Chapter 4
"So any plans for tonight?" The doctor asked as he was examining Beca. "Uhm Chloe comes to visit me..." "Really?" Beca nodded. "Well that's nice." The doctor smiled. "Is it selfish?" "What is selfish?" "Well asking her to come over and hoping she might like me back..." "Why would that be selfish?" He asked as he turned Beca on her back again. "Well I don't know how long I will... You know be here..." "Yeah... Well maybe you can talk about it with her?" "And then? I'll just say: hey Chloe I like you but I'm going to die soon? No, I can't do that..." Beca sighed. "Hey, you're not going to die..." "You said that earlier about him..." "He was younger..." "So? I wish it was me instead of him..." "Beca stop thinking like that. You're strong you can do this." Beca wasn't so sure anymore. "Okay, I have to go now, have fun with Chloe. Remember that we're starting with new medicines tomorrow!" "Bye doc!" The doctor left and Beca checked how late it was. A half hour till Chloe came. She grabbed her laptop and started on her mixes. She was so caught up in her mixes she forgot the time. Suddenly someone knocked on her door. "Come in?" Chloe came in and smiled when she saw Beca. "Hey." "Hey." Beca smiled back. "What are you doing?" Chloe asked as she walked over to Beca. "Uh working on my mixes..." "You're a Dj?" "Well I want to be one later yes..." "Cool! Can I hear it?" "Uh I don't know..." "Aw please..." "Okay fine." Beca showed Chloe some of her work and Chloe listened carefully. "This is awesome!" Chloe said as she gave Beca her headphones back. "Thanks..." Beca mumbled. "So what are we doing tonight?" "I don't know?" "I brought a movie?" Chloe said. "A movie..." Beca said disappointed. "Don't you like movies?" "They're okay not really interesting..." "We'll see what you think of this one." Chloe said as she got The Host out of her pocket.
Beca putted in her laptop and Chloe sat next to her. "Before we start can I ask you something?" "Sure, what is it?" Beca said without looking away form her laptop. "Why were you so upset about the dead of that person who had the same disease of you...?" "Oh that..." Beca really didn't want to talk about it. "Please tell me... You can trust me..." "I know... But this is different..." "Please..." Chloe laid her hand on Beca's and looked at her. Beca looked into her beautiful blue eyes. "That person was... My little brother..." "What..." Chloe said in a whisper. "Yeah... He was only 8 years old..." "I am so sorry..." Beca shook her head. "Don't be... I just wish every day that I could change places with him... He didn't deserve this..." "Don't say that Beca..." "It's true... I'm here for 6 months and I'm still a live, he was here for 3 months..." Beca started to tear up but quickly wiped away her tears. "He was so smart... He always asked for me when he was in the hospital but they didn't let me visit him..." "Why not?" "I don't know... I kept asking the doctors to focus on him not on me... It didn't help..." Now Beca broke down. She hid her face in her hands and cried. "I promised him he would be okay..." "You couldn't know." Chloe mumbled as she pulled Beca into a hug. "Why did he had to die? Why? Why didn't they take me?" Beca sobbed. "Please take me in his place..." "Sssh..." Chloe tried to calm her down but she almost cried her self. "When did it happen...?" "Yesterday..." Beca pulled back from the hug and looked embarrassed at Chloe. "Sorry..." "It's okay... I know how you feel..." "How can you know how I feel..." Beca mumbled. No one could know how she felt... "I lost my sister a year ago... She was in a car accident... You have no idea how bad I wished I was in that car instead of her..." Beca looked at Chloe and saw the pain in her eyes. "I'm sorry..." "It's okay... I learned to live with it... But I still think about her everyday... And you can do that too... Just think about your brother, think about all the good memories you have and all the little things you remember of him..." "I remember how he woke me every day to tell me he loved me and then he asked if he could hear my mixes... He was my biggest fan... He was always proud of me even though he was only 8 years old..." "And he is still proud of you because you're still fighting against your disease... Just keep fighting for him..." Beca nodded. "I'm starting with new medicines tomorrow..." "Another step closer to the right medicine." "I hope so... Thank you Chloe for listening..." "Thank you for opening up to me..." Then Chloe received a text from Stacie. -PICTURE!- "Sorry..." "It's okay who is it?" "It's my friend... She wants a picture of you..." "Why?" "Don't ask." Beca laughed. "Well lets send her a pic then!" Beca wiped away her tears and laid her arm around Chloe's shoulder. Chloe took the picture and showed it to Beca. "That's a nice one! Send it to me too please." "Sure." Chloe sent the picture to Stacie and to Beca. "Well lets start this film then..." Beca sighed. "Oh you'll love it!" "We'll see..." During the film Chloe received a text from Stacie again. -she's adorable! She's definitely a keeper!- "What does she say?" "She says you're adorable..." "I'm not adorable!" "I'll tell her." Chloe winked at Beca. Chloe sent a text back and focused on the movie again. As she watched she rested her head on Beca's shoulder. Beca liked it. She knew she was really in love with Chloe...