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Lucas just sat their crying, he couldn't deal with being Tree Hill's resident martyr, none of the crap that he allowed his friends and family to dump on him was his fault, why couldn't they see that, why couldn't they save him and why couldn't they see that he couldn't deal with people shitting on him all the time.

Peyton walked into the girls changing room and placed the CD player on the bench. Brooke has suggested it would be good to get the girls energized tonight before the game. As usual she was probably right. As she walked out the door ready to face third period, she heard sobs from the boys changing room. She knew she shouldn't go in but she couldn't help it. It was Lucas.

He didn't hear he come in.

'Are you okay?' She enquired, she blamed him for Jake's departure and therefore her drug addiction but she didn't like to see him cry.

'Yeah, I'm fine' He tried to smile at her, he felt guilty enough for her losing Jake, she didn't deserve him dumping on her too.

'Lucas, I'm sorry we're not friends.' She whispered as she sat next to him. 'I just can't help but feel it's your fault he's gone.'

'I know.'

'Why did you do it Lucas?'

'I didn't know who she was.' He protested.

'It was Nikki, he left because of Nikki. And because you slept with her, she stayed… But why would you even sleep with a random girl from some bar anyway.' She probed.

'I don't know it was a long time ago… I think I thought it would take the pain away from losing Brooke and you and everything else I lost at the time. I guess it was kind of like you with your drugs.'

'Don't!' Peyton stood, she couldn't be near him.

'Don't what?'

'You can't just make me lose Jake then talk to me about how I choose to cope with it! You should have stayed in Charleston then this wouldn't be happening.'

'You mean by coping, dumping the blame on me…' Lucas sighed as she walked towards the door. He believed she didn't hear his truthful words but she did.

She replayed the words over and over again in her head as she walked steadily down the hallway with tears threatening to fall. It was his fault wasn't it?

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Lucas sat in the changing rooms for the entire of fourth period. He couldn't move, thoughts rushing through his head. Pain running from head to toe, his pain represented his loss and his loss was great.

He finally found his feet and slowly wandered towards study hall, a period he shared with the rest of his old group. He sat on a seat on the final desk, the only empty one, his class knew to leave an entire table for him because anyone seen socializing with him would face Nathan's wrath maybe not personally but Nathan controlled the social status'.

Lucas took out his books and sat down on his seat knowingly that due to his apparent loneliness, he would be able to get through one of his favourite novels, the only pleasing aspect of this day except basketball, the only place he could excel and be smiled at or cheered for, the rest of the time it was rare for a word to be spoken to him.

Haley arrived and looked for another empty seat, there were none. She rolled her eyes at Nathan and walked towards the only table with free seats. She knew she would have to sit next to Lucas, something she really did not want to do. He would always be her best friends but she could not help but blame him for how her friends were feeling right or wrong she still felt that way.

She dropped her books opposite him and pulled out the chair. She silently rolled her eyes as she saw the title of Lucas' book. An old favourite that was for sure. He never got tired of reading the same thing repeatedly.

'I'll do you a favor and not talk to you, okay?' he said woefully with a sad smile on his face.

'Was that supposed to be funny Lucas?' she spitted. It wasn't. 'God, you don't even realize what you are doing to everyone and you are sitting here cracking jokes!' She scoffed. 'You know what's really funny; you sit her acting like a martyr reading your fucking book while everyone else is broken hearted! Why don't you just crawl under a rock and die!'

Suddenly Nathan and Peyton let out resounding cackles from the other side of the room as Brooke sat next to them wishing to be mildly amused.

'Sure looks like it!' Lucas spat. He grabbed his books and stormed out of the classroom leaving a shocked Nathan, Peyton and Brooke on the other side of the room and a frozen Haley James Scott regretting her words. She was right to be angry…wasn't she?

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