Warnings and Disclaimer: See first chapter.
Author's note: All right, I am very sorry for the long time in-between my updates. I've had a major Writers Block going on for the past month and on top of that I finished my exams and received my diploma. (I am now officially a book-keeper if anyone is interested)
I hope the chapter wills satisfy you and I will most certainly try to get the fifth chapter out faster than this one.
Enjoy!

Chapter 04

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever
Worst Day Ever – Simple plan

Breathe in. Breathe out. If he just kept his breathing pattern calm and his mind empty he would loose all that nervousness. He hoped.

He was sitting on the hard wooden floor for a bit over an hour now. Cross-legged and eyes closed. But no matter how hard he tried, or how calm his breathing was, the nerves wouldn't leave.

Perhaps if he stayed there for another hour. He would still have ten minutes at most to get to the park. Normally it was a twenty-minute walk. He would have to hurry, but at least his mind would be calm and collected.

He took a deep breath and settled for another hour of meditation.

Suddenly, with a very loud and way too happy voice, Meiran threw the door open and yelled so loud everyone in the vicinity could hear her: "Why didn't you tell me you were going to see Duo!"

Wufei looked at his sister a bit startled. His entire concentration was now lost and his patience went with it. "You stupid woman! I was meditating!" He scowled. His sister could be so ignorant of other people sometimes.

But Meiran just grinned. "Was being the secret word."

"Just go away."

"Not until you tell me why you didn't tell me."

Wufei sighed. He knew his sister. She would whine and nag him until he told her.

"I didn't because I knew you would act like a …" But he was interrupted by a squeal.

"Now you're going to make up with him and it'll be so romantic!"

"… girl." Wufei finished and Meiran frowned.

"You are going to make up with him, aren't you?" She inquired.

He shrugged with a slight frown on his face. "I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know? Of course you know! You are going to make up with Duo." Meiran ordered angrily. Sometimes she just didn't understand her brother. He had to make a problem about everything.

"Meiran shut up. I don't need you criticizing me on top of everything else too."

"You need someone that fusses over you, you know? Otherwise you'll crash and burn." Meiran scolded.

In return Wufei scowled at her, saying: "What do you mean with 'crash and burn'?"

"I mean what you are doing now. Destroying your relationship!" She yelled at him.

Wufei almost winced at her tone. But after years of practice he had gotten used to her yelling. "It is something I have to do." He said in a soft voice.

"Is breaking up with him something you have to do? You bastard!" Meiran spat.

Suddenly she stood up and walked towards him. Wufei looked at her with shock written all over his face.

The shock only got worse as she hit him in the face all of a sudden.

Wufei didn't even have a chance to defend himself with whatever excuse he could come up with during the tirade.

"It's written all over your face that you love him and still you break up with him? Only because you think it is something you have to do?! Che, I feel sorry for Duo, do you know that? That such a great guy would ever fall in love with a bastard like you, only to have his heart broken!"

She stared at him, rage showing clearly in her eyes. When Meiran realized she was out of words she stormed out of the room, yelling: "You'll regret what you are going to do! I really hope you do."

Wufei could only feel depressed when Meiran left. He had made his decision and she wouldn't change that.

He had over thought things a lot before coming to his decision. Although he had wanted things to go smoothly. He never wanted things to go this way, but it still did. Silently he cursed his life as he made his way to the front-door.

When he passed the living-room he heard his mother call out to him. "Going out, dear?"

"Yes. I will be back within the hour, mother." Wufei answered.

He silently hoped his mother would say he couldn't go out tonight. That way he didn't have to go to Duo.

But his mother was not the kind of person to stop her son from going out. "All right, have fun." She said and Wufei had to suppress the urge to sigh.

His feet felt heavy as he walked to the park. He had actually left early. Although he didn't know if that was because of reluctantly for breaking up with Duo, or because he wanted things to be over quickly. He hadn't actually expected to be this anxious.

