GOD AT LAST I'M ACTUALLY DONE!!! It took me such a long time sorry for the wait people. and well hhmm this seems kinda long doesn't it. *sigh* oh well. so here's my fanfic hope you enjoy. f.y.i. this is all Ichigo's pov k? k

Lost memories

Chapter 4

Ichigo's POV

When we were on the way to Matsumoto's room, I can't help but to recall the painful memory I had, the memory of the day before Toushiro has forgotten about himself.

Flashback

"Hey Toushiro! You wanted to see me?" I asked running towards my teal eyed friend.

He was wearing his gigia and surprisingly he wore casual clothes. He wore a black shirt that had a blue dragon drawn at the back and extending a little bit to the front. The black shirt had made Toushiro's snow coloured hair stand out more and made him dazzling as ever. He also wore jeans that had about 4 pockets or so and a black and white chequered arm warmer at his right arm. He looked amazingly handsome the way he dressed up and I couldn't help but whisper to myself; "Wow you seriously look great Toushiro."

Miraculously I think he had heard my soft voice since I noticed a slight blush crept upon his face as he said "It's Hitsugaya-taichou to you." I can't help but smile at the sight. It made him look so innocent and cute.

"Yeah yeah" I replied chuckling at my snow haired friend. "So what did you want to talk about?" I continued, sitting at a park bench that was only a few feet away from us.

"Well it's just that......" I heard him mumble. I just looked at him questionably and waited for him to continue what he was saying.

"Tch how can I say this?" he said in a much clearer voice while shuffling his snow coloured hair with his right hand. "I kinda got this well feeling the last few weeks. It's like.....ugh..... I don't know. I guess I feel as though............ fine *sigh* Icanthelpbutfeelattractedtoyou." He continued with a soft voice and his face slightly blush again like before.

"What?" I asked sounding shocked (and maybe a little hopeful) wanting to confirm if what I have just heard was correct. Is it me just thinking (well more like hoping) or is Toushiro telling me that............ it can't be can it?

He sat down beside me putting his elbow on his knees and his chin on the palm of his hand. "Well I don't know either but Kurosaki I think I.... well....." he said blushing harder. He looked straight in my eyes as he leaned in closer to me only a few inches away from my face. I could feel his warm breath touching my lips and it gave me good kind of shivers. As I saw him slowly opening his mouth to actually make sense of what he was saying his words were cut off by the feeling of a very strong reiatsu that shocked both of us.

"What the hell was that?!" I said surprised as I looked around us. Finally I saw an Arrancar slowly going down from the cloudless dark night. The Arrancar looked like a girl. She had long crimson red hair, green orb like eyes and pale skin. She was wearing a black long sleeved shirt with some white stripes in the arm and a black skirt that had a hint of white stripes in them as well that matched her top. She looked pretty but I could see that there was a hint of loneliness in her green orb like eyes.

"Well looky here, I finally found you Toushiro." I heard her say chuckling and giving an evil smile directed at us (or maybe just Toushiro).

"You know her?" I asked Toushiro with confusion.

"Tch I guess you can say that." He said as he narrowed his eyes and swallows a pill that separated his soul from his gigia. "Get out of here" I heard him command the mod soul that was now in his gigia. Without hesitation, the mod soul followed and went to a place to hide.

"Why are you here Andrea." my teal eyed friend yelled at the arrancar that was in front of us."Aw it seems like you don't want to see me here Shiro-chan." the red haired Arrancar that replied.

"Hey who the hell is she Toushiro?" I practically yelled the question as I did not want to be out of place. As I said that I saw her green orb eyes glare at me that shook me a bit.

"Hmmm are you letting random people call you by you first name now Shiro-chan." She said obviously talking about me. "Well for you information I am Shiro-chan's lover" she continued sounding proud and very happy.

I was surprised at what she has said. 'Toushiro's lover? That's impossible right?' I thought to myself feeling a jolt of pain in my chest. "Don't believe her Kurosaki." Toushiro said immediately as soon as he heard what the arrancar implied. "Ah hai" I answered back a little surprised by the sudden reaction that Toushiro had given off.

