Hello my people, this is the next chapter in the self insert series. I give you a wonderful piece of information. Apparently Hasbro is looking for OC's to be background ponies and stallions in the new season. So if you have an Oc, I guess you would go to there face book or something like that and send them an image of your OC, (Obviously no Alicores, Zebras or Changelings. Or Griffins.) I am ill informed of this, but I can guess they want a background on your pony or stallion. I just thought I share that with my fans and people who just click this cause its there.
I wake up, this time in the morning. I can actually vividly remember my dream. It was about Circuit having some sort of problem with his horn and couldn't fight his opponent that was in the shadows. But his opponent gave off an evil laugh so cruel sounding a terrifying that it left him unsettled. "You will not succeed in you quest to bring him to his reality, I have summoned him here for one purpose, only one purpose." I woke up after that part.
I lift my covers up and was going to get out of bed. But the total chill of the morning air kept me under. "I think I'm going to stay in here for now." I say to myself and try to sleep some more. But after about what I could guess of about twenty minutes I hear a knocking on my door. "Hey you in there, come out side and breathe in the fresh air!" It was Pinkie pie. As much as I and every brony in the world would love to run around and cause merriment with Pinkie pie. The urge to be a sloth was stronger then my brony instincts. I frown. "Go away! I'm trying to sleep!" I yell out. I hear her say back. "Oh come on, we can have so much fun rolling around in the grass and jumping around and so much more!" She said with a bit of energy. "No! I want to sleep right now, please go away Pinkie." I yell back. It was a weekend and I must sleep until 10, other wise I get firkin pissed at everyone for no reason. "Well, I'll be around in case you want to come out!" She said almost in a rhyme. I could hear her hopping out side. I could also smell something else. Chocolate. My nose twitched at the smell. Soooo, good! I still lied there even though the scent was good, trying to resist the urge to get out of bed and eat whatever was producing that baked goods smell. My mind started to make ideas and assumptions on what it could be. Muffins? Cake? Cupckaes? GeneralSprinkles? Fudge? Wait, where does Generalsprinkles come in? uhhh, maybe its Cookies? My head raced for an answer to what it might be, but that also made me realize it must be Pinkie who brought this scent upon my nose. She was trying to lure me with food! Noooo! My only weakness! My stomach growled. I sigh in desperation, I close my eyes for a moment. Defeated by my own urges, I get out of bed despite the bitter cold of my shack and put my pants and shirt on. I walk over to the door, but then quickly turn around and grab my note pad and pencil. I reach for the door and turn the handle. Which I hear Pinkie start to jump up and down in one place. I smile a bit, knowing she was probably excited I was coming out.
I open the door to her with a basket in her mouth. "yay!" She said standing on one hoof while the rest are in the air. I smile and almost laugh. Then I ask. "What's in the basket?" She returns her hooves to earth." Which she then jumps over to me with the basket and holds it out to me to take. "It's for you." She said with a bit of her voice muffled with the basket in her mouth. I grab the basket and lift up the covering on it. There were Chocolate chip cookies! So many. I can only look at all of them, there was almost nothing but the cookies. Then Pinkie spoke. "There all yours. New friend, and there's a surprise at the bottom!" Knowing Pinkie, it was either a prank. Or an invite to a party. "Thank you so much!' My eyes get a little moist. "Its beautiful." I say looking at the Cookies. I take one out and eat it up with one bite. It was still warm from the oven of the bakery. The name of the bakery was unknown to me, in all my time watching the show. I have never heard or seen the name anywhere of the bakery. But that quickly left my mind as I began to feast on the cookies. Steve can eat his heart out on pork chops. I got Pinkies cookies! After about a minute of eating non-stop. Pinkie said. "Alright, maybe you should stop for a moment." I Stop immediately and just hold the basket in my hand. "Okay." I say with my voice muffled from all the cookie matter in my mouth. I swallow. "Now, Circuit asked me to come and get you." My face showed little confusion, but I was curious. "Why?" She closed her eyes for the happy eyes. "Because, Celestia wants all of us at her castle." I was going to ask why again. But knowing how Celestia is on the show, she probably didn't send anything else for Twilight to read. "Well, if I'm that important. Why keep her waiting?" I go inside and grab my pencil and note pad, chances are I'm going to need it for something. I don't smile but still say positively. "Let's go!"
