A/N: English is not my first language so all errors are mine.. Reviews and suggestions are welcome
Disclaimer: I don't own Rizzoli and Isles.
Think fast. Think fast. I told to myself. Right now I don't trust myself. "Bathroom…" is all I could ever think.. and I mentally kicked myself for that, and congratulate all at the same time. It sounds lame but I need to breathe… God, shoot me now…
As long as you don't choose everything remains possible, we have to make choices, each of these choices is the right one, every path is the right path, everything could have been anything else and it would have just as much meaning.
I looked at myself in the mirror and gasped. I turn the faucet on and washed my face, wiling the flushed look to go away. I sighed in relief as the cool water hit my face. God… what the hell..
I've got almost a week to talk myself down. I came to realize that what I felt for Maura was already beyond friendship. It isn't platonic anymore. Well, at least for me…
Always, I find myself wanting to be with her, longing to touch her, and craving to feel her around me… fuck.. I had it real bad, didn't I?
As I compose myself I went back to the room and found Maura hissing in pain as she try to sit up. "woah there!" I ran towards the bed and sat down beside her as I assist her.
She looks up at me and smile as she settled down and rest her left side to my front and once again settled her head in the crooks of my neck.."Thank you Jane…"
I closed my eyes and tried to regulate my breathing.. don't pass out now Rizzoli breath…of course that didn't help, as my nostril filled with the scent of the woman I came to love. Love. Love. Yeah… I love her… so much…
Maura sighed in relief as the pain subsides. Jane always makes her feel comfortable and safe. She also comes to love the smell of Jane it soothes her and calm her in a way that isn't weird right?... right!. I felt her arms wrapped around me as she began to rub my side. "Is this ok?.." she ask softly. And I nod my agreement. I wrapped my right arm at her as she continues to rub my bruised side. Ohh God…it felt so good..
It felt so good, but soon I felt something more, as she rub my side and graze at the side of my breast I gasped. "Maur?..." she asked softly… "am I hurting you?"She stilled her hand's ministration and cupped my face with her free hand and tilts my face towards her. "No, god no.. Please don't stop…"
I chuckled, as I once again rub her sides, "do you need anything?.." I ask her softly, reading her face for any pain, "hey, you look flushed… what's wrong?... do you need the pain killers? " I ask without a pause as I register the look on her face…
I smiled at her and clench my fist on her shirt. " Im fine Jane, what you're doing is better than any pain killers.."
I cleared my suddenly dry throat as I look at her… there's this spark on her eyes and what's that, a grin on her face? Ohhh god woman don't play games with me now... how can I possibly love her even more. "oh yeah?.. well Im glad" I chuckled softly and rub her side a little higher two can play a game woman!.
Her clenched fist tightens on my shirt as she averts her eyes, suddenly having an interest on the wall paintings… "hey what's wrong are you sure you're ok?.." a smirk plastered on my face I know that look on her face. Hell, I've got that look just few minutes ago… OH. … could she possibly.. NO, no.. stop…
"I'm fine Jane it's just that..." how do I tell her?.. oh god.
"What is it?.. Tell me Maur.." I need to know, shit… maybe this love isn't one-sided after all. Well, thanks to all the god and the deities…
"it's kind of arousing… Jane.."I whispered as I buried my face on her neck… when she stilled her hand I started to panic…what if she find it weird?... what if she leave me?… I can't take that please…
Without my permission a sob suddenly escape me… "Sorry, it's just that my amyg…""Shut it google" she said with a light chuckle and continue her hand ministration. Instantly I feel relieve, a sigh escape me and inhale to clear my emotion Thank god….she's still here.. "You don't think it's weird?"
A shiver ran my spine as she breathe on my neck… really?.. jesus she don't got a clue, does she?.. I smiled at her question, I cupped her face and kiss her forehead, nose and left cheek.."Weirder than you?" I ask between kisses. I grin at her to let her know I was just kidding… "Jane!" she said a little louder as she swats me playfully, I caught her hand and brought it to my lips and kissed her knuckles… "well, honey.. doctor said no strenuous activity so… whatever you're thinking now might have to wait…" I whispered my voice a little raspy as I tease her. She flushed in an instant. And I laughed at her shocked expression.. I kissed her cheeks again and smiled at her warmly…
"Alright, you need a bathe?" she asked me softly .. "Yes, please… thank you.." I said as I smiled at her warmly… "Alright then, I'll get it ready.. I'll be back and get you in a short while…" she said as she stands and walk to the master bath. A sigh of relief escape me… how can she do that?.. I thought I'm gonna faint…
KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK..
"Maura?... are you decent?" she ask from the outside of the room."Come in Jane…" I said as I struggle to clasp my bra… "OhH God.." she exclaimed and turned around facing the door… "Maura!.."
