Okay guys please don't hate me this isn't an update I just have a question I really need answered. It really has nothing to do with the story but once I figure this out and do my schoolwork I'll update again. Anyway here's the situation. I'm friends with a boy. Me and him started talking last October and we became pretty close pretty quick. I was falling in love. Completely heels over head in love. In April of last year we started dating. He was the best boyfriend I could have asked for, and I honestly thought he was going to be my Edward. Well a little while after that he decided it would be in both of our best interests for us to not date. I was crushed. I can only describe the feeling as how Bella felt when Edward left. He didn't talk to me. We avoided each other. I began to become irrational. I had planned on jumping a train and going wherever it took me. (Mind you all of this happened before I read twilight) But as I made my plans I slipped up and told my friend. Of course he found out and screamed at me about just up and leaving, like he actually cared. Well we started talking again at the end of the summer. I don't want to tell him this but it's killing me to be his best friend. He now lives with me and my family since his mom kicked him out. I still love him. But I know he doesn't love me. And all my love turns to hate. I keep it inside because if I tell him he'll leave but if I don't the whole in my chest gets bigger and bigger. And then when he gets upset over girls and asks me for advice I want so badly to tell him that if he would just love me everything would be fine. But I can't because when he's away I feel my heart break centimeter by centimeter and when's he is here it's just as bad. And I can't tell him how I really feel because I'm afraid I'll hurt him. And he deserves a happy life more then me. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do.
Please if you have any advice send it to me.
I'll update soon.
AshiixBabii