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Rated M for possible future lemons

BPOV

After a few hours of crying while sitting on the kitchen floor, I finally started to snap out of it and rein my emotions in a little. As I looked around I noticed that there were still groceries surrounding me.

Well those are ruined now.

I wiped the tears from my eyes, took a deep breath and stood up. I began picking everything up off of the floor and threw the groceries in the trash. I wasn't even hungry anymore, if I eventually did feel up to eating later I'd just make myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

Once the kitchen was cleaned up I started walking down the hall towards my bedroom. Having an emotional break down on my kitchen floor left me drained; I just wanted to take a shower, get cleaned up then climb into bed and sleep this nightmare off.

I started undressing then walked to the closet to put my dirty clothes in the hamper. I gasped when I opened the closet door. No words came to mind when I saw the sight in front of me, but tears did spring to my eyes. I was staring at a closet that was full of my clothes on one side; the other half just had empty hangers. The floor only had my shoes on one side and just a bare floor on the other half. I rushed to the dresser we had against the wall on the opposite side of the room; I pulled open the 3 drawers on the left side of the dresser…empty. All of Jacob's stuff was gone. Jacob was gone; he was really gone.

I crumbled to the floor as the tears that had started to well up in my eyes threatened to fall. Before I allowed the first tear to spill over I crawled over to the bed and climbed in. I pulled the covers up around my naked body and let the tears fall freely. I cried out my stupidity, my loneliness, and my regrets.

How could you have been so stupid Bella? How could you have left Edward in order to stay safe?

I had to leave Edward. I wasn't good enough for Edward, I never was. Edward would have left me again eventually. He would have broken my heart again. Jacob was my safe option to fall in love with and live my life happily.

News flash Bella, you never fell in love with Jacob. You told yourself that you could be, you knew from day one that you never would be in love with him. You knew that you would never feel for him even half of what you felt for Edward. You were never happy either, you only fooled people into thinking that you were. And the biggest part of this bit of information, you did get your heartbroken all over again.

Yes, I did get my heart broken again. Funny thing is; this was my own fault. Yes Jacob left me but if I had never chosen him over Edward then he never would have left me, he simply would have met this girl and imprinted while he was alone. I, me, all by myself, broke my heart. I cracked it at first by leaving Edward and finished completely shattering it now that I was all alone.

I drifted in and out of sleep; I don't even know how long I lay here in bed. I woke up on some occasions, sometimes it was dark, other times the sun was shining through my window. I lost track of time and I wasn't even sure what day it was. Oh well, who cares. Not like I have anything to do.

I could hear the phone ringing in the distance occasionally. I honestly didn't care who it was that was calling so I made no movement to answer it. If it's really important they'll leave a message and I'll listen to it later.

Whenever I did asleep I would dream; well, more like I had nightmares. I would dream about the day Edward left me in the forest, I dreamed about the day I told Edward that I didn't want to be with him anymore, I dreamed about Jacob telling me he imprinted and was leaving then finding all of his stuff gone. The dream that frightened me the most was the one I would have of me walking through the forest alone. I would call out for anyone but there was no one around; no one to help me up as I stumbled over the fallen branches and over rocks, no one to help me find my way out of the forest, no one to keep me company. I was all alone.

As I was lying in bed I felt a cool feather light touch caress my face. I heard a beautiful tinkering bell like voice whispering my name. I almost thought I was just imagining it. I started to try and open my eyes to see if there was anyone there. I had to blink a few times to try and focus on the figure before me, as my eyes slowly started to focus I could make out someone with pale skin and short spiked black hair. I reached towards the figure as they said my name again. Finally my eyes focused enough that I could see the person's face clearly enough.

Alice. My sweet, sweet Alice.

I've gone from having nightmares while sleeping to having hallucinations while awake. Alice wouldn't be here. I made them all believe that I didn't want them, Alice would be angry at me. She would never want to see me again. Oh how I wish that Alice really was here. I wish she could tell me how to fix things and that everything eventually would be ok. She's not though; I would never see her again.

