After a while I thought it would be a great idea, if I face the music at home. I am so prepared for the worst especially from my dad. I doubt my mom even knows since she is in Astra with her new boyfriend Zack. Who by the way is too young for her?
So I am now driving down Rosewood, about a block away from my house and I see Mike my younger brother.
Mike: ''Aria is that you?''
'' I don't even know what to say anymore.''
Mike: '' Look I don't know who this guy was who broke your heart, but he is a dick. Anyone would be lucky to have you in their life.''
'' Thanks Mike I'm glad you understand because I know dad won't.''
Mike: '' Is this why I saw you stealing a cigarette from dad's office.''
'' I just needed something to take the edge off all the pain and hurt.''
Mike: '' Do whatever you have to do I'm not going to judge you.''
'' Thanks Mike I will see you at home later, wish me good luck.''
Mike: ''Trust me you won't need it.''
'' I hope you right.''
Then I start to drive off and realise I have need to plan for when I get back. Otherwise I will only crash and burn and probably end up playing 20 questions with my dad and that is the last thing on earth that I want to do. Okay so as soon as I unlock the door I should just make a B line for my room and start getting my stuff ready for Hannah's tonight. Also I can have a little fun with the pack of cigarettes I picked up from Jason's. That's the plain now it's time to put it into action.
The drive home took me about 10 minutes, I took the long way I so don't want to do this but I have no choice. I finally reach my drive way and I just brake down crying. '' I can't explain myself again, it hurts too much to even say his name.'' I try to hold on to the good but it just comes back and hits me in ass. Am I destroying everything I touch? I just want to stop crying maybe even stop living, wouldn't everyone be happier and better off if I wasn't here. A part of me breaks inside like a wave of sadness has just flushed over me when his name is mentioned. All I want is to get passed this. I know the girls and Jason would miss me I'm sure Mike would get over it somehow. After about 30 minutes repeating the thoughts in my head I decided it was now time to go inside and get ready for night maybe have a shower and curl my hair, just like I used to. So I unlock the front door and make it straight to my room with no problem what so ever. I think my dad wasn't even home. As I shut my bedroom door I make sure to lock it just in case. I went to my dresser and picked out an outfit for the sleep over. I decided to go with a half laced black crop top, pared with some kaki skinny jeans, with some light grey wedged heels.
Next I unlocked the door and headed straight to the bathroom, which was sort of across the hall. So I turn on the shower making sure it was just the right temperature. I picked up a razor from the cupboard I thought why not shave my legs that would be a great accuse if I accidently cut myself. I think the girls would believe if they ever found out. So I put all my clothes in a pile on the floor, and step in. I love showers I'm not sure what it is about then. I start to wash my hair with my favourite shampoo I love the sent it reminds me of the beach so fresh and calm. Once I was finished washing my hair I pick the razor and make a small mark just on my wrist it felt like I was on another planet where there was no worries what so every.
''Shit'' I need to hurry up I have an hour to get ready. So I quickly dry myself put on my clothes, and heat up my curling iron. For this outfit I choose to go with big loose girls, and make up wise I picked a soft brown Smokey eye with black winged eyeliner, for lips I picked a nice plum purple shade. So not long after it was time to get going once again. I quickly went back into my room and packed the following into my bag:
Phone
Lighter
Flask ( with some Vodka )
Cigarettes
Razor blade
Keys
And with all that packed I am now ready to get going but I should text my dad and also the girls to let them know I am on my way.
*'' Girls I am just leaving now please save me some popcorn.''
Spencer:'' Okay I'm just leaving as well, I'm just around the corner do you want a lift? ''
*'' Dad I'm going to Hannah's for a girly night I will be home in the morning.''
'' Okay sure Spence, why not see you in a couple of minute's.''
So I walked outside the house and Spencer was already waiting for me. I think she could tell something was up. I really need to be the best actress I can to act like everything is fine.
Spencer: ''Hey Ar I'm loving your outfit tonight it's very uh you! ''
'' Thanks Spence, well I do try my best.''
Here we go again …
A night I will definitely not forget.