About approximately 2 hours later.
After spending enough time trying to take in the fact that Twilight is an Alicorn now. I finally pushed the depressing feeling out and managed to talk a bit more, like my life for example with the mane six. I would ask them how's there's. But, I wrote a portion of it. So I didn't bother. I just talked about the different family members I have, what my home Province is. That sort of thing.
That was an hour ago, after getting of the train we made our ay to the castle, but I guess Cantorlot was shaky on humans as plenty of them seemed to either back up in fear, or just stand there stunned. But after being awkwardly stared at for about twenty minutes. We reach Cantorlot castle and the guards escort us to the throne room. Where I am now.
"Twilight." Said Celestia, happy to see her student. I bow to the princess almost like they did in medieval times, but I think that might have been unnecessary. "Thank you all for coming. I am sure you have made your self aquatinted with this human teen." "Yes, he is a very nice person. From what he tells us, he is liked amongst his group of friends." Said Twilight. "Tell me human, what is your name?" I stand back up and try not to look her in the eyes. I felt a little afraid to, but instead try to just look in her direction. "Logan." I say clearly. "Well Logan, from what Circuit has told me. You are not very… Stable." I didn't feel offended. I am sometimes. I almost destroyed a wall once after I got pissed off about something I didn't do, I never get mad but something snapped in me and I punched so hard the wall cracked a little. I also damaged my middle finger and ring finger on my left hand.
"I can be, under stress. But I do my best to keep things under control." "I sense your fear." I felt a little surprised, but if I should really let her know that I am? For the sake of the man who lives in the clouds, she's not a firkin dictator or something like Hitler, what's she going to do if you say I do? I breathe in and say. "I do." She smiles and says almost warmly and kindly. "Well you have nothing to fear Logan, if you have anything to fear its only fear itself." I can sort of feel some fear leave. I felt enough confidence to look her in the face. "O-okay…" I say stuttering a bit. "Now, I ask. Why have you come here to our world?" she asked calmly and sort of slowly. "I didn't choose to come here." She looks at me with that emotionless face I can recall as nothing. "What do you mean?" "I woke up during the night to a strange light show similar to the Crystal heart disrupting the love and what not, but then a star came from the sky. It hit me I could assume and I wake up in a hospital bed." "So a star brought you here?" She thought to herself. I just stand there looking up at her from where I was. I just looked to the mane six and Circuit. "You fell from the sky Logan, that what I seen." I don't even let the thought of invincibility come to mind as I take in the fact that I probably cheated death a third time. All in less then a day. Fuck yeah! I imagine the last words in team America's theme. Celestia talks again. "If you came from a star, which might be the way you go back." She got off her throne and walk past me and to the door. "Please, follow me to the library, my ponies." We walk for a minute or two until we reach the library.