Perhaps it was because he cared a lot about Duo. 'Yes,' he thought to himself bitterly, 'I'm going to break up with the guy whom I like.' He actually wanted to sneer at the entire situation and his overall pathetic life.

If only he had been born in a different family. His life would have been a lot easier for him. Unfortunately, that was a thing he couldn't change.

With a sigh he turned around corner and thought about the time he told his mother he was dating Duo. His mother must have mistaken Duo for a girl the one time she actually saw him, because just a few days later she was flaunting to all of her friends that 'my Wufei is dating such a nice and proper girl!'

His mother was the first to find out Duo was actually a guy. The next time she saw her friends and they asked how her son was she just said that 'he hangs out a lot with a very good friend of his.' Wufei could just imagine the bitter undertone of those words.

But in comparison to his father's reaction his mother had actually been quite polite about the entire thing.

Then again, that was to be expected of a woman with her status and upbringing.

His father was also behaving as he should according to the rules of etiquette. Because when he was yelling that "no son of mine will be gay!" he did as was expected from him. He kept to the rules and was peremptory. The man never thought about the possibility his son might suffer due to that decision.

It was expected from any man of the status Wufei belonged to marry a nice and proper girl. People wanted to see a relationship that would be looked at with the words: "now isn't that the loveliest couple."

Wufei detested those rules and in the beginning he might have been dating Duo in a moment of rebellion against his parents. Later on that wasn't the situation anymore.

But his parents pressuring him to break up with Duo and date a girl was taking its toll on Wufei's disobedience, as his parents liked to call it.

Duo feigning ignorance about his home-situation and the feelings that came with it weren't a big help to their relationship either.

Wufei wasn't characteristically a suspicious person, but Duo had been acting a bit differently towards him for a few weeks now. Duo was a touchy-feely kind of person, everyone knew that.

At first Wufei found it annoying to be touched all the time but, just like with other things, he got used to it and later on he even enjoyed Duo's occasional touches.

Only since a few weeks Duo wasn't as touchy-feely anymore. He touched Quatre more than he did Wufei. A pat on the shoulder and the like were consequently reoccurring, and it irritated Wufei greatly.

He actually blamed himself for this. He had become distant when his parents had found out he was dating a guy. He refused to take Duo to his house because he knew the reactions they would receive.

If his parents were home anyway, because the days both his father and mother were at home at the same time were very rare.

A few times Duo had asked him why they never went to his house a few times. Wufei always succeeded in subtly changing the subject.

Duo was a very open-minded person and Wufei was sure his parents' reaction to their relationship would hurt Duo. Perhaps even damage their relationship a bit.

It was only too late that Wufei realized it was actually his own fault things had gone downhill.

Before Wufei even realized it he had arrived at the arranged spot in the park. After a quick scan of his surroundings he concluded Duo wasn't there yet. "Of course he isn't here yet!" Wufei scolded himself. "He won't arrive fifteen minutes early!"

With a heavy sigh he sat down on the nearest bench and folded his arms over his knees. He stared at the ground. He would just have to wait in silence for doom to arrive.

If he were honest with himself, Wufei would have to admit he was scared. Scared he might regret his decision later. Scared he would have to look at Duo from the other side of the window and didn't have the right to talk to him anymore.

He shook his head and closed his eyes tightly. He started to wonder how Duo would react to his decision.

Of course Duo wouldn't burst out crying. That wasn't a thing Duo did. Certainly he would be upset, and…

Nearing footsteps immediately stopped his train of thoughts. Wufei swallowed and wondered if fifteen minutes had always been this short.

He nervously twisted his fingers and tried to think of something to say. When the young boy with a long braid swinging behind him came into view his heart sank into his boots.

He closed his eyes and wondered if it was doubt that seemed to momentarily overtake him. But Lady Luck didn't grace him with more time to decide whether this was the right thing to do or not.

"Wufei," Duo looked at his boyfriend with a nervous smile. Wufei was still his boyfriend, wasn't he? They didn't break up and tonight would be the end of their childish discussion.

