AN: I am inexpressibly sorry for not uploading a chapter for a while. I had been suffering from tremendous writer's block and had absolutely no idea about what I should write next. Honestly, I still am not sure. Anyway, hope you guys like this and thanks for reading!
Toni sat in the back of Dean's Impala, listening to the same record for the third time. At first it had been fun to watch the brother's bicker, Dean being older would never let Sam be right,and Sam being head-strong would want to prove Dean wrong. But beneath all that, Toni saw a very deep bond between the two. Toni was getting restless, they had been driving for four hours straight and she desperately needed to get some air.
After what felt like eternity, they pulled over at a motel and checked in at about six in the evening. They took the room on the ground floor closest to the fire escape. She was told that in case she got lost to just check into the first motel in the Yellow Pages and that they would find her. Toni threw her bag down, sat down on one of the queen sized beds, pulled her gun out and set it on the small table by the bed. She wa quite tierd after the long drive and her wounds ached but she didn't dare complain otherwise the boys would start lecturing her on how they had told her to stay at Bobby's.
Determined not to betray any sign of weakness she said," So where do we start?"
"Well we'll have to ask around about the vic's, see if they have anything in common," Sam said, sounding almost bored.
"I'm going to the bar," Dean announced as he walked towards door.
"To work or to drink?" Sam asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Both," came the reply with a cheeky smile as he closed the door behind him making Sam sigh.
"OK," Sam said opening the newspaper. "It says that all victims were found to be missing at a day's interval. One every night. The latest has been Victoria Green, a 23 year old blond. She was last seen leaving a bar downtown."
"We can head there as soon as Dean gets back," Toni suggested and Sam agreed. Sam started working on his laptop and as Toni flipped through a magazine she wondered what he did on that thing all day. It was getting late so they guessed that Dean was probably getting lucky and went out to grab some dinner at a small restaraunt near by, leaving a note for Dean just in case.
"So does your brother always dump you at the motel on your own?" she asked him as a joke.
He gave a small laugh and said," Not really. I just choose not to go," and Toni felt that she should probably not intrude anymore. They paid the bill, actually Sam refused to let her pay which Toni found so adorable. They returned to the empty motel room and Toni got ready for bed, they had a long day ahead of them. Just before she was about to turn of the lights Sam turned to her with a slightly pained expression on his face and said," Earlier when you asked me why I don't go out with Dean, I think you should know the truth." He sighed and continued and Toni knew that she wouldn't like what was coming. "My girlfriend Jessica, was killed by a demon when I had left Stanford to look for my dad with Dean. The same demon that killed my mom. It was my fault, I shouldn't have left her alone," Toni saw tears glistening in his eyes but they didn't fall. "I just feel responsible for her not being here right now, you know?" and Toni shook her head silently, not knowing what to say. She never knew how to deal with emotions, not even her own. That's why she loved hunting, it gave vent to her feelings.
"It isn't your fault," she said based on whatever she had gathered. "You couldn't have known." She gave him a smile and he returned it gratefully. She swithced off the lights happy knowing that Sam trusted her and could confide in her. But at the same time it killed her to know that Sam still had feelings for another woman.