The Unicorn guards opened the door for us. As I walk by, I say thanks. The book shelves lit up in a bright golden glow and hundreds of books come off the shelves. Celestia scans through them until she comes across one book Called. 'Phenomena's and other special occurrences in Equestria history.' She opened the book and explained. "There is a very start that Luna, my sister seems to have no control over." She stopped on a page which showed a start that appeared to be less bright then the others. "This star is called drino negative. It does not move in the sky but seems to disappear and reappear every four months." "Why can't Luna control this? Isn't it her ability as the Princess of the night to be able to control every constellation and star in the night sky?" She looked at me for a moment. Then back to the page. "This star seems to be out of her reach, but close enough that it is visible to the naked eye. But Star swirl the bearded disappeared around the same time this star appeared. It leads us to believe that this start under special circumstances that it may be the cause of your arrival. As from what Circuit tells me, you have a star in the exact same position in your night sky as this star." I'm no star gazer, but I did write this world, I made everything it should be. So I probably did make a star similar in place or two. Celestia closed the book and opened another that was some sort of field guide from Star swirled the beardeds personal log. "Star Swirl mentioned something about a dimensional path way between two worlds along drino negative in his log." "Wait a minute. Are you saying that Logans is here because the star opened some sort of 'door'?" Asked Apple jack. "Yes, Logan must have activated it somehow. But your mind does not reveal anything to show that you know." She said after I started to feel light headed for a moment. "I just really want to go home to be honest." I say a little quietly. "Well what ever it is you did on that night, you are going to have enough time to figure it out. As it won't be for another four months until the star appears again." I lose some feeling in my soul. I have to wait four months for my chance to do this? Well its better then being stuck here forever. Actually that may not be as bad depending on your perspective in life. "So, I ask for you all to be dismissed and to stay in a Cantorlot royal suite that has been pre set for your arrival." I start to walk away with everypony. "Thank you Princess, I didn't have anything better go back to anyway." I say. "Wait Logan, you must stay with me for a bit longer. There is more I need to ask, alone." There was some sort of tone in there that made me feel a little worry. But I wave good bye to them and follow the princess back to the throne room. We stand in the center of this room and she then says. "Luna tells me of your loyalty to her." Oh shit! Here is where the good go bad! I gulp. "Yes, I uh- feel as the night has equal or slightly more value then the, day?" I say a little slowly in fear that it might result in some sort of horrible consequence. She said "You seemed very confident with your words during the night, why so different?" Fuck, what else other then the truth? "I um…" I get out trying to figure out how to put it in a way where she wouldn't do something drastic. But the fear was starting to kick my thoughts out, and made me want to leave rather then go on. "It's kinda… Well, I." I try to say something about my words. But she just smiles a little. "Your words seemed to make her stand a bit taller during last night, your words must be inspirational to her somehow." I start to feel some fear leave, but not all. "Well, what I said was true about the night…. Aaand so was what I said about Luna." I say truthfully. Perhaps I need to lighten up a bit and be myself, after all she can put up with Rainbow Dash and Pinkie pie. Maybe she could handle my form of talking. But regardless of my thoughts, I look down almost feeling sad and worried. "Why are you looking down? Did you lie about your words? Are you not proud of them?" She asks, I raise my eyes up to look at her with my blurred vision as my glasses were not in front of them now .I say. "No, I… didn't lie to a princess!" I say a bit louder, showing my emotion a bit. "I am also a little shaky on my pride now a days, it can mean nothing in a lot of situations to a lot of people." I say. "You mustn't be afraid, I will not hurt you Logan. I am sworn against it and I will listen to your words and take them seriously, after all. You seem to write our world the way it is, you have more power then I do over what happens." I open my eyes wide in shock, how did she know that? "Ummm, just how do you…?" I stop realizing that that light headed feeling from earlier when her horn glow was her reading my mind! Oh shit! She's seen every last detail of everything that is on my mind twenty four seven! The clops! The fictions! The language! Even the… masturbation. I shut my mouth as soon as it comes to mind, I also felt extreme fear. I started to sweat and felt like trying to run out of there. But she is still asking me questions, and my dumb need for reputation and kindness is greater.