Wufei on the other hand wasn't smiling. He cocked his head to the side for a moment and sighed. He didn't know where to begin.

"Wufei?" Duo questioned Wufei's silence and sat down next to the boy. He looked at Wufei with a small smile. "I thought it was a good idea we talked."

"Yes." Wufei answered curtly. He saw Duo nod, urging him to continue. But he didn't know where to start with. No matter what he said, it would sound cruel.

"Duo." Wufei started and took a deep breath. He shot a look towards Duo and felt like he could burst out crying.

Duo was looking at him with a look of hope on his face. Right now, he felt he was the biggest bastard in existence.

'But,' Wufei thought, 'this is for the best. In the end we will get both what we want. No more stupid fighting and jealousy. We will be friends.'

Wufei took another deep breath and in a somewhat sad voice said: "I'm sorry Duo. But it's over."

Duo gasped and blinked a few times. He felt tears welling up in his eyes and all he could hold on to was the hope this was all just a cruel joke.

"W-Wufei," Duo whispered softly in a heartbroken voice. He looked at his boyfriend, or was that ex-boyfriend now? He felt his heart break when he saw the sad yet determined look on Wufei's face.

"Y-you're joking, right? T-this is all a joke and -"

"Duo." Wufei interrupted him and for a moment Duo looked like a frightened animal. "I'm really sorry." He whispered.

"Then why?! If you're sorry, why are you doing this?" Duo was almost yelling now. He didn't know what or how to feel. But he knew he was desperate for Wufei to tell him it was all just a joke. He simply couldn't believe this was true.

Only to have the harsh reality slap him in the face when Wufei said: "We're… it's just not working between us."

"Are you saying you don't love me anymore?" Duo questioned softly. He didn't want to hear the answer. All he wanted was to turn around and run away. But he knew that if he didn't hear the answer he would regret it later.

"Yes… I guess that's what I'm saying." Wufei answered.

Duo heard the doubt in Wufei's voice and he could see the sadness in his eyes. Somewhere in the back of his mind the fleeting thought of questioning further popped up. It just couldn't be true.

But that thought was quickly forgotten when he was too overwhelmed by sadness.

Wufei was sitting with an air of uncertainty and avoided looking at him.

"I-I'm going to Quatre's." Duo whispered in a heartbroken voice.

Wufei looked at him for a moment and nodded. He felt awful and could only imagine how Duo was feeling right now.

"I'll see you at school tomorrow." Duo said with an obviously fake smile.

Duo was almost in tears when he arrived at Quatre's house.

He really didn't feel like going home right now. His mother would ask what had happened and Bob would say that he could finally find himself a decent girl now.

He was sure he wouldn't be taking those things very well at the moment. So going to Quatre was the best option.

Besides, his friend knew him inside out and always knew what to say to make him feel better. So going to Quatre was the best option. But Duo being heartbroken over a relationship was a first time experience for the both of them.

Duo took a deep breath before ringing the bell. Yelling voices and loud footsteps could be heard from inside the house. The Winner household was always full of life.

The door was opened and a smiling Iria stood in the door-opening. "Hello Duo."

"Hi Iria." Duo took a deep breath and tried to smile.

Iria's smile faded and she looked at her little brother's best friend with worry. "Duo, did something happen?" She asked as she ushered him inside.

"Kind of." Duo whispered and felt really small and lost in the enormous house all of a sudden. "Is Quatre around?" He mumbled while trying to avoid looking at Iria.

"He's in his room. Shall I get him for you or -"

"No, I know my way. Thanks Iria."

Duo slowly made his way up the stairs towards Quatre's room. His body felt stiff from all the pent-up emotion he was feeling.

"I knew I heard a familiar voice." Duo looked up as he saw his best friend standing in the doorway of his bedroom.

Normally Duo would smile and enthusiastically greet his friend. So it really surprised Quatre when Duo didn't even nod to acknowledge him but instead, almost emotionally, walked past him into his room.

"Duo?" He asked worried in a worried tone.

