*Before you begin reading, I may advise that you go back and read the first three chapters over again. Unless you just have an absurdly amazing memory. In that case, read on!*
EDWARD'S POV
Despite my efforts to avert my eyes, so as not to alarm her, I couldn't help but to stare at Bella. I wasn't sure what emotions were playing across my face, but I was sure that it was contorted into some form of anger or frustration.
I just couldn't understand how it was that I was unable to read her thoughts. How was she any different from any other student or faculty member at this school? How was she any different from anyone that I had met in my long, drawn out hell of an existence?
Look away, Cullen. You're probably scaring the girl half to death. My mind battled within itself, unsure whether to give up and look away, or to continue to stare and anger myself further with the how's and why's of this girl's magical and impossibly effortless ability to shield her thoughts from my prying mind.
You would think that I would find this relieving in a way. I had finally found someone who, if I focused on her and only her, could quiet the rest of the meaningless thoughts that ran through everyone else's minds. I normally hated my ability. Of course, I had moments that I was thankful for being able to read people's thoughts. It helped me greatly in beating my brothers during our chess matches. No one had a chance in beating me at anything. And yet, this one, seemingly harmless human girl was able to keep her mind closed and silent, and I found it infuriating that I couldn't hear what she was thinking. Was she afraid to be in such close proximity to me? Most humans were.
She seemed to be paying no attention to the lecture that the biology teacher was giving. Question after question ran through my mind. Did she not like science? Did the lesson confuse her? Was she one of those people who learned better by teaching themselves? Or one of those students who just didn't care about school at all? Did she know how easily she was driving me over the edge of insanity?
Just then, Bella's eyes shifted over towards me, so subtly and quick that a normal human wouldn't have noticed. A few seconds passed and she finally turned herself in her seat so that she could more easily face me. I could tell that she wanted to say something to me – she was probably wondering what my problem was – but she stopped before any sound came out of her mouth and just stared into my eyes.
And there they were again. She was looking at me with those big, deep brown eyes that had no bottom in sight. I wanted to look into those eyes for eternity, and swim in the warmth that they held. I was once again highly aware of how much her eyes said. I may not be able to read her mind, but her thoughts played out like a movie through her eyes. Her eyes were saying how she was feeling the same strange pull between us as I was. Before I could push the absurd thought away, I was left wondering whether she had had the same dream as I had. But how? That was almost a century ago… this girl hadn't been alive then. The dream had to be some sort of sick coincidence. There was no way that the both of us had had it.
SURPRISE!
I know, I know. I am a horrible person. Not only do I not update for FOUR YEARS, but when I do update.. it's only about 600 words. Horrible. You are more than welcome to kick and throw rocks at me for as long as your BIG, LOVING, FORGIVING heart desires... hehe :)
Anyhow. I am NOT promising weekly, or even monthly updates for this story. I am a very busy person, but I have been wanting to get back into writing for a long time. I will update when I can, even if the chapters are short. I probably won't turn this into a really long fic, but I willdo my best to at least get it to a conclusion.
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-Dakota