"Then well, if you know that… Then you must know, everything else that goes on in my mind." I say with a bit of worry in my voice. She reaches her throne and sits down on it. "Yes. I do." She said. "Uhmmm, even the… personal stuff?" I say. "What? I can't see your personal life and certain things, I only searched for your reasons to be here and what you said to Luna." "I keep my mouth closed. She frowns a little. "You seem to have a heart that is with love and care, but you should not grow any sort of attachment or love that your group of people wishes to develop with them, you know you will leave eventually and it would leave them with depression and heart ache. Do you understand this?" She said seriously. "I understand, Princess." I say. "Good, you must also be aware that I will call you back here alone on the night the star reappears to hopefully send you back. You must also try your best to figure out how to get back. I will give you Star swirls notes about this star and any other book about it for you to study." I turn around and start to walk away. But say back. "My home is a little shack close to the ever free forest, you can send my books there." I open the door. "I'm not done yet!" She said. I close the door and turn around a little frightened. She sighs at how scared I look. "Luna has also requested to talk with you after I was done." "Oh. Okay." I say. "Royal guard!" She yells out. The door opens behind me with one of those guards actually speaking for a change for more then a word. "Yes princess Celestia?" he said with his helmet taken off and held under his chest. "Show the human to Luna's quarters." He put his helmet back on. "Yes Princess." He turns around to me. "Follow me." He said and walked towards the open door which I follow with. After walking through a couple of corridors. I come upon the door I remember writing in description as, the door to Luna's private quarters. It also still bared her cutie mark on it. "I was instructed to stay near and take you to your suite when you are finished, I will wait outside." He then stood next to the door and opened it with his unicorn magic. Which Luna seemed to be sitting on her bed. "Hello human." She said without a sort of emotion. "Uhmm, you… Wanted to see me?" I say. "Yes, please come in." I walk forward into the room, wondering if it was even a good idea to come here. The door closes behind me.
If what Celestia said was right about heart ache and depression, I might be in for some sort of dozy if I don't clear up my words with Luna. But… I meant them, I felt so confident about them. Why should try to cancel them? I could almost see a picture of Celestia appear next to my head saying. "Do what is necessary Logan, or you will cause great pain for others." Is it really that big of a deal? She's an alicorn for god sake, she's going to live long enough to find another being to appreciate her. Hell, I'm sure Circuit still works under her moon. "Are you alright Logan?" She asks with a little concern. I'm taken from my thoughts and my attention goes back to Luna. "Uh yes, there's a way for me to go back." I say with some happiness. "Uhm, isn't that great?" I say with the same level of enthusiasm. "It is unclear if you would be able to go back or not, not unless you can figure out how to get back." "I know, I am going to try to figure that out when I get home tomorrow." I say. "I was going to ask if thou wish to engage in a bit of conversation tonight over some, crumpets and tea." I felt my spirits lift for a second. "Are you asking…?" I only get out as there was no other answer but I was sure it could have been something else. She thinks to herself for a moment. "Well… I believe you may perceive it as a date." She said with a bit of a smile. I fall over almost without any feeling. She stands up with her eyes smaller. "Are you okay Logan?" She said with absolute concern. I need a mister bission hat! YYYEES! "I accept." I say on the floor.
A few hours later.
After discussing some other things with Luna, such as what else does my kind think of her and such. I am finally given the permission to leave and the guard takes me to my suite. I left Lunas room with a piece of parchment saying the name and address of the place where we would meet up and what time. With the thoughts of what we would be doing later tonight still racing through my head. I decide to walk around Cantorlot seeing if anypony needed any help with anything. But it seems to be a well organized town, which seemed to be almost unaffected by everything I wrote. I did finally come across somepony who was in some sort of trouble. But I really didn't need the pencil and paper for this one. "Stop thief!" A Stallion about the same size as twilight with a green coat had just taken a bag from a rich pony. I was going to chase after him, but the fear for my own being started to kick in. What if I get hurt!? SCREW GETTING HURT! GET IT BACK TO THEM! "I'm no hero." I say to myself. The pony sees me. "Please… what ever you are, help me!" The strength of a plea for my help specifically seemed to out weight my own personal safety concern. As I bolt into action and chase after this stallion. I tackle him after chasing for a few minutes. "What are ya bloody doing space thing?" He said with Australian