Quatre knew Duo wasn't the kind of person to be sulking. Duo was the optimistic type of person.

'What happened?' Quatre wondered as he looked at his friend.

He frowned as he was thinking of the things Duo had done today. Nothing too spectacular happened at school. Well, Duo did fall down the stairs but that certainly wasn't the cause of this out of character behaviour.

Duo had met Wufei too tonight. But Duo had been very optimistic about that. From the call he had with Duo he was sure they would have patched things up again.

But if things had gone wrong, it would mean they didn't patch things up. Quatre gasped when he figured out what that actually meant.

"Oh, Duo. I'm really sorry." Quatre muttered softly. A sad expression crossed his face.

Duo looked up to Quatre as his friend spoke. He shook his head and said: "It's not your fault."

Duo felt quite proud of himself that his voice sounded even. He felt like shit right now but he wasn't going to show Quatre.

Quatre was a light-hearted person and that always made Duo feel better when he was in a bad mood. And that was what made him go to Quatre's house.

Because he certainly didn't want to think about Wufei right now.

He had the feeling his mind now finally understood that when Wufei had said it was over, he meant it.

Wufei wasn't joking, his expression had been dead serious. He had broken up with Duo and it just now registered in Duo's mind he didn't even know why.

It all had been so unexpected. He had been optimistic when he arrived at the park and saw Wufei. His heart had fluttered at the sight of Wufei and he had fallen in love all over again.

Only to have his hopes of being together with Wufei ever again being crushed by those cruel words. 'But,' Duo decided, 'I am not going to think about that now.'

Meanwhile Quatre was biting his lip quite nervously. He was dying to know what had occurred between Duo and Wufei.

He had figured out they had broken up but he wanted to know why. Duo had seemed very optimistic before.

He was silently debating with himself whether he asked Duo what had happened or not.

But he didn't have to wonder about that for very long.

Duo had been watching Quatre's expression change and had decided he would help his friend out of misery.

"He broke up with me." Duo explained.

Quatre opened his mouth to say something but Duo raised his hand.

He looked at Quatre with a somewhat pleading expression and said: "End of story."

And even though Quatre didn't want their conversation to end there he nodded. Because Duo didn't need an interrogation right now.

And when the two of them made their way downstairs to watch some TV Quatre sighed. He wondered what was going to happen when Duo faced Wufei again at school.

After having made some drinks Quatre and Duo sat down on the couch to watch some random TV-series. Quatre wasn't paying much attention when suddenly he felt a soft nudge in his side.

He turned towards Duo and saw him leaning against the back of the couch, staring at the ceiling.

"Duo, are you okay?" He asked with a small frown.

"Yes, a bit I guess." Duo nodded. "I'm not getting better than this right now. Feeling shit will probably be almost mandatory for the coming week." He said bitterly and sighed.

"I'm sure you'll be fine very soon." Quatre said gave his friend a reassuring smile.

But Duo shrugged and in a voice laced with hurt said: "He said he was sorry. Do you want to know what else he said?" Duo questioned and turned to Quatre. "I asked if he didn't love me anymore and all he said was: 'Yes, I guess that's what I'm saying.'"

Duo looked down and fidgeted with the end of his braid. He wanted to tell Quatre what Wufei had told him. But right now he was feeling very self-conscious about himself and the situation.

He looked at Quatre for a moment who smiled at him. "Duo, you know you don't have to tell me."

"I know," Duo paused for a moment and shrugged. "I'm just trying to get it off my chest, you know. Perhaps it will help me to forget about him sooner." Duo said and after a moment laughed bitterly at his own words.

"As if," he commented on his own words after a few moments. "The worst is that I really like him. I could've loved him, you know."

"Duo!" Quatre looked at his friend with shock written all over his face. "It's not a bad thing to love someone, right?"

"It is when you get it all thrown back at you when the guy breaks up!" Duo answered him almost angrily.

Quatre looked at his friend in compassion and all he could think was: 'Oh Duo.'

TBC.