I'm just dreaming.

APOV

I had landed in Seattle and was now driving to Forks. I had yet to figure out exactly how I was going to go to Bella's house seeing as how she was living on the reservation.

Hmmm…..

I decided that I would just go to the old house first where I could drop off my stuff and think of something. It felt great to be back in the house. We just picked up and left when we moved away from Forks, so everything was still here. I started to walk through all of the rooms in the house thinking back to all the time and memories we had made here. As I walked in to Edward's room I saw the bed that he had bought for Bella to use while she stayed over at our place some nights under the assumption of girl sleepover's that we would always tell Charlie.

It was almost true! I would steal Bella for a bit and do her nails and hair, or as Bella would say I tortured her. The memories made me giggle a bit.

As I stood there I decided screw the stupid treaty. I was going to go get my best friend and sister back.

I got to Bella's house and walked it. It was quiet, or so I thought until I heard a small sob come from the bedroom. I stood frozen in place when I walked into Bella's room. She was lying in bed with the covers pulled up around her, Bella's little hands clutching and hugging the covers to her chest. Her eyes were puffy and her nose red from crying for God only knows how long. I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed. I said Bella's name gently and brushed the hair out of her face tucking it behind her ear. Her eyelids started to flutter open. I said her name again as she started to focus on my face. She said my name then lead in to mumbles of how she was dreaming and that I wasn't really there.

"Bella sweetie, it's Alice. I'm really here"

"Alice? Is it really you?" she said as she reached out for me.

"Yes Bella, I'm here now. Oh Bella honey what happened?"

"Oh Alice! You're really here! I ruined everything Alice." She chokes out as she starts to sob. "I ruined everything."

"Shhhh. It's ok Bella. I'm here now. I'm here for you." I tell her as I wrap my arms around her. She clings on for dear life. We just sit there holding on to each other as Bella sobs repeating that she has ruined everything. Eventually she cries herself to sleep. I lay her down and then call Jasper.

I tell him that I made it back to Forks safely and that I'm at Bella's right now. I tell him how she's broken and a total mess. I asked to speak to Edward but Jasper says that Edward isn't there. He was so upset that I had come back to see Bella that he had taken off without saying a word to anyone. No one knew where he was at. I heard Bella start to wake up so I quickly said goodbye to Jasper and that I would call him later.

"Alice?"

"I'm here Bella."

"Oh Alice! I can't believe that you're actually here right now. I've missed you so much Alice."

"Really? Why?" I asked. I need to let her know that although I love her, I'm still pissed. I didn't understand why she would actually miss us; she left us.

"What do you mean why? Alice I love you so much. You're like a sister to me Alice." she said with a confused look on her face.

"Then why the hell did you just throw us out like yesterday's trash Bella? Why did you tell Edward that you didn't want him anymore and that you wanted to be with Jacob Black of all people in the whole world?" I yelled out. I couldn't help but let the anger rise to the surface. "You chose that dog over my brother!"

Bella looked at me with tears in her eyes and then dropped her head down, looking at her hands. "I was scared Alice. I left Edward, left all of you because I was scared."

"Scared of what Bella?"

"I was scared of Edward leaving me again; scared of having my heart broken again." She then looked up at me and said "I wouldn't have survived that pain again Alice. I just couldn't. I did what I had to in order to be safe." That's when the tears finally spilled over as she said, "That didn't work out as planned though because her I am now broken and alone again."

If I could cry I would be right now. I saw all the pain in Bella's eyes. I knew she was telling me the truth. It pained me to see her so broken.

"You're not alone Bella, I'm here. Yes I'm mad and upset but I'm here, I'm not going anywhere. You're like a sister to me Bella; I couldn't never abandon you and leave you."

"I don't deserve you Alice. I really don't."

"Don't say that Bella. You made a mistake, a very big one but still a mistake nonetheless."