accent. He smacked me in my jaw which now hurt badly. But I seem to be immune to its pain and start pounding his face with my fists. It hurt, but it felt good to dish it out for once. I grab onto his head and slam it into the ground. "What did I do to you bloody freak?" He said. He kicked me in my crotch and ran away dropping the bag and running away. I was left with me on the ground holding myself with the pain his hoof did to my nuts. I can only hold onto the bag as the pony he took it from started to get here. "Oh my bag! I really needed a lavender scented bath today, other wise I would have to smell like a honey comb." She said not even concerned with the pain I was in. After a few seconds it seemed to kick in that I saved her fucking night. "Oh my, are you okay?" She said to me. "Oh not bad, I just got hoofed in my nuts for your bath lady!" I say a little irritated. "Well thank you very much… Creature." I heard some magic being performed. My body felt all tingly and my pain in my groin disappeared. I stood up and finally saw who this pony was. It was that one that hung around Fancy pants during the time Rarity was making Twilights birthday dress. I don't remember a name being given at any point, it's on the internet but I don't care too much. She pushes her mane to I guess to show her beauty. But I can care less. "As a mare of my beauty it's important to smell as good doesn't it?" "I guess." I say without interest. "Well if you go to the kettle droplets at any time. Tell them to put what ever it is on Fancy pants tab, the password for it is forty three rules of elegance." That's the name of the Café I wrote up for Circuit and Luna's date in the origin! "Thanks!" I say with a bit of a smile. She walks off with her bag of stuff, while I stand there still left with slight pain in my jaw. I walk back to going around. For a town full of rich ponies and stallions. There seemed to be an underworld of thieves and crooks. I guess the royal guard has been trying to get them as I can see there are royal guards posted all over as I walk. Some were just goofing off at tables doing infancy things like hoof wrestling, or being sure there weapons were sharp. I do notice a small filly that was being picked on by some bigger filly. "What's it to you that I'm bigger? Easier to pound you because of that lesser!" I hear a red one say to a scared and bruised blue filly. I have the chance I always wanted, to stop bulling. "Hey little one!" I say. She turns around and sees what I am. "A human?!" She says surprised. I look at her without emotion. "I think you better skedaddle before I find somepony who knows ya mother." "Wha…" She said backing up. "You must get great joy out of beating up little ponies do ya?" I say a little irritated and walking forward. "I eyaaaa…" She stuttered. "Well It makes me sick to think that even ponies here are beating the other's up just to release there problems on others. Why don't you go back home and talk to your parents, before I figure out who they are!" I say angry. The filly ran like hell which leaved the little blue one safe from harm. I crouch down and help her up. "Thank you Human! I would tell somepony, but I just can't think of anything else other then what she would do to me!" She gripped onto my leg hugging it thankfully. I smile and laugh a little. "It's quite alright. I was just using my voice for those who can't." She let go and ran off. I felt good, I did well.
Time later…
I am sitting at the café that I was to meet with Luna, the night tonight was absolutely stunning. All the stars could be seen clearly and even I could see the Milky Way. But it felt off, probably because this was a different dimension.
I had no clue what constellations was what, mainly because the constellations here are totally different then the ones on earth. I'm sure Luna could tell me if it was such a big concern. These are her starts after all. I had ordered a small tray of Biscuits and a tea with two cubes of sugar for myself. It eventually came out. "Put it on fancy pants tab." The server did not even care what I was. He had, I could guess. Seen it all. "The tab has a password." he stated. "Forty three rules of elegance." I say. "It will be two Silver bit and twenty bronze bits." He said and put the food down. The cup was a little small, but it was meant for ponies. Not humans, as I keep reminding myself, even the table and chairs were meant for the rumps of ponies and stallions. I eventually see a dark blue ball appear a couple of feet in front of the café. Which materlized Luna, who saw me right off the bat. "Hello Logan." She said a bit happy. I smile. Good to see you smile. "Hey Luna, nice work." I say raising my hand up pointing to the sky. She looked up and said. "Thank you." She took her seat. Inside I was feeling something that was… unexpected. Anxiety, why? I have no Idea. Maybe it's because she's one of the many ponies in my crazy mind that I would put in such a setting. I had imagined this setting for Circuits origin, but I was living it. Still the feeling started to grip my chest. I am just doing my best to hold my facial expression. After all it never stays long, I just need to think of something to say to start the conversation. Then the anxiety will hopefully disappear.
