Hi guys! I am proud to announce that this is being updated as scheduled! YEA!
I don't own Twilight.
Bella's "alarm" lyrics are from the song, "Suffocated" by Orianthi...a song in which I have been trying to master on Guitar Hero: Warriors of Rock. lol
And finally...I decided to add something in here at the beginning of each chapter...just for some entertainment. USELESS FACT FOR THE DAY: Your armspan (with arms stretched out to the side - from fingertip to fingertip) is the same as your height!
Now, on with the reading!
"Bella, that was amazing. I love you." Oh shit. He went and said those 3 words. "It in deed was amazing, and I know." I knew in my heart that I didn't love him the way he did me and I didn't want to say it back. If I were to, he would use that to get me to go home. I don't think Aro would take to kindly to that and I wanted to keep my life – thank you very much.
Chapter 4
BPOV
"In the beginning it was worth this
Do the worst, feel complete
Passing standards others meet
(What we do best)
Now perfect endings make you anxious
A heavy head, a colder sweat
Leaving nothing here, nothing to regret"
Uh. I threw my pillow over my head.
"Why am I still suffocated
I'm constantly devastated just to stay alive
Why am I still suffocated
I'm constantly devastated just to stay alive"
"I don't wanna get up!" I groaned into the pillow.
"I miss the old days that we murdered
They're so far gone, out of reach
Watch 'em fade with summer's heat
(Well it goes like this)
Without a break from this distraction
I need a change, a different scene
A new approach to coming clean"
"Bella, shit. Shut it off already! Why the hell is your alarm set so early? It's a fucking Sunday!" Wait. What happened last night?
"Why am I still suffocated
I'm constantly devastated just to stay alive
Why am I still suffocated
I'm constantly devastated just to stay alive"
I finally found the power cord and yanked that shit from the wall. It was still too early to bother looking for the reset button…let alone the snooze button. "What are you doing here, Jake?" Of course, it was probably muffled from under my pillow. I closed my eyes and tried to go back to sleep. Why was my alarm set again? Uh. I had too much to drink last night. Tylenol and water. That's what I need.
I groaned and sat up. "Bella, lay back down. I don't have to be home for a while." I looked at his naked back. Hmmm…I wonder….. I threw the comforter off him and, yup, he was naked. Looking down, I realized that so was I. "What happened last night and why are you in my bed naked?" He rolled over and stared at me with his deep brown eyes.
"You really don't remember?" I shook my head. "I saw you at the club, we all came back here to talk, you sent the other guys away – telling them you'd give me a ride home today, we talked, took a bath, had amazing sex, then went to bed. Now do you remember?" Wait a minute. I had sex with Jake? Oh fuck!
"Jake, about last night…I'm sorry. It was wrong for us to do that. I should have never brought you here. Now you're going to go run to Charlie and tell him what a fuck up his little girl is, aren't you? Tell him that I work in a strip club in Seattle and drink too much."
"No Bella. It isn't my place to say anything to him about how you are living your life. I am sure he would like to know that you are still alive though. He has been worried since the day you took off without a note or anything. At least call the man once in a while." I knew that he was just trying to look out for me, but that is my job now. I am 20 years old. Though, I guess he is right about calling Charlie. He may have not been much of a dad, but he was still my dad.
"Get dressed. We are going shopping and then I am taking you home." He shook his head and started getting ready. I couldn't help but watch for a minute as he got out of bed and walked out the room towards the bathroom. Damn, he is hot. Too bad I really don't remember the sex. I still can't believe we did that….that I did that. I hope this isn't going to complicate things.
Jake used to be in love with me. He never admitted it to me, but I could just tell that he wanted to be more than friends. Of course all this was before he started phasing. I only ever saw him as a brother. A younger, yet older brother. Younger because he was younger than me….older, because, like me, he was an adult trapped in a teenage body mentally. We once had a discussion about it and for the life of me, I don't remember what ages we had decided we were.
I heard the shower start and I quickly took advantage of it by doing my usual "wake and bake". The last thing I need now is a damn lecture again about the drug and alcohol usage. I opened my window and stuck the upper half of my body out it. As I took the first hit, I felt all tension leave my body. Under normal circumstances, I would be lounging in bed or on the couch doing this, but with Jake here, I'd rather go this route. I didn't hear the shower shut off and the next thing I knew, he was in my room. "Bella, what are you doing? It's freezing out and you're naked. Get in here."
APOV
I was watching TV for a lack of anything better to do…well, flipping channels would be a better description. I stopped on a channel as I heard Aro's voice. I decided to let curiosity overrule me and watched…mortified at what I saw. It was a commercial for a strip club called "The Other Side". Just as I was about to flip the channel, I saw her face. I had to rewind it 3 times before I could come to terms with the fact that I just saw Bella Swan wearing not much of anything dancing on stage. "Um, guys…come here." It was all I could coherently say. I was in shock.
Everyone ran in and I told them to watch carefully. I rewound it for the 4th time and let it play out. "What the hell?" Emmett of course would be the first one to say something. "Was that just Bella stripping?" I nodded, unable to allow words to form.
Okay, okay...I know you are wondering what the hell Alice is thinking...well, what all the Cullens are thinking. And...what's gonna happen with Jake? I know it is bribery, but...review and I may send you a little peek! 3 yas!