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June 19 2007, Edward's POV:
Everyday is pure agony. Everyday without her in my life is like death waiting to happen. Every day without her, is life without any meaning. But what hurts the most, was how quickly she believed my lies. How can she believe that I don't want her? How can she believe that I don't love her? How can she believed my words so quickly? Cant she see that I cant live without her? Cant she see how much I love her? Cant she see that I have no joy or happiness without her in my life? Cant she see how much she means to me? Without her, the fire, the reason for my existence disappeared. My life is just an empty hole without my Bella Swan.
June 20 2007,
Angela and Ben had departed for their honeymoon a few days ago, to Italy. We are stuck here at Forks with not much going on in our lives. Well except for tonight. Tonight is a special night. Jessica, Mike and Eric are coming over to help with the last preparations for Alyson and Steven's nineteenth birthday party surprise tonight in my backyard. We been planning this for two weeks. And I want it to be perfect.
Well they are turning nineteen in human age, when in actuality they are twenty seven years old. They were changed when they were eighteen, nine years ago. Their endings were not much happier than the Cullen's. When my boyfriend first told me the story it broke my heart, hearing the problems that he dealt with in his human life before his change. Their transformation from human to vampire was tragic as well. Their humanity was taken away from them by the hands of a selfish person. When Alyson and Steven was fourteen years old, their mom, Alyssa was diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer. She lived for about ten months, in an ongoing battle, which she ultimately lost her life at age 40. Alyssa fought every step of the way, she went through two rounds of chemo. She endured hair lost and fatigue. She may be weak and frail, because of the chemo, but that woman had a lot of spirit in her. She kept on fighting till she couldn't anymore. She never lost any of her spirit, the whole time. She never lost her magic. She was a fighter and I wish I could meet her. I wish I can tell her, that she done an amazing job of raising her two kids. I admire her strength. When I heard the story, it helped me get over Edward in a way. It help me become a fighter as well. Here was a woman who has a disease, that is life threatening. Here she is loosing her hair, she is fatigue and frail but she kept on fighting. She didn't gave up. Than there's me, healthy and alive. Maybe not healthy emotionally, but physically. If she can fight, so can I. If she can be strong enough facing a tough battle, so can I, damn it. And here I am, happy, healthy emotionally and physically, and not falling apart. And I am god damn proud of myself. Like Steven said, I am a fighter as well. I say Steven and Alyson are both fighters as well from the ordeal they dealt with after the death of their mother.
Alyson and Steven fell in a state of deep depression after her death. Both seem to lost hope and happiness in life. They barely smiled, eat or talk to other people. Steven who once had pride in playing his guitar with his band called the blank bullets, no longer find the joy in it. He quit music all together. The depression hit pretty bad for Steven especially. Sure Alyson was depressed, she turned to boys and sex as a substitute. But Steven, he went to much more extremes. He turned to deadly measures. He often thought about suicide. One day he tried to act upon it, thank god that It failed him. It hurts real bad, when Steven told me that he could of nearly died, if it wasn't for Alyson finding him right away and put a stop to it. Steven tied a rope on top of pole in the bathroom and he looped the rope around his neck, and wait for death to come. But a second later Alyson came into the bathroom and got him out of the rope, before it can do any damage. It hurts like hell realizing how close I could of came close to loosing Steven without even realizing it than. The thought of loosing someone you love with all your heart brought me back to that gut wrenching pain. I am so glad that Alyson came in to the bathroom as she did, otherwise I would of never met the man that would later on capture my heart.
Steven went to see a psychologist after that. Alyson and his dad kept a close lookout on him, especially his sister. He got better, he lost the suicide mentality.
Things got worse when Alyson and Steven were seventeen. A woman their father had been dating, trying to replace their mother was named Maria. According to them, she was the devil. They didn't know it than that she was a vampire. Steven told me that Maria was a total bitch, when their father was not around. And when he was around she would put on this pretense that she cared fro them. One day, the family gotten into this intense argument and in a snap decision, Maria gotten really angry. Angrier than she ever had and she snapped and lost all her self-control and killed their father, draining him of his blood. Steven and Maria known in an instant that she was a vampire. Than Maria turned towards them and bite them. She didn't drain their blood. Maria just left them, knowing she robbed them off their humanity, damning them to the life of a vampire. She left them letting the venom soak in, knowing that they would be in pain for hours, and hours. Maria robbed them of a life they could of have. They took their young life away at the tender age of eighteen. They just celebrated their birthday a week before the tragedy. It made me mad how Maria could do this to such an amazing person. It makes me angry how she can damn Alyson and Steven to this. It makes me so god damn angry how she could leave them to suffer like that. They both don't deserve this.
