Okay, so I'm going through a HUGE issue right now, and normally I don't reach out like this, but unfortunately, it's come to the point where I HAVE to reach out to you. I'm sorry to burden you with my troubles, but I don't know where else to turn right now.

Alright, so here's the situation. My family is in the middle of a huge financial crisis right now. My mom has been trying to get more money from her business, but because she has an "upstairs" shop, and because her landlord won't allow people to use the elevators, she isn't making enough. Also, one of her employees back-stabbed her by trying to trick the other two into quitting because she believed that my mom was "stealing" money from her and not giving her enough hours (which was complete bullshit, and when she got called on it she started bitching like nobody's business). My mom fired her immediately (she wasn't a good manicurist (cause she's 50), convinced clients that her shitty art work was of professional quality, even though we got complaints from the clients that the nail had begun chipping not fifteen minutes after, frequently fought with the other employees and always told my mom to fire the other woman, even though she'd done nothing wrong). Because my mom did, this 50 year old woman came to me and started fishing for information on how to take my mom down. Me, not realizing this, gave her the information she needed unintentionally, so this woman went to the houses of the other workers and tried to get them to quit so that my mom would have to file for bankruptcy. Unfortunately, she succeeded in getting one of them to quit (the one that she frequently fought with is the one that is still here).

So now, my mom and the other woman (I'll call her Julia) have to take on an array of clients by themselves since they can't suddenly cancel. Because of this, my mom has been forced to postpone our family vacation and work double time.

This caused her ovarian cist to come back.

I talked about the cist and how much the idea of her having surgery scared the living shit out of me and she was able to have the surgery without removing her ovaries (which she wanted), but now that it's back they say that when they have the surgery, they may have to remove them.

She's looking sicker and sicker each and every day, and her stomach has grown to look like she's five months pregnant, so wherever we go people are always like "Congratulations!"

Plus, my university expenses are not helping matters and the bills for both our house and her business are piling up. Our rent is due in a day and my mom doesn't even know if she can pay it this month. Considering our landlord is a bitch, we wouldn't be surprised if she handed us an eviction notice.

We're desperately hoping that we get money from Family Maintenance (that's when the government forcibly take $1000 dollars from our father and give it to us when he doesn't pay child support). The last time we got the check, we realized that because I'm now 18 years of age, we only get $800 instead of the full $1000, which is NOT enough for 4 kids and a single mom.

So now we're struggling to get by.

Also, I recently found out that I need a therapist (I know. Shocking right?) Yeah, apparently the mugging incident .com… hit me harder than I thought. I thought that I was fine since I'd forgotten about it after a while, but my high school counselor had suggested having me take a survey with a therapist group to see if I need a professional. A few days ago the guy called me and basically gave me a multiple choice test over the phone.

I fucking FAILED that bitch.

I forgot half the answers, had to ask him to repeat the question MORE than once, got distracted WAYYY too easily and kept getting irritated with him (which, according to him, are HUGE signs). Plus, I have trouble sleeping, have been having frequent fights with my family and friends and have PHYSICAL reactions when I go outside my complex (I LITERALLY only feel safe at my house or at my mom's work place. Other than that, I have chest pains, my hands sweat and I get wide-eyed).

So yeah, he told me that he had to share my answers with the other counselors, and after they talked about ym case he'd try to get me a professional therapist (which I'm not completely sure about because I've had BAD experiences with my high school counselors, and I literally don't trust ANYBODY except for my mom and little brother, Leonard with my problems (though I talk to Leonard more)).

Hearing that only made me MORE worried, because I don't know how much a professional costs! How was I supposed to pay for a therapist and my school fees, supplies and everything else! Plus, how was my mom is going to take it when she finds out that she's got a kid fucked up in the head cause of ONE THING that happened in her life (like seriously? I get PHYSICAL reactions when I go outside cause I got mugged ONCE? How pathetic is that? God).

So yeah, having to watch my mom getting so sick and not being able to take breaks if she wants us to stay alive, plus having to deal with school fees and realizing that I need a therapist has been keeping me up at night. I've been desperately searching for a job that I'd be comfortable with (other than my job at my mom's place) but it seems like no one's hiring, and my mom is LITERALLY struggling to keep herself from passing out every day. I'm running out of time.

So this is my last resort. I FINALLY got my new bank card today, so I'm setting up a account.

I'm setting up commissions. I don't want this money because I want to buy things for myself. I'm commissioning because I want to try and help my mom pay bills and the rent. I'm trying to get her to relax and FINALLY get her surgery done (because Lord knows how long she's been putting it off for us). I'm thinking about her health and about my family here, so please help me out.

More info at my deviantART account. It's my latest journal. Again, sorry to trouble you guys, but I'm kinda desperate right now