubbed his head. "I can't ask you to leave him, I'll just go."

Reid had reached out to him. "No, I want you. I've always wanted you. Don't leave me, Derek."

And now, here Jasper was, repeating exactly what he had said in the dream, looking like he was going to explode. And Morgan was standing right there.

"It was just a dream, Jasper."

"Oh it was, was it?"

"Spencer?"

Reid turned to see what looked like concern in Morgan's eyes.

"Morgan, don't think that we're okay just because I had some sort of meaningless dream."

"Pretty boy, I-"

THWACK!

Jasper's fist came across Morgan's face all to hard.

Morgan stumbled, holding his cheek. "What the-"

Reid spun to look at a fuming Jasper.

"What the hell! What was that for?"

"He called you pretty boy!"

"He always calls me pretty boy! It's his nickname for me! You can't just go around and punch people!"

"Yeah? Well, it's not like you're over him anyways! This guys a jerk! A muscle-bound jerk! And you're still pining after him!"

"I told you I was over him! Don't you trust me?"

"I'm not gonna stick around long enough for you to realize you love him and start sleeping around!" Jasper shouted.

"What? You think I would cheat on you? Who the hell are you? I would never cheat on anyone, ever!" Reid matched his volume. By now, everyone within earshot was standing and watching. God, this was embarrassing. It was like Reid couldn't go any number of hours without getting into a shouting match with someone.

"You would've left then! I know it! I'm not stupid, Spencer! I'm not run by my emotions like you are!"

"I would've made it work, Jasper! I vowed along time ago that I would never leave or abandon someone without warning! But you wouldn't know that because you're too busy trying to have sex all the time!"

Everything was silent.

It felt like no one was breathing, just standing and watching as Reid felt his relationship falling apart in big chunks.

"This isn't working for me." Jasper said, gritting his teeth.

"Good. Fine. Leave. Use someone else as your toy. I'm not interested in your 'all take' attitude anymore."

Jasper turned to the staircase. Pushing past a number of people before flinging the door open and disappearing.

The room was completely silent before a commanding voice took charge.

"Everyone, back to work. Nothing to see anymore."

Reid turned and saw Hotch staring down the crowd as it dispersed. When he caught his eye, Reid gave him a small sad smile in thanks. Hotch just nodded before turning and heading back to his office.

"Spencer?"

Reid whipped around to see Morgan standing there.

All he could do was sigh. He wasn't really mad at him. I mean, how could he be? He had planned on apologizing today anyways. No time like the present, hey?

"Look, Morgan. I'm sorry for-"

"What? No. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have assumed that coming to your house last night was the right thing to do."

Reid held up a hand. "Let me go first." He paused and waited until Morgan nodded slowly. "I was a major hypocrite to you last night. I told you that it wasn't okay for you to have waited so long to tell me your feelings, but I turned around and did the exact same thing. I was rude and disrespectful and I'm sorry. I should have told you from the beginning, but I was cowardice."

Morgan shook his head. "I was foolish to come to your house in the middle of the night. I don't know what I expected you'd do. And now, I've messed up your whole relationship with Jasper and I feel like an asshole! I shouldn't have-"

Reid shook his head. "It wasn't going too well him anyways."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, the first bit was great. But after I gave in and had sex with him, that was really all he wanted. It was my fault for being so stupid. I shouldn't have jumped into it so quickly." Reid shrugged, swallowing a lump in his throat.

"Don't beat yourself up about it."

Reid shook his head. "No. No, it was my fault. I did this."

"Spencer, look-"

"I gotta find Garcia." Reid said pushing past Morgan without another word.

"Oh, honey, it's okay." Garcia leaned in and hugged Reid when he was all done with his story. She had listened intently through out the whole thing, and just that was making him feel better.

"Now, I don't know what to do."

"What do you mean, sweet cheeks?"

"Well," Reid shifted, slightly embarrassed. "I think Jasper might've been right. I-" He paused and took a deep breath. "I think I still have feelings for Morgan."

Garcia gave him a contemplative look before speaking up. "I still don't understand. If you have feelings for him, then act on them. I mean, baby, he already confessed to you. You don't have to worry about whether he reciprocates the feelings or not. You already know."

"Yes but doesn't it make me a bad person if I just jump from Jasper to Morgan? I mean, there are rules aren't there?"

"Spencer," She said grabbing his hand. "I'm going to speak truthfully. You've waited so long. You didn't act out of fear and now your perfect moment has been handed to you. I know Derek. He's a lost soul. And if you give him any reason to believe he's never going to have another chance, he's going to do everything in his power to get over you. This isn't something you should wait out. Grab your Chocolate God by the ass and don't let go, honey!"

Reid blushed before sighing. "I don't know. I think I need to take the day off. I'm going to go talk to Hotch."

Garcia nodded. "You go, cupcake."

Reid left Garcia's lair. He really wasn't looking forward to walking through the bullpen and have everyone staring, but it didn't seem like he had any other choice.

Just as he was about to face his doom, Hotch walked out of the doors and practically ran into him.

"Reid, how are you?"

"I was just looking for you." Reid said, cutting to the point. "I was wondering if I could take a personal day, you know? Clear this whole thing up."

Hotch nodded "That's fine with me."

"Thanks."

Reid took the metro home seeing as he didn't have a car due to the fact Jasper had driven him. When he got there he simply threw his stuff on the bedroom floor and crawled into his bed.

This was not going to be easy.

So, what did you think? I'm sorry for any of you who didn't want Jasper to be an asshole, but I really needed to take him all the way out the picture. Now, Reid doesn't know what to do! Oh dear. Lucky for him though, I know what he's going to do :P

Now, who wants a little M/R slash in the next chapter?

*raises hand* Oh me! Me! I do! I want it!

*blushes* Alright then you wonderful people!

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