I saw her glare at me again and it made me shiver (bad one this time). It was like she was giving me death messages, telling me that I should leave or she'll kill me painfully and slowly.

"I said WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE ANDREA!?" my little friend said sounding infuriated. "Hmm, how rude of you to shout at a lady Shiro-chan. I wonder what the people in soul society have done to you when I was away to make you this bad-mannered." She said still giving me horrible death glares. "*sigh* Oh well I'll just have to teach you manners again. After I have dispatched you from the human world and soul society." she continued

At a blink of an eye she was already at Toushiro's back and immediately swung her Zanpaktou at Toushiro. Luckily he sensed her presence fast enough to block it with his own.

"Kurosaki back away." I heard him command me. "but...." I said wanting to reason out with him and fight beside him. "Back away now Kurosaki!" I heard him shout. As I noticed his eyes that had a hint of sadness and were pleading me to leave, I immediately backed away but near enough to see what is happening.

"Arigatou Kurosaki." I heard him whisper. I felt a cold air run by me as I heard those words. It made me worry very much.

As I backed away I saw Toushiro look straight into the arrancar's eyes a hint of sadness in them. "Why would you want to kill me?" Toushiro asked with a soft voice that I almost didn't hear.

I heard her chuckle wickedly as she said; "Easy so that we may be together at Huecco Mundo forever." She emphasised the word forever as she pushed Toushiro away with force using her Zanpaktou.

That seriously made me furious and at the same time made me want to fight her but as the look on Toushiro's eyes flash across my mind it made me rethink of what I was going to do. In the end I chose to wait a little bit longer hoping that nothing bad will happen.

"Tch you weren't like this before Andrea you were different. You were kind and gentle, what happened?" I heard Toushiro asked still on guard and the sadness in his voice was obvious.

"I was left alone. Everyone went away....nobody cared......and well I don't want that to ever happen again" the red haired Arrancar said as tears fell from her eyes.

"but I guess I wouldn't worry anymore cause you're gonna let me kill you right Toushiro?" She said wiping her tears away while smiling devilishly.

She quickly flash stepped towards Toushiro, swinging her Zanpaktou again. Toushiro blocked it like before but this time he was the one that pushed her back.

"Gomenasai Andrea, I'm not dying soon. My mission has still yet to be fulfilled" he said seeming very serious. 'hhhmm I wonder what his mission is?' I asked myself with much curiosty.

"Well then I have bring you to Huecco Mundo by force." Andrea said as she held up her hand open in the air. Then soon she directed it at Toushiro with a red light forming in the palm of her hand.

"Cero!" I heard her shout as she launched the red huge energy ball towards Toushiro.

Toushiro, who was off guard, got hit by the cero and sent him flying to the slide in the park. "Toushiro!!!" I shouted as I quickly ran towards him. As I reached him I helped him stand up. He was coughing out a small amount of blood.

"Tch what the fuck's wrong with you?!" I told her as I saw Toushiro's present condition. "You wouldn't know how I feel. You wouldn't know what it would be like to loose someone precious to you." She said as a response to what I have said.

That seriously made me irritated. 'ME NOT KNOWING WHAT THE SADNESS OF LOOSING A PERSON FEELS LIKE!' I couldn't hold my anger much longer, so I charged towards her.

It sent her flying only in a short distance at the force I inflicted on her. Shortly enough she got on her feet again and wiped the small trickle of blood along her check. "Tch you a nuisance" I heard her say staring at me with those green orb like (deadly) eyes.

'Is she trying to piss me off?' I thought to myself, a vein popping out from my head."*sigh* Why do I have to put up with such a weakling? Get out of my way. Your preventing me to reach my goal." I heard her say, shrugging me off. 'WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!!!' I thought out loud. K maybe calling me a nuisance is still ok but calling me a weakling. Tch this girl is really asking for trouble.

"Getsuga Tenshou!" I shouted out loud slashing my sword in the air releasing a crescent moon shaped tangible energy towards the red headed arrancar. I was so shocked when she easily deflected it.

"Is that all you've got?" I heard her whisper, now behind me. As I turned around I felt her stab my stomach with her hand. "AAAAHHH!!!" I screamed in pain.

