I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Numb- Linkin Park
Last time on When Shadows Almost Killed Your Light:
Fili slowly brought his hand over to his hip to take out his sword, but his hand grabbed nothing. He looked down and to find that his sword wasn't with him. He had left it in his room and forgot to bring it when he went searching for Kili. He swore and Kili's hand tightened around his bow.
Without any warning, a dark warg leaped straight at them from the shadows.
As fast as lightning, Kili loaded an arrow and shot the warg in the throat.
It fell to ground in a heap, struggling to stand to it's feet. It only lived a second more till another arrow pierced it's skull, finishing the kill.
They stood there in silence just looking at the creature. It's midnight colored hair now glistened with crimson.
Kili cautiously stepped towards the creature and pulled out the bloody arrows protruding from the body.
"We need to get home," Fili said. "Now."
Kili nodded in agreement. Before leaving Kili quickly gathered up all his arrows and the two brothers ran out of the forest together.
Fili sat on his unkempt bed as he watched Kili clean the warg blood off of his arrows.
"You have to talk with him."
"Actually, no. I don't"
"Kili, don't be a fool! Avoiding him won't solve anything!"
"And what will confronting him do exactly?"
"It will give you a chance to actually talk to him, face to face."
"I've heard all he has to say and all I want to hear," Kili snapped at him.
"Fine! You know what? Don't talk to him!" Fili cried, exasperated. "Do whatever you want, because I'm tired of little game the two of you play with each other! Kili, you take what others say too seriously! I'm sure if you just talk to uncle-"
"He'll what?" Kili interrupted angrily. "He'll say he's 'sorry' about what said? That he'll let me go with you all, on a whim, because I ask nicely?"
"Just show him how skilled you are!" Fili suggested. "We have to tell him about the warg anyway!"
"Fili, uncle doesn't care about how I can shoot with a bow. He only cares about dwarf weapons." Kili slumped down defeated on the bed, next to Fili. Kili leaned his head against his older brother's shoulder as Fili's arm wrapped around him.
"Just talk to him, okay?" Fili pleaded softly, leaning his head against Kili's.
"For me?"
Kili gave a reluctant sigh.
Fili smiled against Kili's dark hair.
The swords crashed together with a loud clang.
Thorin stood on the side lines with Dwalin watching the spar.
Fili gave another swipe with his sword as Kili narrowly avoided it by stepping to the left. Kili countered and swung his sword at Fili's side, which Fili blocked easily.
"You have to put more force into your attack, Kili!" Thorin shouted.
Kili took deep breath before attacking again. With all his strength he gave one massive swipe. Fili met the blow with the same force and the blades both smashed together. Fili recovered quickly from the attack and spun to the side lashing out with his sword. Kili jumped back, avoiding the blade, but leaving open to another attack. Fili's next blow came as a surprise as Kili hurriedly raised his sword, stumbling slightly. Using that to his advantage, Fili swiped at Kili's legs.
Kili fell to the ground with a huff and the sword clattered as when it met the ground.
Thorin gave a disappointed sigh as he watched Fili help Kili to his feet. When Kili looked to his uncle all he did was shake his head slightly and say, "Good job, Fili."
With that he stood up and walked away.
"Uncle?" Thorin looked up and saw Kili standing hesitantly in front of him. "Fili said I should talk to you about something. Something about a quest…"
Thorin sighed. He quickly explained everything about the quest to Erebor. Kili nodded.
"And you don't want me to go, do you?" he asked quietly.
There was a long a silence before Thorin shook his head.
"No. No, I don't."
Kili clench his fist and snapped his eyes closed. He breathed shakily.
"Kili, you have to understand that you and Fili are all I have left." Thorin explained. "I just can't bear the thought of losing you."
"So, what you're saying is that to show how much you care, you are going to take Fili and just abandon me hear?" Kili countered.
"It's not like that-"
"Then what is it like?" Kili snapped. "You also have to understand that you and Fili are also all I have left! I can't stay here knowing that you are out there fighting for our homeland and I'm stuck here, twiddling my thumbs!"
"You will respect my decision!" Thorin roared back at him. "You are immature and reckless! I would be leaving you behind, not just for your safety, but for the other's as well! You think yourself prepared for such a journey, when all you do is play around with that bow of yours! That pathetic piece of wood will do nothing in a real battle!"
"Well, this pathetic piece of wood saved my and Fili's life today in the woods!" Kili seethed.
Thorin sneered, "Oh, really?"
"Yes, really! Please, uncle, just give me a chance!" Kili pleaded, desperately.
Kili stared at Thorin with big brown eyes, silently pleading that he look past all his faults and give him a chance to prove to that he is ready. To prove to himself and Thorin that he's worth it.
"Okay."
Fili smiled when he heard his brothers shout of joy.
Maybe the old Kili is still in there.
Happy ending! (well of the chapter anyway, not the story) Sorry about the long wait, I just got up this morning and said "you're gonna finish and publish that chapter today." AND I DID! This chapter was definitely inspired by the song, Numb by Linkin Park. I was also busy writing a Thorinduil one shot. Review if you would want to read it. Otherwise I probably won't post it.
I know that there has been A LOT of fighting/arguments, but that's a common thing when going through conflict and not communicating properly. And I hope everyone liked the little flashback, it was my first time writing sword fighting so I hope it was okay.
The voting thing from the last chapter: So a lot of people wanted no pairings so I'm going with it. (Don't worry fellow slash lovers. I'm 100% sure I will do a slash story sometime.)
Current favorite song: The Phoenix, Fall Out Boy (SERIOUSLY GO LISTEN TO IT!)
R&R