"So what is it like on your planet? Besides what you told me." She said. "Well, I have a group of friends. We usually have a good time when we eat lunch together." I sip my tea. Sweet and tasty. "Sometimes we would tell jokes, other times we would make observations and do something with that. Or even just talk about our day." She nods. She was paying attention, I could guess it wasn't the most interesting thing to hear. But she asked. "Most of the time though I'd have my best friend sit next to me, Austin." "This Austin, how is this Austin your best friend? Do you partake in many activities with?" She asks. "He's male, and we try our best to do thing together when we can. There are times when we can't get to each others homes. Mainly because there's no extra cash to spare to this." I state. I eat one of the biscuits. Tasty too. "Why should money matter? Can't you walk there?" A slight laugh comes out when I say. "No. it's too far for that." Luna speaks now. "I have friends, though honestly I see them more like acquaintances." I pay attention, listening to every letter and word. "I do find it rather nice to be around Twilight Sparkle and her group of friends. But I am not friends with them." "Why is that?" I ask. "I do not do any activities with them, I do not consider them my friends but rather acquaintances as when the time came to grace there town they showed me how to act to the villagers." I almost smile, but knowing it would be perceived as me thinking its funny, I just remember the Episode Luna eclipsed. "I share a bond with my sister, she is my friend." "I would think so being the only two Alicore sisters on record in Equestria history." I state. "Then there is Circuit, he was a very nice stallion. He seemed to be of the first to truly recognize the full purpose and appreciate my moon and stars to the fullest." She looked back at me with a little smile. "We did have a 'date' one night. But then the changeling came and attempted to assassinate him." That was still a clear image in my head. From every view point I could see it. "I am just a friend to him now." She sighs. "Although some days I wish we had stayed together, sure there would not be much benefit from us, what with what he does to earn a living." Circuit being an inventor and tinkerer, he had to spend a lot of the day and night making machines and devices just to earn a living. He may only have enough time to spend with friends for about I could guess from what I wrote about him, that he probably spends only two hours a week to spend with friends. He had to make time to go about searching for changelings and the base when Mecha & Logan was still in effect here. Luna on the other hand had her duties as the princess of the night to make sure everything was to perfection with her moon and stars, even make sure the wave's where no pony would see is working correctly. She might have a little less to do at night, explaining the time she had to come here. But she probably was very busy at times.
"It was for the best, he is happily married to Fluttershy." "Do you, talk at all? To him?" "On occasion. But it's when I have enough time to come and see what he is working on. Once I a while he has a project that he says I have to see him work on. I am happy to come and see what it is." She said with a smile. "But sometimes, it's a little… Much." She said making me wonder if Circuit is even trying to help Non-unicorns anymore. "Why is it so much?" I sip some more tea. "His inventions are intended to give ponies that aren't born unicorn to experience what only Unicorns can." "What? Things like Magic casting?" I ask. Even though I already knew the answer. "That is something he talked about once. But he hasn't done anything on it. He more or less works on the basic things Unicorns can do." "Like teleporting?" "That he perfected a few years ago, it is soon going to be a thing villagers will have public access to soon." "He must be doing well for himself." "It's a patent design." She stated. I think for a moment. "Did you become friends with Discord after you two… broke up?" She looked down for a moment. "He is, never around. No pony has seen Discord ever since the end of the plague." My eyes open. "I seen him!" she looks back up without expression but I can see curiosity. "Really? Where?" "In Ponyvill actually, he helped me build up courage to do and put me in the situation to help the town. I have him to thank for making it possible." "That would explain the Pegasus awe and confusion when it started to rain bread." She said. I crack a smirk and laugh a little inside. "Yeah, I caused the food weather." I say a little bit proud. "Discord did not cause the weather? Why did he not do anything to help?" "I guess he wanted me to do it." I say. I am sure that was it, after all how else was I going to do what he can do if I can't get my balls in a well enough order to do it? "Well, I can say on my behalf, thank you for your service to Equstria Logan." My head starts to course with many pictures I have seen of Luna on deviant art. The good ones, ones that look wonderful, story related pictures. Everything. But none of them seem to match up with the real thing in front of me. "But no, I and Discord are not friends." "Well, I'm not some sort of guy with life experience. But you should try to be friends at least. After all if you two can friends. It might benefit the both of you in the long run." I state. "Perhaps it would. But I feel it would be better to move on rather then work on another type of relationship." I decide to try and change the topic.