"Kurosaki!" I heard Toushiro call out my name in a sad, surprised and frightened voice. "Hmmm interesting. You have a nice past." She said looking amused. As she took her hand out from my stomach, I saw her lick the blood from my body of her finger. "Teme" I said not quite sure if she had heard me.

As she walked towards Toushiro I tried my hardest to stand up. I tried and charge at her again swinging my sword to slice her in half, but my eyes just widened in shock as I saw her change her form. She looked exactly like my mom and I couldn't dare force myself to hurt the figure.

"Tch, I guess you really are a weakling." I heard her say before she slashed my right shoulder. She slashed her blade at me from my shoulder to my left waist. I fell down immediately as soon as she had slashed me not even having the energy to scream.

My eyes were half lidded and I was breathing hard. I could have only seen blackness around me but then I think I heard someone scream my name out loud like before and it has made my senses a little clearer. The scream I heard sounded like the scream I had made when my mom died in front of me. It was full of fear of loosing someone. It was something I never actually wanted to hear again.

I tried to at least lift myself up a bit to see who screamed my name but when I slightly lifted myself up I saw Toushiro crash down from the sky.

'So they were fighting! And Toushiro actually lost!' I thought as I saw the unconscious little taichou laid down in front of me.

"Hihi, you are very close to you death now Shiro-chan soon we will be together. And to make sure you don't remember anything much that has happened I injected a drug on you that will take affect when you wake up." I heard her say looking happy and entirely please. "Hmmm wonder why I'm actually telling you this even if I know you can't hear me." She continued. "nya oh well. No matter now to finish my job...."

"BANKAI! TENSA ZANGETSU!" I shouted out loud as a cloud of smoke surround me and in a second I was already in a different clothing. "Ooohhh interesting so you have a bankai." She said turning back to face me her evil smile not disappearing.

Getting seriously irritated by her, having no more willpower to hold my deep furry, I ran my fingers across my face making my hallow mask appear.

"What the hell are you?" she said shocked as she saw the hallow mask that had appeard instantly in my face. I didn't say anything, she didn't actually need to know anything. I quickly shunpo over to her cutting her left arm completely.

She screamed in pain as blood poured out from her. "Damit" I heard her curse as she cough out blood and fell on her knees. In a second she stepped back away from me but I instantly chased her. As I swung my sword she blocked it with her own trying her hardest.

"I'm not gonna die......not yet" She said in short breathes. I didn't care what she said and just ignored it. Anger taking over me and the will to protect the one I loved, I uncaringly pronounced the words that will sent her flying and may even sent her to her grave; "kuroi getsuga." With that she flew from a distance out of my sight.

As I thought it was over I instantly rushed towards Toushiro's side. I shook him a bit while calling out his name. I didn't receive any response. With worry I lifted him bridal style and went to Uruhara's shop and asked him to open a door to soul society. He instantly followed my request and less than half an hour we were already at Seireitei. 4th squadrants where already at the end of the gate waiting for us. 'Uruhara must of told them.' I thought handing Toushiro to one of the squadrants.

I didn't want to let him go. I wanted to keep him in my arms until he wakes. I wanted to be the first one he sees with his teal orb eyes. But sadly I had a feeling it wouldn't come true as I slowly lost my own consciousness.

When I woke up the injuries in my body were healed and the pain I have felt physically was gone. The first this I have done after I woke up was to see Toushiro's condition. I saw him there sleeping like a baby. He was very cute and looked very innocent. Sadly the bandages in some parts of his body and the wounds he had in his face have left me to a worried state.

Then when he actually woke up I felt joy within me. But then knowing he doesn't remember anything left me to feel a lot of pain(emotionally). I blamed myself for what had happened. If I could've gone bankai sooner this wouldn't of happened and he would still be safe.

End of flashback

Until now I still blame myself for what had happened to my friend. The most important person for me. The person who I wanted to protect the most. I sighed in frustration when we were already in front of Matsumoto's room.

K peeps don't worry about the next chapter I'm working on it but it might take a while since god our social and math teacher are flooding us with

damn project. well I'd be releasing the new chapter of love struck too about next week so stay tuned. oh yeah don't forget to R&R. Im okay with

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