CHAPTER 4

I woke up to a pounding headache and Negan rummaging around in the bathroom. I layed there for a while remembering the night before...it was terrible...but it ended really well...

"Wakey wakey!" Negan shouted as he walked into the bedroom fixing his hair. "we got a big day! Get in here and look in this mirror so you can see what I see" he said with a wink...what the hell did he mean.

I stood up covering my top half, which was completely naked, i had my panties on though. Slowly walked into the bathroom and looked up at the tall man "what do you-" he cut me off. "oh! were paying a visit to your people today! your coming." I smiled but something just felt off...thats when i looked in the mirror...

hickeys...not just one or two, they were all over my neck, my breast, my hips and my stomach... my jaw dropped when everything connected in my head and Negan could see the peices coming together in my mind as well...

i tried my best to replay the moments from last night until it hit me...this is what he meant by making sure i understood...

a tear rolled down my face "w-why would you do this? i cant go! Merle cant see this..." Negan chuckled "well hes gonna today!...and its not like you didnt want it princess..." he whispered as he stepped closer to me, his hands on my bare waist "in fact..." he kissed my neck sending shivers down my spine "you didnt...want me to stop" I let out a soft moan as i surrendered to him.

he spun me around pulling me close to him, and for the first time he pressed his lips to mine. One of his hands cupped my face while the other was on my hip, pulling me into him.

he pulled away and pressed his forehead to mine and looked me in the eye "now...are you gonna be a good girl from now on?" he asked.

"yes..." I whispered before he pulled me back into him, his tongue exploring my mouth as he picked me up by my ass and sat me on the counter.

shortly after that we got in the RV and headed to SafeZone, to see the group and for Negan and his men to get half our stuff...as much as i wanted to go i didnt want them to see me...not like this... ive never had so many hickeys and bite marks on me in my life...

Negan got out of the RV and i followed him "dont fuck up..." he whispered as we entered the gate. The first and only person i saw was Rick, i ran to him and he welcomed me in a warm hug as Negan watched out of the corner of his eye... Rick didnt ask about what he saw...he already knew...

"where is he?" i looked up at rick. "the house with tess...are you sure?" he asked concerned. "yes...keep her hidden...please" i looked out the corner of my eye to see Negan pacing as his men loaded things up. Rick walked off and i moved my way over to Negan "i cant do this..." i said looking at the ground "yes you can...you will." He said nodding his head and looking up giving me the signal merle was walking out.

I walked up to him with my head hung low...at first he didnt speak he just looked me up and down. i finally looked up, he just stood there taking it all in. "come on.." he mumbled turning to walk to the house.

once we got inside he turned to look at me just as i shut the door. "i need to know... " he growled. "know what" i asked in a timid tone.

"i get whatever the hell happened with the two of you..but i gotta know did he...?" i shook my head and thats when i saw the anger "no...it wasnt rape.." i said. "then what the hell was it! let me see! i wanna see all of it!" he demanded i began to cry and slowly lifted up my shirt and let him see it. "why..." he growled. "to keep my family alive! i did what i had to do!" i said "so fucking the enemy is what you had to do?! how many times!" he yelled "twice..." i cried.

"i didnt want to but i had to merle! i love you and i want you and tess safe!... he made me drink..." i said. "h-he left these because i didnt obey him...he knew this would happen..im so sorry merle.." i said wiping my tears as i wrapped my arms around him. "i love you..." he mumbled "i love you too..." he didnt let go of me for what seemed like forever. until i heard Negan call and he kissed me goodbye as i walked out, merle didnt come out because he and i both knew he wouldnt be able to control himself if he did...