"So looks like we got everything." Jessica said a hour later. "We got food, music, entrainment, and beautiful decorations."
My house looks ready for the surprise party. If I say so, it looks amazing. They would love it. I cant wait till they get here.
"Yeah." I said. I looked at the clock. "Look, I got to go. It is almost six. I have to get dress and bring them over here. I already told them that we were going to celebrate their birthday tonight." I haven't seen them all day, and I missed them, especially my boyfriend.
"All right, see you later Bells. I just have to blow up the rest of the balloons and that's it. My mouth is so dry. It's like the Sahara desert." Jessica said.
"I'll do them, babe." Mike said taking the balloons from Jessica's hands.
"Thanks." Jessica said. "I need a drink."
"I have some orange juice in the fridge, help yourself." I told her walking back to the house. "See you guys later."
A hour later after getting ready I walked outside to my drive way and start the truck and drove over to my boyfriends' house.
Steven and Alyson stepped out of their house when they heard my truck.
"Hey, Bells." he grinned. "You look beautiful. I love that little black dress you are wearing."
"Thanks, honey. I miss you today. I love you." I said blushing for a minute from his compliment and than reaching up to kiss him.
"Happy birthday both of you." I said when we finally pull apart.
"Thank you." Alyson said finally getting a word in. I reached over to hug her.
"Come on." I said taking their hands. "Let's celebrate your birthday. I have a surprise planned for both of you."
"All right." Steven said getting in the car, not putting up a fight. "Oh and one more thing, I love you too. I didn't get the chance to say it back to you, since you attack me with your lips."
I blush. He is so adorable.
"What's the surprise?" Alyson asked interrupting us. She loves us both together, but sometimes when we get too lovely dovey, she hates it. She said we sometimes get too overboard with our love sometimes. It makes her uncomfortable.
"It's a surprise." I said. "You will see."
I started the engine and backed out of the drive way.
On the drive to my house, Alyson starts guessing to what my surprise would be. I just smiled. "You will see." I said. "You will see."
I parked my car in the usual spot of my driveway. I got out of the truck. "Come on." I said taking their hands in mine. "The surprise is inside."
I unlocked the front door and led them into the house. "Follow me."
I led them towards the sliding doors that lead to the back yard.
"Surprise!" the guests shouted.
"Oh my gosh." Steven said. "Bella, you shouldn't have." he said looking at me.
"Wow." Alyson said.
"You like it?" I asked.
"Well yea." Steven said leaning in to kiss me. "I love it, babe. This looks so amazing, And look at these balloons. It looks really magical."
"Look at the cake." Alyson said pointing towards the table, that hold the princess and prince decorated vanilla cake. "It's beautiful. Thank you." she whispered.
"Don't thank me for the cake. I didn't bake it. Jessica did. She made it." I said. I cant take credit for Jessica's beautiful work.
"Really? Jess baked it?" Alyson asked surprised. "I didn't know Jess knows how to bake?"
"Oh, Jessica knows how to bake." Mike said coming up towards us and give us all an hug. "She's a good cook too. My girl is talented." he said kissing her cheeks.
Jessica turned red. Which is really rear of her to blush. But she often does, when Mike is around. That girl is so smitten by him.
"Yeah. It is a talent of mine. I don't bake too often, though. I do it mostly for special events. Mike is exaggerating. I am not that great of a cook." Jessica answered.
"Are you kidding!" Mike exclaimed. "Jess is amazing. She makes a mean tuna casserole. And what about the dinner you made me the other week? That meat loaf was amazing."
"Okay, whatever, Mike." She said two little red spots appearing on her cheeks again. "Happy nineteenth birthday both of you." she reaching out to hug the siblings"
Jess was embarrassed? That is news. It's not very often that Jessica gets embarrassed about something.
Thanks Jess." they said at the same time.
"Come on." I said walking towards the stereo and turned it on, and the mix CD that I made the other day started playing. "Let's dance." I said taking my boyfriend's hands.
Steven wrapped his arms around me. "I love you." he said to me looking deeply into my eyes.
"I love you too." I said. All a sudden I felt the need to tell him everything that I am feeling right now.
"I love you more than anything in this world, Steven. You already know, that I was once in love with Edward. You know my past. I once thought that I could love him forever. I was wrong, Steven. The day he left me proved me so. I was so unhappy and upset, when he left. Than my angel come and saved me from myself. You took care of me, so softly and so gently, that it made me cry. You came into my life and took my life in a storm and mend my heart. You are here for me every step of the way. You were there during my darkest time. You made me happy again. You made me live again, you made me feel alive again. But most of all, you made me fall in love again. I fell in love with you. I love you more than anything in my life. It's you, Steven that I want to be with forever and ever until the end of time. I want to be with you for eternity. I swear you make me happier than anything in this world combined."