"What?" amused smile crept my face… I look down my almost naked body.. "Oh. Common Jane you've seen me like this before…"
OH yea I do!.. but I love you now.. that's different!.. "just put some clothes on will you?.." I said as and walked to her slowly..as I stare at her in her matching lacy red… "Need some help?..." I asked as I notice her struggling and huffing… she frowns slightly and said "yes, please.. I can't clasp this.." she said tugging her lacy red bra.. I walked up to her and inhaled her scent.. Slowly I brought my hands and clasp her bra. "Does this still hurt?" I asked as I brought my hand to her still noticeable bruised. I heard her take a breath and smile, I slowly caress her soft skin..
I closed my eyes as I felt her touch me. "Not when you touch me…" I whispered softly. She move closer and I can feel her front presses on my back.. I rest my head on her shoulder and closed my eyes savoring the touch I longed for so long…
"I love it when you touch me like this Jane…" she whispered softly. I rest my chin on her shoulder and nuzzled closer to her neck, slowly I place a feathered like kiss just below her earlobes ahgg fuck… iwhat the hell am I doing?... she doesn't seems to mind… "hmm, I love it when I touch you too… I'll just keep on touching you then…" I whispered back.
I shivered as she nuzzled on my neck, and I bit my lip to stifle a moan, but I failed when she kissed me. "Hmm Jane.." I moaned softly…
Suddenly a clearing of throat filled the silent room. "Am I interrupting something?" Angela asked with a smile so wide..
The two turned towards the voice extremely shocked at the intruder.. "Ma!" Jane turned over her shoulder and hissed at her mother as she try to cover the almost naked Maura.. Maura on her part buried her face on Jane's chest. "What the hell?, can't you knock?! " she exclaimed annoyed at her mother.
Angela chuckled at the two woman's expression.. "Oh believe me Janie I did knock… you two must be very.. busy.. I thought you're ignoring your mother!" Angela said feigning a hurtful expression.
"Ohh.. For Fuckssake's… what dyou need ma!?" Jane said in annoyance. "Language Jane.." Maura said softly.. Jane turned her head and looked down at the woman's face buried on her chest "Really?.. Maura… she walked in on us…." As Jane registered the meaning of what she said she adds, "I mean… you uh… " she stuttered as she finds her words..
Angela's laughter filled the room. And Jane glared at her mother… "Excuse me?" she said. She felt Maura giggling on her chest… "Mauraaa.." she said as her brow knitted begging her to stop and not join her mother.. She closed her eyes willing her temper to even out. "Sorry.." Maura said softly as she place her hand to Jane's chest above her heart.. Jane sigh in relief..
Angela saw the interaction between the two.. And a warm smile crept her face.. She cleared her throat again as the two suddenly forgot that she's still in the room. "Everyone's here already… And Maura.. honey.. you might want to wear some clothes before you catch a cold.. " Angela said before shutting the door.
Jane's laughter stop as she hissed in pain.. "Oww god! What's that for?" she said as she rubbed her upper arm that Maura just pinch… Maura just grin at her and start dressing herself with Jane's Sweatpants and a Red Sox shirt.. "Wow.. We're did you get that?.. New collection for this season?" Jane asked with a smile on her face as she saw Maura wearing her clothes. Maura laughed at Jane's teasing… "Stop it Jane…"
"Ma's got a surprise for you…" Jane said excitedly as they head out the door. They walked towards the stairs, Jane assisting her.
"Surprise! Welcome Home!" Everyone shouts the rehearsed line as per Angela's instructions… Maura gasped as she took in the scene in front of her.. The banners, the balloons and the flowers.. And of course the heavenly scent of Angela's cooking.. She looked at everyone with teary eyes.. Korsak, Frost, Frankie, Tommy and Baby TJ, and Angela. "Thank you…." She said softly as she grasped Jane's hand tighter. Jane just beamed at her… "Common let's get you fed.." she said giggling at Maura's expression.
Maura never felt this love. If not for the family Jane had introduce her. She might be alone by now. Everyone's happy and laughing and so is she.. The feeling of warm in her home… Yes, this is not just a house anymore.. Since Jane takes a place in my life everything seems to grow warm.. This is a home…
As everyone enjoys the Tiramisu for dessert the doorbell rang… "Are we expecting someone else?" she asked as she looked around, trying to figure out who's possibly missing.. Jane just smiled at her "I'll get it"
Jane opens the door… As she was expected Constance standing there.. "Thanks for coming Constance" she said and smiled as she let the older woman enter..
Constance saw her daughter laughing at what she believes her daughter's colleague named frost said. Although in a little pain joy over powers it. "Darling…" she said softly…
Maura heard the familiar voice and stands up in an instant "Mother!.." she exclaimed. Shock evident on her face.. she hissed at the sudden movement and before she stumble forward Jane's immediately at her side holding her close.. "Easy there.. " she said smiling…
Everyone noticed that the closeness is back, much closer in fact. They all have grin plastered on they're faces.. Even Constance smiled at the two with a brow high up. She knew that the detective will always be there for her daughter. And for that she will always be thankful..
A/N: Hope you guys enjoyed this longer chapter. Feed me with reviews and suggestions y'all. Thanks for waiting. All the love to you guys!