Chapter 8
When I woke up the second time, it was Haruhi shaking my arm. "Tamaki... You stayed the night..." She said.
"Yeah I guess I did" I say with a small smile on my face.
"Isn't anyone going to be worried?" She asks. I think. No one is going to notice. No one cares enough to notice...
"No they will think I stayed and hung out with Kyoya or something" I say.
I see her eyes narrow slightly.
"You could have left you know, I would have been fine" she says, and I gently bring both me and her into a sitting position.
"I know you would have been fine, but I would have never lived with myself if I left and you woke up, alone, when the storm was still raging" I say. And I mean it.
"Tamaki..." She says suspicion in her eyes.
"Haruhi I'm going to make you breakfast" I say and when she tries to object I say "Nope since I was your, unwelcome guest, here last night, there's nothing I wouldn't do to make it up to you."
she blushes slightly and says "You weren't unwelcome Tamaki. You're always welcome here" She says with a small smile and my heart leaps.
She gets up and heads to her room. To get changed. I shudder remembering the last time I was near her when she changed. I get up and head to the kitchen. I open the fridge and see eggs. I smile. I pull out shredded cheese; I grab some bacon, and cut up some peppers.
I mix the eggs up in a bowl. I chop up the Peppers. I fry up the bacon, and I mix the cheese, peppers, and eggs together. Then, once the bacons ready, I add it to the egg mixture. I pour it all into a pan, and I let it become a scrambled egg mix.
By the time I'm done, Haruhi had showered, brushed through her hair, and gotten dressed. I give her half of the egg mix on her plate half on mine.
"Thanks Senpi" She says and I smile. I love it when she calls me that.
"Anytime Haruhi, anytime" I say.
After Breakfast, I help Haruhi clean dishes, she objects, but I counter and I win. She washes and I dry. Soon enough all the dishes are washed and she is still facing away from me.
Then she says "Why do you do this?"
I look at her confusedly. "What do you mean?" I ask.
"You know what I mean." she says "You're always here for me. Even when I don't ask you to be. You always treat me like I am so dependent on you, on everyone and I-"
"Haruhi. Listen, I never meant for you to feel dependent on us, but we are dependent on you. We all count on you, because you would always be there for us if we needed you, and we want to be there for you when you need us." I say. Guilt gnawing me from the inside out.
"But you're the one who's always there for me. I normally... I mean I can't...-"
"Haruhi I know what it's like. To always deal with things on your own. Because I always did that. Always. Then I found friends, I can count on. People like you. And it took me awhile... but I was able to start depending on them more and me less. I know it may be different for you, but we are always here for you." I say.
"Tamaki. I can always count on you. Sure I can count on everyone else in the host club. But it's always you that runs after me in a storm. Always you who jumps after me when I fall. Why?" She asks. I am shaking. I can't tell her... It's too soon. She won't trust me again.
"Because... I'm your father and that's what fathers do" I say. Disappointment swelling up in my heart.
Haruhi frowns. "Tamaki... We aren't related you know that right? We aren't really a family." She says.
"The host club is like a family to me... and I love everyone in my family" I say and she shakes her head.
"Well I have to study, so stay if you want, but I have work to do." She says. I nod. She heads to her room, leaving me in the kitchen. I sigh. Why didn't I just tell her? I think to myself as I grab my jacket, slide on my shoes, and walk out the door, utterly disappointed in myself.