"I love you more than anything, Bells." he whispered back. "I will always love you. You are my reason for being here. I never met someone like you. I never met a girl I trust more than you. I never met someone so pure, so funny, and so beautiful. I never met a girl with a heart so pure and unspoiled before. You are my angel and my rock. I need you in my life in order for it to be stable. I don't want a life without you. I don't want to roam this world without you by my side. I want you here in my arms forever. I miss you when you are not around. I miss you like crazy when you are just gone for one minute. I am so crazy in love with you. I know that somewhere deep down you will always love Edward. I accept that. I know that he will always be the first person you fall in love with. I know he will always mean something to you. I don't deny that. I will never deny that, Bella. But you will always be the first person I fall in love with. I been with so many woman in my life, searching trying to find the right woman. I finally found her. I found you. I find the person that I am suppose to be with. I find the woman that reflects and defines the true meaning of love. I find a girl that would make my biological mother proud. She would of love you, Bella if she is still alive today."
Steven took his hands and wiped away the tears that fell down on my face. I looked at his perfectly shaped mouth and I attacked his mouth hungrily.
He kissed me back with just as much intensity.
When we broke away, we were both breathless. It was the best kiss we had ever shared.
"Wow." he whispered.
"Yeah." I said.
"Bella." he said getting on his knees.
Oh god. Is he doing what I think he is doing?
He reached for his pockets and pull out a velvet box.
"Bella, I mean everything I said. I love you. I can spend the rest of my life, the rest of my existence with you. I have everything I ever need in my life. All I need is you. After that, my life would be complete. Would you do the honors of becoming my wife? Will you marry me, Isabella Marie Swan?"
"Yes." I whispered. "Yes, I will marry you, Steven Johnson."
Everyone who was watching was cheering.
Steven smiled brilliantly and slipped the beautiful ring into my finger.
He reached over to me and sweep me off my feet and kissed me once again.
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"What are you thinking?" Steven asked me just like Edward once did as we were dancing to a slow song. The only thing that is different is that Steven is not a mind reader.
"Thinking about how happy I am right now." I said swaying to the music. "Thinking about how perfect everything is."
"I am thinking the exact same thing. I am thinking how lucky I am to be in your arms dancing and celebrating my birthday and my engagement."
"Yeah." I said. "This is perfect. Did you plan on proposing tonight?" I asked.
He nodded. "I was planning on doing it later tonight, at a different place, but this is just as perfect. For nine years roaming the earth as an immortal I never thought I would be the one settling down and getting married." he whispered.
"Well, you are twenty seven after all, it's time you settle down." I teased.
It was about nine when my dad came to the backyard. He got off from work. He promised that he would show up at the last part of the back yard party.
"Hi Bella." he said. "Hi, Steven. Hi kids." he said greeting us. "I am starving." he said walking over to the BBQ.
"Hey, Charlie." Mike said greeting my father. "You want a hot dog or a burger?"
"A burger." he replied. "You got any fries with that?"
"Hey, dad." I said walking over to him as he took the burger Mike handed to him. "Dad, you know better than eating like this." I said. "I always tell you to eat healthier."
"Bella, it's just for one day." he said.
"Mr. Swan." Steven said teasing my father a bit.
"Boy, you know I don't like you calling me Mr. Swan. You make me sound old." my dad said teasing him back.
Okay, Charlie than." Steven said smiling.
Charlie smiled back at him.
"Dad." I said not wanting to hesitate on telling him the good news. "I have something to tell you." I said. To tell you the truth, I am a little scared to how he would react. I know Charlie likes Steven, but how would he react when I am engaged. Would he freak out and say I am too young?
"Okay." Charlie said looking at me as he took a bite of his juicy burger.
"Dad, Steven and I are engaged." I said showing him the ring.
Charlie looked surprise for about ten seconds before a big smile appeared on his face. "Congratulations Bella and Steven. Congrats to both of you." he said happily.
"Thanks dad." I said a bit surprised.
"When did he proposed?" Dad asked.
"Tonight." I said happily.
Charlie took Steven's shoulder. "You know I like you kid." he said gruffly. "You are such a good kid. You are good for my daughter. You make her so happy. Welcome to the family, son."
"Thank You." Steven said.
Charlie reached over to hug me. "I am happy for you, kid. I love you, and I want you to be happy. You are a bit young to be getting married, but you are ready for it. You are ready for the commitment."
"Thanks, dad." I said.
"You are always the grown up in the relationship. You always cooked for me. I love you kid, that is never going to change. I am proud of you."
"I love you too, dad." I said. "I cant wait to tell mom." I said. "She is going to be so excited."
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