Bella let out a sigh, "I don't know what to do now Alice."

"Well" I started, "First things first, we need to get you dressed and then we're going to go back to the old house."

"Oh no. No Alice, I can't go there."

"Bella, we obviously need to get you fixed up I mean you look an absolute hot mess. And reason number two is that I would much rather talk to you some place where it doesn't reek of dog! Reason number three, I broke the treaty by coming over here but I just had to see you. I really don't want to have to deal with those ignorant mutts tonight."

"I didn't even think of the treaty! You shouldn't have broken the treaty just to come see me Alice."

"I already told you Bella, you're like a sister to me. There is no way that I would just leave you alone when you need me. Now let's go."

Bella opened her mouth to ask me something and I knew what it would be so I just answered her question before she asked it:

"No, Edward isn't there. No one is there, I came here alone."

BPOV

It was a little nerve wrecking being back in the Cullen house. There were so many memories here; it made me think of Edward too much. It was great being around Alice again though, even if she insisted on doing my hair and makeup after I showered. As much as I hated being a real human Barbie for her I was slightly happy to have her fuss over me again; I would NEVER admit that to Alice though.

We talked about everything; why I left, why I was wrong to think I needed to pick "safe" Jacob over Edward, what I had been up to the last 4 years, how Charlie was, and everything in between.

God I loved having Alice around again. I had my best friend back. My Sister.

I did feel ashamed, unworthy and downright horrible for having pushed her and the Cullens out of my life. Alice shouldn't have come back to see me; but she did and truth is I'm not surprised. Alice was wonderful. I'm just glad that she wanted me back in her life.

"Alice I'm so glad that you're back. It's great being able to talk to you about everything. I'm exhausted though. I should get going back to my house."

"No Bella please don't go. You could just stay here."

"I can't stay here Alice. I need to go back home. I promise I'll come back in the morning."

"If you're going to be coming back in the morning then you should just stay now. Saves you a trip plus you'll get more sleep because you can just go upstairs now to sleep. The bed Edward bought for you is still in his room."

"Even if I were going to stay I can't. I don't have extra clothes for tomorrow, or even clothes to sleep in tonight."

"No problem!" Alice exclaimed. "I packed all that for you." She said with a bright smile on her face.

I sighed, "Why do I even bother trying to argue with you Alice?"

"No clue. You really should just save your breath and listen to me from the beginning."

That made me chuckle a little. "Oh how I've missed you Miss-Know-It-All."

Alice just smiled and did a curtsy. She walked me upstairs and said goodnight. I stepped into Edward's bedroom. I instinctively inhaled deeply but was let down when I couldn't smell him, that warm cinnamon scent that I loved and would calm me; make everything seem right.

I didn't want to keep thinking of Edward or deal with the memories right now. I was so exhausted and just wanted sleep. I rushed into the connecting private bathroom and started to get ready for bed.

I quickly finished getting ready and then walked back into the bedroom to climb into bed. I was staring down at the floor rubbing the back of my neck when I stepped into the room but I suddenly stopped dead in my tracks when I smelt that familiar warm cinnamon scent that I had just been hoping to smell earlier.

Please don't be here.

Please be here.

Please don't be here.

Please be here.

There is no way that he can be here. Why would he be here?

I looked up and locked eyes with the most beautiful pair of golden eyes that I always got lost staring into in the past.

Edward was standing just inside of the doorway staring across the room at me.

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OK so we know some of you will be wondering how Alice was able to go on the res with the whole treaty thing…well we figured the rest of the wolves would be OK seeing as Bella was upset and they felt partly guilty with how much Jacob had hurt her. And we know in the original story Alice wouldn't be able to see Bella in the res – again we tweaked that! Alice can't see Bella's future as long as the wolves/Jacob are part of it…and now they're not so Alice can see her!

We know there will be questions as to why Alice didn't warn Bella that Edward would be there – it will be answered in the next Chapter!

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