"Being beings of curiosity, my kind has tried many things. We went to our moon." She stays quite. I know it doesn't look like it, but I think she felt a little off. I could sense it in her well being, I have this strange ability to do this. "I'm sorry. Does this topic feel too uncomforting?" I ask with concern. "It is." She said looking down with a bit of a sad face. "My bad, I was just trying to talk about my kind's moon. I know very well how it feels to be an outcast as you were. I literally was in terms of socially." "She looks at me questioning. "You did have friends though, right?" "No. When I was a little kid, I had no friends. I was bullied for a bit. But it never kicked in that I was, I didn't even know what a bully was at that time." I say feeling saddened. The memories of my bulling came back. They seemed to flow in my head like water in a pipe. "A lot of the time it was being punched and rocks being thrown at me, I was just trying to play most of the time. I'd also receive threats at times." I just tell the people on duty who were supposed to be sure we were all safe. But it never got through to them how things were turning out." She looked at me differently. Her face showed sympathy. "I started to get my own voice out, but that only started to happen when I got to be in grade 3. But at that point they had gotten more aggressive. They would kick me in my privates if I said something that offended them." "Well, I can see you must have had a rough childhood." She said. "Being an Alicore, we were treated with respect." I continue. "But I developed a lot of height after grade 5, but my bullies didn't. I also developed a lot of muscle mass." She seemed to give a little smile. "So that was where it stopped?" I shake my head. "No, the seed of fear was planted in me. I had no desire to fight back, it felt like they got nastier when I got smarter. I knew I could take them, but what would it prove?" I say. "That I was stronger and they were weaker? Yes, but would it teach them anything? No. They would just move on to the next person." I look back up to her which she did not show any emotion on her face. "So I choose not to do anything. I was sure they would go to someone else if I stated to do something. I didn't want to see anyone else get hurt or damaged more then I felt." There was silence between us for a minute or so, which I take to drink my tea and have a few biscuits. "It died down, but I could see people being picked on. I felt like I could do nothing." "How does this speak to social outcast?" She said suddenly. "No one wanted to be near someone who would never have there back in something. I was passive, I never speaked out or spoke for anyone. I also was really shy." "So… When did you find friendship?" I was sure she was talking about my friends. "Well, my first friend was great at first. He was great until he started to become a bully. I put my foot down at this one girl. He backed away and bothered other people. I developed a friendship with this girl. Her name is Allison, just so you know." I state the last part." We grew on each other, She gave me courage to have her back as she had mine. We stopped our own bulling together as friends and became very close through out our pre teen years." She nods. I sigh as things were starting to get difficult. "Then when we became teens. My own mind started to play with me, making me start to become unstable. I had no father to look after me. Just a string of my moms boyfriends who made sure I was fed. Which meant I had no love from a fatherly figure. I had lost my desire to even try to make friends, I had the little group Allison made for all of us to be in. I loved every moment I had with her, school related or not." I smile thinking of those days. "But then it came up. They were moving. It hurt me so much on the inside." I say with sadness. I had a wonderful friend, one who cared for me if I had hurt myself. She was the reason I got caught up in the fandom of the show. "I… Thought I couldn't live a day without her." I say starting to feel my soul bearing words rather then my mind. "My life felt screwed without her, I think of her every day of my life. Wondering how things would have been. If she didn't move." I say finally. The conversation seemed to reach a peak. "I had moved not to long after, to this great new place. I was 14, I couldn't believe the luck I had in friends." I sigh in sadness. "Yet it never felt right. Not without… Her." I can feel some tears roll down my check. "I can't think of what to say." She said a little sad from my tale. "I have never needed anypony other then my sister and our parents." I think this is the first time I actually spoke to someone about my life before I moved. Even if I told someone who couldn't change anything about it, it still felt good to get it out to someone who would listen. "You know why I became Nightmare Moon." She said. It was not the same, but it felt close in my head. I look her in the eyes. "Your lucky to have what you