I covered up my hickey and touched up a little before jay came over ,i sat in the livinroom and searched the channels as soon as I put on honey booboo there was a knock on my door I got up and slowly opened the door I looked up and met his blue eyes
"JAY" I exclaimed as I jumped in his arms , jay picked me up and spun me around after he put me down he sat on the couch, I closed the door and joined him
" babe I missed you" he said
"i missed you too jaybird" I replied cuddling up in his arms
even tho me a jay are not official he's still my everything he's my first kiss . I lost my virginity to jay
I loved this guys more then anything
"so you know how we aren't officially together yet?"
he suddenly had my full attention "umm yeah" I said
"well when I was out visiting my mom I met someone "
"oh" it suddenly got quiet and awkward
I got up and walked to the kitchen leaving jay alone as I was pouring my class of water I felt two strong arms around my waist pulling me close
"Lucy?" he said in a whisper
"mhmm"
"you're not upset with me are you"
I don't understand why I'm even getting upset I'm the one who told him we shouldn't be together and if he finds a girl who wants a relationship with him he should go for it
I turn around and he's still holding on to me
"I'm not upset I just .. I dont know really"
"Lucy , baby you know I love you so fucking much but I dont wanna hurt you , you know exactly the kind of guy I am , I'm in a gang I'm not good I hurt people I fight and I dont want you near me when I'm like that and that's everyday"
"jay I've known you since I was 6 this is nothing knew and you know I can handle you, I know I said I dont want a relationship and that's still true and I want you to be happy and if you think this girl can make you happy go for it "
I said being completely honest
as I look up into jay's eyes I couldn't help but know then and there this guys was going to be in my life forever . jay looks down at me and we both went for it . For the last time
he kissed me it was passionate , slow and sweet I loved every second of it I ran my hand through his curls
when we pulled away we both started laughing , me a jay would never reach the point of an actual couple I mean yes we did stuff in the pass but that was experiment and yes we developed some feeling for each other but in the end he's like my other older brother and I know he looks at me like a little sister , as jay was leaving to walk out the door he gave me one last hug and when he left I knew it was the end , not of our friendship its not like I would never see him again , but it was the end , the end of our shenanigans
later on that night like around 8 I heard a knock at my door , I opened it a saw ally she looked pissed yet somehow happy to see me
"you left me at a party all alone you bitch" she said as she walked in and headed straight to my room
"sorry but Kendall was pissing me off and I had to leave I was going to get you but you looked like you were having to much fun and I didn't wanna ruin it .. by the way you looked very comfy with Logan , anything you wanna explain?
"i had a few drinks in me and he wasn't looking bad at the moment , but trust me we didn't do anything at all , we actually were talking and he's very sweet! .. well sometimes"
" oh okay well anyway I'm sorry for leaving you but I had to get out of there"
"its okay , but we're going out tonight we're going to Roxy's night club"
"ally that's almost on the north side again"
" no Lucy that's no mans land the beach the club and shopping centers are no mans land and you are going"
"alright fine" as I was saying ally pulled out a red tight short red dress with a black belt and black high heels
"ohmygod you're outfit is too cute ""thanks and now we are to find you're outfit" she said as she began looking through my closet . When she came out she was holding a super tight black short dress
" no ally that's way to slutty"
"you are so wearing this " she replied
you cant really say no to ally so I put on the black dress , it went it a little higher then mid thigh and it was super extremely tight it had only on long sleeve and then the other side was strapless
as ally was looking threw my shoes picking out witch ones would look good I stood in the mirror
asking myself if I was the same girl because looked different but a hotter more slutty version of me
as ally pulled out black and white high heels she told me to put them on and I do , she gave me a pair of big white hoop earrings and I matched perfectly
I straightened my hair and swept it to the side I added slight makeup and lip gloss
I was finished as I went to see ally I was shocked
she looked so good she was wearing her dress with her black heels and black hoops her hair was curled and her boob were standing very out there she looked beautiful
"wow" we both said at the same time
it was around 9:40 when we finished and we decided to leave now so we could get something to eat
when we were in the car I got a call from my brother
"hello"
"hey baby sis how's everything?"
Bryan left for a week to go visit his girlfriend in college yesterday
"everything's good just chillen with ally you know the usual"
"oh alright love bug I dont wanna bother you i'll call you later
" you're no bother at, all I miss you"
"alright hun but you should just text me when you home so I can call you
" alright byee big brother
"bye baby sister
I hung up right as ally was pulling up to roxy , we're just going to park here and go down the street to eat
when we go in the restaurant I ordered pasta and a coke and ally ordered the same
we ate and about 20 minutes of talking and eating we were finally done , we cleaned ourselfs up and headed outside .
When we walked back down the coner their was a group of people as we walked past them my hand my pulled, I was confused and scared until I looked at the person that pulled me
… it was non other then Kendall himself
"what the fuck are you wearing" he said looking at me
" oh you dont like it " I asked turning around to show him all of it but it got the attention of his other friends
I noticed Carlos , James and Logan were there too along with like 9 others