A/n: thank you for the reviews and if you didn't shame on you. A lot of peppl cough Nicole cough asked me what was wrong with Edward so when I normally don't approve of Edward pov's I decided I might as well do it or you would never understand what comes next. So tootles and heres my next chap.

EPOV

Why do I do this every time! I thought to myself as I ran as fast as I could to Alaska.

Edward! I know you can hear me I'm not far from you! Why are you running from Bella?

I heard Alice think about two miles behind me. Luckily I was the fastest in the family; she wouldn't catch up to me even if we were at this all day. Edward please, she's bawling at home. What did you do? And why are you running from her? She loves you and would do anything for you yet you run? She would understand if you would just tell her, she understands all of us much more than any other normal person ever could. Edward she's about to become your wife! How can you expect that to work when you keep running from her? Please stop I'm tired. Please talk to me. Just show me where. Please?

How could I refuse when she pleaded with me so? I decided I would meet her and when she saw where she thought. Thank you Edward. I sat on a rock and waited for Alice.

"I'm sorry I yelled" Alice said as she sat down by me. "Now would you please answer my questions?"

I shifted uncomfortably but she never took her eyes off me. I tried to avoid her questions but she just sat there and stared at me. I gave in." it's nothing I just haven't hunted in a while and I came too close to losing control. She knew it. And stopped kissing me, then her hair swirled she flushed and the wind blew through the window. It was just too much I tried not to breathe but she got up and walked to me then she touched my cheeks. It was….just too…much." I hung my head knowing it was all my fault I shouldn't have let myself go so hungry.

"Edward that's nothing to be ashamed of we've all lost control around her, remember?" she stroked my hair.

"But Alice it's different with y'all. It should be different with ya'll"

"You're just as….vampire…as the rest of us" she said smiling.

I smiled back.

We sat there for a while watching the sunset and twilight set in. it all reminded me of Bella and finally I couldn't stand it, I had to go back.

Alice refused unless I went and got at least something to eat. She also made me promise to hunt regularly from now on until Bella and I were married AND she also made me promise to tell Bella what was wrong before I up and ran. Gosh Alice can be so demanding at times.

BPOV

"Jasper what's he feeling?" I whispered as I saw Edward and Alice coming into view over the hill.

"Guilt is his most pronounced emotion Bella. Don't worry everything's going to be fine." He hugged me then pushed me in Edward's direction. I walked as slowly as possibly not out of fear but out of his reactions because lets face it he had been very quick to react today. He stopped about three feet away from me with and apologetic expression on his face. Why was he guilty? I suddenly noticed his eyes were a major shade lighter than they had been an hour ago. Then something clicked in my head. Edward had been thirsty! That's why he didn't want to get too close to me, that's why he tried to resist! I ran to him throwing my arms around and started blabbering about how sorry I was and how I should have known and he just held me and apologized over and over for letting himself go so thirsty if he were going to be around me. Eventually Alice came and asked us if we wanted to finish the game of Frisbee. We agreed and I sat and watched mostly while my soon-to-be-family laughed and played with movements so quick I could hardly see them, but that was the fun of it trying to see them and dreaming that very soon I could do that and be as graceful and look like I belonged beside Edward.

a/n: ok this chap it purdy short I know but I wrote it in like a half an hour. I had to rush. N-e way I hope this clears most of that up.

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