have, born as a powerful being. Humans are born without any sort of strength. Our own throats usually have to be cleared just to breath at birth." I state. I look back down at my tea. Having said enough. "Why do you tell me? Why not someone like your own mother?" I don't know the answer to that question. I never did tell anyone about my social life up until I was in grade nine. I can think of only to make her feel more to me rather then to feel like she needs to just appreciate her life more. "Well, in a way. I modeled after you. I think I told you because I truly feel like you'd listen. I'm sure anypony would listen. But I felt like it needed to be the person whose life was in a way, a life that had its own share of pain and loneness." I could not feel anything for a few minutes. I just sipped my tea. I had noticed that the biscuits were almost gone, Luna had probably been eating them. She probably knew I didn't mind if she took some. "Tell me Logan, your planets horses, do you like them?" "I don't hate them, they are just things we ride on now for show or just breed for there rareness in type. They were of great importance in history as they were the only thing to use in travel before steam engines. I just see them as a thrill if I get to ride on there backs." She smiled. "How would you like it if I fly you around Cantorlot on my back?" My eyes open wide and I start to feel energetic. "Really? That would be cool, but I um… have a fear of flying." I say the last with less excitement. "Well, one does have to face there fears Logan. Perhaps you should try now." She says. I look down. "I think I have fears for a reason, because there danger related." I state. She thinks for a moment. "Oh please, fear is just a state of mind, and I will make sure you are safe while we are flying. It is, as your group of humans would probably say. A chance of a life time." I frown slightly. "Everything I have experienced is a lot more then a life times chance, it's more like a thousands live time." "Well it makes it that much better doesn't it?" She says. I feel it, the loss of my sanity is starting to come again. I almost feel like running over to her and jumping on her back and saying 'Fuck it! Let's do this shit!' But my sanity was still with me, just diminishing. "I don't know. Can I think about this?" I ask. "Of coarse."
Do I really want to go up into the air on nothing but the back of a horse? What am I thinking? It's LUNA! Not 'a horse'. If anything she is going to keep me safe. It is a chance of so many lifetimes that no person can count without dieing first, But at the same time I could potentially fall. What do you have to fear? Luna will keep you safe. She can't catch you! She has hooves! Not hands you retard! Hooves can still grab in this world and do everything humans can! She is not very fast in the air like Rainbow Dash. Rainbow Dash is not exactly giving out kiddy rides you know, Luna is offering one on a silver platter and you are going to turn it down? Where's your adventure? Where's your recklessness you had when you were a boy? They died in the spike pit in the temple of maturity. Screw off buddy! We got here first so beat it! Beat it! Come on just beat it beat it! STOP THE FUCKING MICHEAL JACKSON! WERE SERIOUS, YOU CAN'T TURNS THIS DOWN! Fucking voices in my head! Sometimes I wonder if I actually am sane or not what with everything I know and love hearing. But the final decision comes through after about two minutes of fight internally. "Okay." I say really quietly. I feel something slide under the seat of my pants and I slide down the neck of Luna. "Let us go forth!" She said with some encouragement. "Wo! Wait!" I say but am ignored as we fly up into the air. The wind rushes past my ears, but I am too scared to do anything but wrap my arms around her neck and hold on. "Ooooohhhhh Shhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!"
Yes so I'm fucking terrified of flying, but to be honest. It's in my dreams a lot about flying. Also I would also like to let people know that the first chapter of the new student is in fact, ready for viewing. The roster for next week:
Zombie's, Equestria Edition.
The self insert story of Logan James Kalden
The pony plague of the undead
The two zombies related one are because Nightmare night (Halloween) is a few weeks away. If you like what you readied, go ahead and leave a comment or just a thought filled review showing maybe an idea or review, even if you liked it. If you want to see more of my work check out my fan fic page where all my other work is in progress or even just send me a PM to tell me personally what you thought, if you have an idea. Or if you have your own OC you might want to add to one of my stories as I'm always open to a new and wonderful character to add to the continuum that is my writing world.
Remember my reading bronies. If a picture is worth a thousand words, then is like a smaller version of Deviant art. It's just really hard to see the true beauty in it all sometimes.